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2009-05-28T07:35:00.001+07:00

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Moved

2006-04-28T11:40:00.000+07:00

I Have never actually blog here anymore. I've moved places to here . So don't forget...please visit me anytime you like... as in now hehehehe - What do you think -

Friendster - Hendra deBabang

2005-12-24T10:03:00.000+07:00

[I rawk dude wanna see more of me come and visit http://klomprangkentang.com/wp ]

Diamond Ring Hotel in Abu Dhabi

2005-10-29T09:18:00.000+07:00

tried to blog this picture straight from photobucket.com

Pergeseran Paradigma ...

2005-10-27T09:20:00.000+07:00

> The Story of the One-Eyed Mother > > My mom only had one eye. > I hated her... she was such an embarrassment...She > cooked for students & teachers...to support the > family. There was this one day during elementary > school and my mom came. I was so embarrassed. > > How could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful > look and ran out. > > The next day at school..."Your mom only has one > eye?!?!"...eeeee said a friend. I wished my mom > would > just disappear from this world. So I said to my mom, > "Mom... Why don't you have the other eye?! If you're > only gonna make me a laughing stock, why don't you > just die?!!!" My mom did not respond...I guess I > felt > a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to > think that I had said what I'd wanted to say all > this > time... Maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished > me, but I didn't think that I had hurt her feelings > very badly. > > That night... > I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of > water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if > she > was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at > her, and then turned away. Because of the thing I > had > said to her earlier, there was something pinching at > me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated my > mother who was crying out of her one eye. So I told > myself that I would grow up and become successful. > Then I studied real hard. I left my mother and went > to > Singapore to study. Then, I got married. I bought a > house of my own. Then I had kids, too...Now I'm > living > happily as a successful man. I like it here because > it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom. > > This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, > when... > > What?! Who's this?! It was my mother...Still with > her > one eye. I felt as if the whole sky was falling > apart > on me. Even my children ran away, scared of my mom's > eye. And I asked her, "Who are you?!" "I don't know > you!!!" as if trying to make that real. I screamed > at > her, "How dare you come to my house and scare my > children!" > > GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!" > > And to this, my mother quietly answered, "Oh, I'm so > sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she > disappeared out of sight. > > Thank good ness... She doesn't recognize me. I was > quite relieved. I told myself that I wasn't going to > care, or think about this for the rest of my life. > Then a wave of relief came upon me... > > One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to > my house in Singapore. So, lying to my wife that I > was > going on a business trip, I went. After the reunion, > I > went down to the old shack, that I used to call a > house...Just out of curiosity there, I found my > mother > fallen on the cold ground. But I did not shed a > single > tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand....It was > a > letter to me. > > "My son...I think my life has been long enough > now...And... I wont visit Singapore anymore...But > would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come > visit me once in a while? I miss you so much.. And I > was so glad when I heard you were coming for the > reunion. But I decided not to go to the school. For > you...And I'm sorry that I only have one eye, and I > was an embarrassment for you. > > You see, when you were very little, you got into an > accident, and lost your eye. As a mom, I couldn't > stand watching you having to grow up with only one > eye... So I gave you mine... I was so proud of my > son > that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my > place, > with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything > you did.. The couple times that you were angry with > me..I thought to myself, 'It's because he loves > me..'My son... Oh, my son... " > This message has a very deep meaning and is passed > to > remind people of the goodness they have enjoy was > because of others directly or indirectly. > > Pause a moment and consider your life! Be thankful > of > what you have today compared to many millions who do > not live lives as you do! > > Do spend some time in prayer for your mum out there! > > > > > __________________________________ > Yahoo! Music Unlimited > Access over 1 million songs. Try it free. > http://music.yahoo.com/unlimited/ > > > --------------------------------- > Yahoo! Music Unlimited - Access over 1 million > songs. Try it free. > > --------------------------------- > YAHOO! GROUPS LINKS > > > Visit your group "kspd_bimasakti" on the web. > > To unsubscribe from this group, send an email > to: > kspd_bimasakti-unsubscribe@yahoogroups.com > > Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to the > Yahoo! Terms of Service. > > > --------------------------------- > > > > > > --------------------------------- > Yahoo! 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2005-08-03T09:34:00.000+07:00

Gaya rebah pembalap..... Gaya pembalap Italia Gaya Pembalap Singapore Gaya Pembalap Malaysia Gaya Pembalap Jerman Gaya Pembalap Hongkong Gaya Pembalap Cina Gaya Pembalap Korea Gaya Pembalap Indonesia :

-- God is good....all the time....God bless you

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Jobless

2005-01-17T14:13:00.000+07:00

Wah gue udah jobless lagi nih sekarang. Wuih setelah mengalami perjuangan panjang dan melelahkan akhirnya aku harus mengambil sikap untuk keluar aja deh. Not worth it rasanya. O iya aku juga udah mulai nulis di blog baruku di www.klomprangkentang.com/blog you are welcome visit it also if you like. thanks - What do you think -

Doa Puasa

2004-12-13T16:14:00.000+07:00

Pada hari ini aku sedang berdoa puasa untuk mengetahui jawaban Tuhan atas pergumulanku. Pada hari ini aku sedang bertanya pada Tuhan tentang Vanny. Apakah dia adalah pendamping hidupku untuk seterusnya dan selamanya? Apa yang Tuhan sedang ingin aku pelajari dari semua hal yang baru saja terjadi dalam dua – tiga minggu belakangan ini? Tindakan apa yang harus aku lakukan sebagai bukti bahwa aku sudah mendengar jawaban Tuhan dan hal apa yang harus aku lakukan dan janjikan untuk ke depan? Hari ini Tuhan berbicara banyak kepadaku lewat pembacaan firman Tuhan dari Mazmur 142. Aku sedang belajar dari Daud, bagaimana ia sedang berada dalam suatu “gua” yang menutupinya. Gua dapat berupa ketakutan, ketidakpercayaan kepada Allah sehingga tidak bisa mengerti apa yang sedang Tuhan tunjukkan, selubung penghalang sebagai akibat dari dosa kesalahan dll. Akupun sedang berada di dalam suatu “gua” yang sangat dalam, dimana aku selalu meragukan jawaban Tuhan untuk hidupku. Aku diberi jawaban akan tetapi seringkali aku berlaku tidak percaya kepadaNya sehingga seakan akan selubung itu tidak membolehkanku melihat janji Allah yang lebih sempurna itu. Daud pernah berada dalam gua dan ketika ia takut, merasa sendirian, tidak dipedulikan, terjebak dalam kondisi yang berat dll, ia melakukan hal yang menyenangkan Tuhan. Ia memohon belas kasihan Allah, mencari perlindungan di dalam Dia, dan berjanji untuk memakai kebebasannya sebagai jalan untuk memujiNya. Keluhannya diikuti dengan iman yang besar. Keputusasaannya diikuti pujian kepada Allah. Rasa kesepiannya diikuti persekutuan dengan Tuhan dan orang percaya lainnya. Aku belajar beberapa hal hari ini. Beberapa hal yang aku percayai Tuhan sudah taruh dalam hatiku untuk aku uji, pelajari dan lakukan. PROSES. Segala sesuatu di dunia ini berlangsung dalam proses. Tidak ada sesuatu yang terjadi dalam sekejap seakan akan magic. Inilah cara Allah mendidik manusia, lewat proses. Pada hari ini aku diwajibkan juga untuk ikut dalam proses menuju kedewasaan iman yang Tuhan sudah rancangkan bagiku. Mau nggak mau aku harus ikut proses dan suka nggak suka proses itu akan terus mengikutiku kemanapun aku berlari. Sehingga pilihanku satu satunya ialah mengikuti proses dan belajar dalam proses itu agar kemudian aku lulus dari satu proses dan naik tingkat ke proses yang lain yang lebih kompleks. Sehingga akhirnya aku akan menjadi dewasa. Aku pelajari bahwa walaupun aku mencoba berlari tapi proses yang sama dalam bentuk lain tetap akan terjadi padaku sampai aku dengan teguh hati menghadapinya dan menang atasnya. Baru kemudian proses itu akan beralih dariku. TUJUAN. Allah punya tujuan dalam hidupku dan jika aku berkata aku akan melayani Tuhan maka aku harus melayani sesuai dengan tujuan Tuhan, bukan tujuanku, atau aku harus menyelaraskan tujuanku dengan tujuan Tuhan. Sehingga segala sesuatu yang harus aku perbuat, aku harus uji tujuanku melakukannya sehingga itu benar benar bukan sesuatu yang hanya untuk menyenangkan hatiku semata. IMPIAN. Allah memberikan pikiran dalam kepalaku untuk juga menghasilkan impian khusus untuk aku capai sebagai suatu tujuan dan motivasi aku melakukan banyak hal. Impian ini sangat khas dan berbeda untuk masing masing pribadi dan bersifat sangat pribadi. Itu juga adalah cara Allah berbicara mengenai apa yang diinginkan hatiNya bagiku. Aku harus mengerti impianku agar ketika aku hidup aku memiliki arah yang jelas dan tujuan yang nyata. SETIA. Kesetiaan adalah suatu hal mutlak ketika aku melayani Tuhan. Kesetiaan kepada Allah, juga kepada orang orang lain di sekitarku. Kesetiaan menuntut suatu tindakan tegas untuk mengikuti kebenaran dan berjalan sesuai dengan hal tersebut tanpa ragu. Ketika aku harus diperhadapkan dengan sesuatu hal yang Tuhan ingin aku kerjakan dalam hidupku, maka segala halangan dan rintangan yang akan datang menerpa harus dapat aku singkirkan dan aku harus tetap melakukan apa yang seharusnya aku kerjakan. MENUNGGU. Ini sebenarnya adalah salah satu proses yang harus aku hadapi dalam bulan ini. Bagi orang seperti aku nggak gampang untuk menunggu, terutama akan hal hal yang tidak terlihat di depan mata. Menunggu mungkin adalah pekerjaan paling membosankan dan paling mendebarkan dalam hidup ini. Terutama apabila kita tidak tahu apa yang akan menjadi jawaban akhir. Apakah berpihak kepada kita atau malah sebaliknya. Aku belajar untuk percaya kepada Tuhan bahwa Tuhan itu baik dan apa saja yang akan diberikannya merupakan hal yang terbaik untukku saat ini. Ini yang dapat menguatkanku ketika aku diharuskan menunggu karena kemudian aku yakin bahwa walaupun keputusan Allah tidak sesuai dengan apa yuang aku rasakan dan bayangkan, itu tetaplah hal yang paling baik untuk aku saat ini. Dan Allah tidak pernah menjawab terlambat, selalu tepat pada waktunya, sehingga sebenarnya tidak ada yang perlu ditakutkan. Hanya perlu kesetiaan. TEKUN. Ketekunan hampir mirip dengan kesetiaan. Ketika aku harus tekun maka aku akan menghilangkan segala hal yang dapat atau mencoba menghalangi aku dan tetap menentukan fokusku ke depan. Melakukannya dan melakukannya lagi hingga pada akhirnya aku mendapatkan apa yang aku tekuni. Ketekunan juga menimbulkan tahan uji, artinya ketika aku belajar untuk tekun dan mendapatkan hasilnya, maka hasil itu tidak akan dengan gampang digoyahkan manusia. REDAM EMOSI. Ini adalah satu kelemahan yang aku miliki pada saat ini. Aku terlalu dikuasai oleh emosiku yang meledak ledak, baik itu emosi untuk marah ataupun emosi untuk sedih, senang, kecewa dan lain lain. Ketika aku mengalami emosi ini maka aku langsung meluapkannya tanpa berpikir panjang apa yang bisa menjadi akibatnya, sehingga banyak orang menjadi “takut” padaku. Aku haruis bisa menundukkannya dibawah kaki Tuhan sambil dengan tekun meredamnya dan berpikir terlebih dahulu sebelum itu harus keluar. Apabilapun hal tersebut harus keluar, hendaknya keluar dalam keadaan terkontrol. Ini yang akan menjadi pangalaman dan palajaran penting bagiku saat ini. LEMAH LEMBUT. Suatu sikap yang aku harus tunjukkan sebagai teladanku akan Bapaku. Kelemahlembutan ini masih sangat kurang di dalam hidupku sehingga aku memang harus berjuang ekstra keras untuk memperolehnya. Inilah beberapa hal yang telah aku dapatkan pada hari ini dan aku juga berjanji untuk melakukannya walau itu sulit, karena aku percaya bahwa segala pencobaan yang aku alami ialah pencobaan biasa yang tidak melampaui kekuatan manusia. Apabila aku dicobai maka Allah tetap setia dan Ia akan memberikan jalan keluar agar aku dapat menanggungnya. Artinya jika Allah mengijinkan suatu pencobaan untuk aku alami maka aku percaya bahwa Tuhan mengerti bahwa tingkatanku sudah sampai disitu dan aku diuji. Apabila aku lulus ujian maka aku akan naik ke tingkat berikutnya dengan ujian lainnya. Terima kasih Tuhan sudah membukakan hal ini kepadaku pada hari ini. Aku percaya kepadaMu. Amin. - What do you think - - What do you think -

Life oh life...oh life...it's my life

2004-12-02T17:12:00.000+07:00

Gee....it's been awhile hasn't it? Iya nih gue udah lama banget nggak posting apa apa nih. Kemaren itu emang gue ada dalam keadaan yang ....ya dapat dikatakan nggak terlalu enak juga sih. Banyak banget hal hal yang menyakitkan, pelajaran baru, ya ada juga sukanya dikit dikit. Pokoknya gue habis mengalami masa yang begitu berkesan banget dalam hidup gue dan kelanjutannya. Banyak pelajaran yang aku peroleh tentang hidup ini, terutama bahwa hidup ini nggak segampang dan sesepele kupikirkan selama ini. tapi juga ternyata nggak berat dan nggak tertahankan sehingga nggak ada harapan. Aku percaya dan aku bener bener diajarkan untuk mengandalkan Tuhan dalam hidup. Ha... emangnya itu gampang. Biasanya banyak orang dengan klise akan berkata..."Ya kita serahkan aja ama Yang Di Atas". Tapi sebenarnya mereka mengatakan aku nggak tau apa apa sekarang dan aku sedang nggak mau membicarakan hal ini sekarang karena aku juga sedang bingung". Tapi sebenarnya apa sih yang dinamakan "berserah" itu? Well yang aku pelajari sih bahwa berserah itu dan beriman itu adalah mempercayakan hidup 100% ama Tuhan tanpa tahu sebenarnya apa yang akan terjadi akan tetapi tidak ada kekhawatiran disana karena percaya bahwa Tuhan mengetahui apa yang terbaik untukku. Aku nggak tahu apa yang akan terjadi besok, ato sejam lagi ato semenit lagi, tapi kalo gue berserah ama Tuhan artinya gue percaya apapun yang akan terjadi ama gue itu yang terbaik. Karena gue percaya kalo Allah tuh turut bekerja dalam segala hal untuk mendatangkan kebaikan bagi semua orang yang mengasihi Dia. Jadi even though gue akan nghadapi suatu siksaan, ato seakan akan suatu ketidakpastian, dukacita, sakit ato harus bergumul akan sesuatu...gue percaya banget kalo semua itu sama baiknya ama kalo gue dapat berkat yang melimpah, ato sukacita ato hal hal menyenangkan lainnya. Cause God works in mysterious ways. Tapi pasti demi kebaikan. Agak sulit sebenarnya mempercayai ini, apalagi dengan hal itu berarti gue harus dengan sabar menunggu "hal baik" yang akan muncul dari "hal buruk" itu. And that's not fun...at all. Terutama untuk orang seperti gue ini yang senantiasa tergesa gesa melakukan semua hal, lebih sulit untuk disuruh bersabar and look beyond the problem. Tapi justru ketika gue harus latihanmenghadapi apa yang sepertinya suatu ketidakpastian itu yang membuat aku semakin dekat ama Tuhan. Pernah juga sih jatuh lagi tapi nggak lama lama dan aku langsung bangkit. Ampe saat ini gue belom gawe lagi. Udah lebih sebulan gue nggak kerja... ya itung itung lagi istirahat panjang yang lumayan mengasyikkan, tapi udah kangen nih pengen kerja lagi. Gue juga sebenarnya pengen balik ke Medan...kampung halaman gue karena emang ketidakpastian ini juga melelahkan dan I want to spend some time with my family there, tapi rasanya agak sulit karena gue lagi bokek nih...ga ada duit untuk balik natalan. Ah well, I'll live. Oh ya this is another thing that I missed so much. Christmas. Thanks to Vie yang udah ngasih nih template. sebenarnya gue cuma pengen ganti suasana aja dan lagi nggak terlalu pengen ngutak atik HTML ya akhirnya ternyata ketemu di blognya Vie, jadi ya syik aja deh pake ini dulu. Christmas disini itu nggak semeriah di Medan. Rasanya bertaon taon gue disini Christmasnya ya begitu itu, tapi kurang mengena aja rasanya untuk kebutuhanku...I miss Christmas in Medan. But I know that I was put here for a reson and I'm thanking God for it. Cause I know that He has something good..the best... in store for me. Tuhan itu baik, malah teramat sangat baik. Nggak cukup Dia hanya baik bagi kita...malah Dia lebih dari segalanya itu. Truly awesome and amazing God. Love You Father. Oh ya today is my sister Dewi's birthday. Well happy birthday deh sis. Hope you and your husband and Lewis diberkati selimpah limpahnya oleh Tuhan otreeee. - What do you think -

Rainbow

2004-10-31T21:32:00.000+07:00

Have you ever seen a rainbow? I have... well to tell you the truth it's the most awesome thing. It was somewhere up in the sky cause I coldn't really figured out where it was cause even if I go there I wouldn't find it. I can see it but from a distance. But that's OK cause I also know that if I try to see it up close then it wouldn't be as amazing cause it'll just be water vapor in the sky. This beautiful rainbow consist of all the colours there are. It's really colouring the sky with something beautiful. When I get to see this raibow several times it made my heart full of joy, happiness, smile and awe. it never made me frown or sad from it's existence. And never have I heard a person saying bad things about a rainbow. Meaning just about everybody enjoys it's presence and like the colourful sky once in a while. But I also found out that this rainbow only comes out ever so often. You may only enjoy the presence of a rainbow after a series of "bad" situations. It only comes out after a thunderous rain, dark scary clouds, storm, heavy wind, thunder, lightning and the sort. That's exactly what I learnt through my life these few days. I really feel the rainbow of my Lord is coming upon me. After the rain and the darkness that I've been through, I'm beginning to see the clouds clearing up and I know that soon after all the clouds have cleared up, I will truly see this beautiful rainbow of my life. I have been in such a hard situation that I was forced to make a decision, either to fully trust the Lord and everything about Him or not at all. I truly say that I am so very lucky. As I have said in the earlier post that I find it hard to depend fully on God. Well that era is out the door. I really trully learning new things in my life and trusting God with my life is amazing. I never felt better, even though I haven't seen anything yet. Nothing has changed yet, in fact some may say that it got "worse". But amazingly I can really put my trust in my Father who provided me with the best feeling I have ever felt. The feeling of satisfaction and happiness. This day will really go down in history of my life. That is when God made me into a zero so that He may use me with the fullness of His power. cause if I think that I'm something then the power of God will not work through me fully as He would like it to work. Now Lord, use me and mold me into anything You wish master. Cause I know that if I have faith in You then Your rainbow will satisfy me as You have satisfied my life. - What do you think -

A zero in no time

2004-10-27T08:30:00.000+07:00

God will make a way Where there seems to be no way He works in ways we cannot see He will make a way for me He will be my guide Hold me closely to His side With love and strength For each new day He will make a way God will make a way

Today I really learned something new. When I asked God to make me a zero and have nothing.....He did just that. Today I have nothing as in almost nothing. Well yesterday after a fight with my GF we learned to forgive each other in God and are getting better at it and not keep the pain anymore. That's fine, but another fear immerge from the underground. After we went to counseling yesterday, I took my GF home and to my surprise, I wasn't welcome there anymore by her parents. Hmmm...I was pretty freaked out. I mean I have just gone through a rough time in my life and when I'm trying to get up, something like this came up. That's really frustating. But I gave it up to God. This morning, I realized that I have no money left, not even to last me 2 days. I really mean no money, as I haven't receive my pay for this month and at the end of the month I will have to get out of this job. That makes me a zero. And I haven't got anybody that I can rely on to help me...and I realized that I don't need anybody cause I have my Father the provider. I'm also in the midst of finding a new job. I have brought it up to God and until today I haven't been called for an interview. But I'm not worried cause I know my Father will give it at the right time and never too late. I'm trying to learn how to really depend on my saviour without a doubt in my life. This has been what I wanted to do, but never have the courage to do it. But from this day on, I really want to learn Lord to trust You 100% and I'm not turning back. It's quite difficult for someone like me to put a trust on somebody else 100% cause I was born with a feeling that no one can do it better than yourself, so most of the time I trusted myself. But Lord I want to start putting You in first place and trusting You with everything I have, cause they all belong to You and I belong to You. Please help me Lord, this is my prayer. I know that You will make a way for me in Your time......at the right time.Perfect time. Thank You Father - What do you think -

Zero ...Zilch...

2004-10-23T08:38:00.000+07:00

Oh how I really wanted to be a zero, Lord. All my life I've been taught how to be a hero, someone that other people will look up to. Someone that everybody feels proud of. And I was also taught to be proud of myself, when all that I do doesn't deserve anything as such. Oh how i want to be just a zero, that doesn't have anything to prove. That doesn't have any grand ego that's ruling over my life. Oh how I want to be a zero that noone have to look up to. cause I'm nothing of the sort. Oh how I want to be a zero that always depends on SOMEBODY bigger than me. How I always wanted to seek protection from Thee, o Lord. How I want always to be nothing so that my ego doesn't stop me from seeking You. Please make of me a zero so that I may be able to grow up through my knowledge of You and maybe, just maybe someday You'll make me a hero in Your presence. Amen - What do you think -

In need of a long vacation

2004-10-15T10:45:00.000+07:00

I really need a vacation. I really, truly need a very lonnnggg and nice vacation. Why couldn't I find the time to be with myself and think about all my life, what I wanna become and what I wanna do in the near future. I really need to reflect on all my daily activities, what I have done and evaluate on how I'm living in this world. To tell you the truth, I'm not really a guy that likes to do these things. I'm a rather spontaneous person, I don't sit around and plan my daily life. I can just jump from one activity to the next without it being planned in the first place. What i like to do, then I do it. But I actually feel how this is a very dangerous habit. That I'm not living as i wanted to be. Not living as I needed to be and for the purpose that I was here in the first place. I realize that with a life I'm living at the moment, I'm going nowhere and actually doing nothing that's "really important". What i'm actually doing is just having "fun (??)" when I need to be focusing on more major issues of life. All my daily activities, such as office routines, basketball, this and that is actually making me into a monster. I feel that all these routines are just taking up all my time without really meaning anything in my life. FYI, I don't really enjoy what I'm doing at the moment cause I don't think that's what I'm supposed to be doing. I wanna live my life to the fullest. I don't feel that I'm showing all my capabilities at this stage. I feel that I am capable of doing more things with my life but at the moment I'm just too slow and not working hard enough. Maybe it's the environment, maybe it's also that I don't enjoy this thing anymore, maybe I just get bored easily, or maybe it's just not the perfect job in my mind. But whatever it is, I need time to think about it all by myself in my own time that I don't have much right now. God i know that You were always there, even though I feel soooooooo very dry. I don't know what to do with my life, and I bet you do. But the thing is, Lord. sometimes I just can't hear Your voice as clear that I have doubts in my head. Forgive me Father, but I really need You and reeaaalllly need to hear Your voice if I may but clearer Lord. That's my prayer to you. Hope that You are listening. - What do you think -

Forgive me

2004-10-08T08:11:00.000+07:00

Hmmmm...... Been rather depressed lately, I don't know with all the troubles and problems that I'm facing these few days, I am ready to burst. I feel that I'm not living as myself, I have been living my life not the way I'd wanted it to be. I have my hopes and dreams since I was much younger but I feel that I am not living anywhere near my dreams. Too many compromises and not much of risk taking. I don't know what I have to do to get out of it all. I'm really quite stressed out. Really. And I think guys, that I better have some time to myself to figure things out myself. I might not be posting anything for some times. I don't even feel alive anymore. God...forgive me. - What do you think -

New President

2004-10-05T11:58:00.000+07:00

Indonesia has a new leader, officially yesterday (4/10). Yup as we may have all known, even from the beginning of the vote counting period, that Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono has been elected by the Indonesian people as their new President, the sixth so far since the Indonesian Independence. Some people, especially the followers of Megawati Soekarno Putri, may be dissapointed that their candidate didn't make it up to the stage. But we should all be thankful that the three rounds of elections that we held since April 2004 until September election has been excellent. These three rounds didn't cause much chaos in Indonesia, and went quite well, democratically. Besides the bombing that happened (that we don't know is it election related or not)probably there wasn't any major issue that cause lack of insecurity. So we might just say that the election was a success. Now we have a new guy sitting up there. From the campaigning that he'd been doing he's quite a charming leader. But is that only from the front end? What about after a year, how charming will he stay? Also with the not so charming people around him...could he stay the same and lead us as he said that he would? I agree that we should give chances to anyone that should lead this country. I don't expect too much changes in the near future especially the corruption and collussion. I think that it's here to stay, in the near future anyway. Nobody can lead and take Indonesia out of these mess in a year so let us all be patient about it. I don't really know if I should be excited that SBY should lead or that I should be sad. FYI I also voted on him, but that is because my lack of trust to the Mega government. But I also know that if God should allow this man to sit as president then He's got something going for SBY and Indonesia. I know that it'll be for the best. I have a few personal fears also that could happen in the future, and maybe some of you may have known and share the same thoughts with me. But I wanna just give it up to God and let God be the real ruler of Indonesia, that we may all live in peace. To Pak SBY, Thank you for giving us a little faith in you. You may have known the problems that keep on pulling Indonesia back to the big hole and difficult to get up. I bet you understand how and what to do, to at least minimize them and take us all out of this big stinking hole. Please don't hesitate to use your power to get rid of all the injustice in Indonesia. And I wish that you may use your heart while ruling so that you may see what's right and wrong and that you may not repeat the same mistake that had been done by your predecessor. Please look at us all, your people...the people of Indonesia. From the smallest to the highest level. Feel our needs and please don't discriminate us. May God bless you and always be in your heart to guide you and keep you on the right track to get us all out of here safely. Thank you - What do you think -

Like the Sunshine at Dawn

2004-09-30T08:55:00.000+07:00

Ketika kuhadapi kehidupan ini Jalan mana yang harus kupilih Kutahu ku tak mampu Kutahu ku tak sanggup Hanya Kau Tuhan tempat jawabanku Akupun tahu ku tak pernah sendiri Sebab Engkau Allah yang menggendongku TanganMu membelaiku CintaMu memuaskanku Kau mengangkatku ke tempat yang tinggi JanjiMu sperti Fajar pagi hari Dan tiada pernah terlambat bersinar CintaMu sperti sungai yang mengalir Dan kutahu betapa dalam kasihMu

I've been really blessed by a lot of songs that I sing these few days. I really felt how God has been really good to me. This is one of them. I have been longing to post this song for a long time now. It's not a very new song, but not old either. But I guess when we sing praises to GOD, no song is obsolete. They can all bring nourishments to a tired heart and bring comfort to the painful heart. You never ask for the sunshine to come up everyday nor do we remember that it will rise up in the morning. We usually think of it as an everyday thing and we seldom give thanks for it. But just imagine if the sun doesn't shine just for one day, or maybe 5 hours late. CHAOS. People all over the world would be in a frightened condition. Everyone will be trying to save their own lifes. Not only that, you wouldn't be as healthy without the sun shining everyday. You'll feel ill all over. But God made sure that the sun will shine at exactly the right time and never late. That's how much He loves us. In fact His love is just like that. Like the sun that you can expect everyday, and He gives it at the right time, and never late. You can expect His loving care for you and there's nothing in this world that will make Him unlove you. Believe me that. - What do you think -

Happy Birthday Honey

2004-09-27T13:08:00.000+07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHUNNEH!!! Today is my sweet, beautiful gf's birthday. Hmmm.....21 years huh. Phunny... I wish for you the happiest birthday ever and an even happier future. I love you and always will. Thanks for being next to me all these times. You were always a great friend to be with and always the one to care for me. I thank the Lord for His kindness that we may meet that day, and the love that keeps on blooming on our hearts from that day continously. Twenty one is a number that represents the beginning of maturity. I know that you will mature even more as time goes by. Be sure to ask God for help on everything that you are going to do. I know I haven't been the best partner a woman can have, and I'm not saying that I have everything a woman always wanted. But for my love to you I am prepared to do anything in my power to make you happy and glad that I was always beside you. There's not much that I can offer you, except my life and my love. I love you honey, and I wish you a Happiest 21st birthday. Babangmoe - What do you think -

God cares

2004-09-22T13:04:00.000+07:00

Banyak perkara Yang tak dapat kumengerti Mengapakah harus terjadi Di dalam kehidupan ini Satu perkara Yang kusimpan dalam hati Tiada sesuatu kan terjadi Tanpa Allah peduli Allah mengerti, Allah peduli Segala persoalan yang kita hadapi Tak akan pernah dibiarkanNya Ku bergumul sendiri, s'bab Allah peduli.

This song has a lot of times inspired me to go on with my life. Many a time that I feel really helpless, angry at what's going on in my life. I feel there's just so many things that I shouldn't be experiencing, but somehow I have to go through. I feel that this life is so unfair and I often blame God for it. But through this song, I am once again reminded that no matter what goes on in my life, everything is under His care and power. If God let's something happen in my life, then it happened for a reason, and a good reason too. It's just a matter of time before I trully find out how He worked through that "bad" experience. Then I'll be amazed at how much He loves me. Lord, My God, You care about me and my life, and not only me but also for everyone. Please let me be more patient and not get all jumpy and angry at You, but let me open my eyes at what You are trying to do in my life. Let me see it from your perspective, then I'll never worry again.

"When You face a BIG problem, then fly out of earth and go to another planet, and when you look back to earth, then you can see how small your problem is" That's how God sees our problems, nothing's impossible for Him

- What do you think -

Amazing God

2004-09-16T09:20:00.000+07:00

updated sambungan dari kemaren
Wah Amazing God...truly amazing God. He works in wondrous ways that I'll never understand. So perfect timing and everything's so beautifully done.

Tadi malam (15Sept) sekitar jam 8 malam secara ajaib temanku sms aku bilang "kamu kehilangan dompet ya.Ada anak STT Bethany nemu". Wah aku langsung cari tau rumahnya orang itu. Aku taunya ada juga temanku anak STT itu (Mae) yang pacarnya Yahya adalah teman satu gereja. Aku cari info sama vanny tentang alamat Mae itu. Amazingly, ketika kita nyampe seakan Tuhan itu juga mengirim mereka untuk bertemu kita. Mereka persis berada di depan rumah baru kembali dari suatu tempat dan akan pergi lagi. Hebat banget Tuhanku. Begitu ketemu dia bilang kalo yang nemu itu temannya Lia dari ambon, dan dia beri alamat yang kurang jelas, tapi Tuhan itu hebat. Kami mencari alamat itu dan ketika sampai pada rumah itu, si Lia dan pacarnya persis ada di depan pintu lagi ngobrol berdua. Vanny masuk duluan karena itu kostnya cewek trus bertanya dan mereka langsung kaget karena mereka baru aja ngomongin aku dan bagaimana cara ngembaliin dompetku. Wah setelah cerita panjang lebar akhirnya aku diajak ke kostnya pacarnya Lia, Robert karena dia udah membawanya pulang dan akan mengembalikannya ke alamat yang tertera.

Sebenarnya yang nemu itu adalah pembantu di kost cewek tsb ketika lari pagi tapi dia takut ngembalikannya. Tapi dia merasa harus mengambilnya, trus diberikan ke Lia ini. Awalnya katanya pacar si pembantu itu yang mau ngembalikan (tapi mungkin akan memeras aku) tapi Tuhan tahu apa yang lebih baik buat aku.Akhirnya Robert yang menyadari kalo akan dibuat jadi ajang mencari keuntungan mengambilnya dan bilang kalo dia aja yang kembalikan. Dan Robert ini tak meminta sedikitpun untuk itu. Dia tahu kalo orang kehilangan barang² penting dan uang itu sedang kemalangan dan tidak perlu diperas lagi. Puji Tuhan.

Akhirnya aku menemukan kembali SIM A & C ku beserta ATM, tapi anehnya STNK nya hilang, uangnya juga hilang sih tapi itu nggak terlalu menjadi soal bagi aku.Mungkin sih pembantunya itu udah nemu setelah ada yang nemu duluan dan mengambil duitnya. Mungkin juga dia nemu duitnya tapi ngakunya nggak ngambil duit. Tapi tetap aja Tuhanku itu amazing.

Semua orang yang terlibat dalam kejadian ini sebenarnya aku nggak kenal ataupun kalau kenal, nggak terlalu kenal. tapi bagi Tuhan nggak ada yang mustahil. Kasih itu lebih dalam dari sebuah perkenalan. Kalau Tuhan sudah bekerja, siapapun dapat digunakan, apalagi mereka juga adalah hamba Tuhan juga.

Dompet itu ternyata jatuhnya nggak terlalu jauh dari rumah Vanny, dan disana ada seorang tukang parkir yang kami kenal. Aku sih berencana untuk nanyain, mana tau dia mengerti dan melihat ada STNK jatuh di sekitar situ. kalaupun tidak, ya aku harus mengurusnya lagi. tapi nggak apa apa karena Tuhan itu sudah terlalu baik bagiku.

Aku sangat menikmati kejadian ini. Tuhan itu tidak memberi sedikitpun kekhawatiran tentang semua ini setelah aku datang padaNya.Aku sangat tenang, tidak seperti biasanya aku. Biasanya aku akan cepet cepet mengurus ini dan itu. Khawatir akan ini dan itu. Aku akan menggunakan rasioku untuk mengurusin semuanya, tanpa memberikan ruang untuk Roh Kudus bekerja lewat semua kejadian ini. Aku memang orang yang suka tergesa gesa dan susah untuk duduk diam tenang dan mendengarkan. Aku adalah orang yang sangat aktif dan suka melakukan ini dan itu. tapi aku sangat menyadari kalo melalui kejadian ini aku harus bisa selalu mengandalkan Tuhan dan biarkan Dia berkarya dalam hidupku. Ternyata karyanya Tuhan itu jauh lebih indah dari apa yang bisa aku aturkan sendiri. Amazing God truly amazing. - What do you think -

My Learning Weekend

2004-09-15T08:15:00.000+07:00

Hai all,
Did you all have a good time last weekend? Well, I was supposed to have one, and it was planned to be a good one. Hhahaa but God wanted it to be another awesome experience for me.

Well last weekend, on Sunday I was supposed to be a worship leader at my church ministering with let's call it the A team band and A singers team. The week for me had been a very busy, tiring and very mind boggling and it wasn't fun at all. I prepared the songs that we were gonna sing but just couldn't feel the "power" (if you know what I mean). I felt like I was noi worthy to lead at that time coz I felt that my spiritual life was disturbed a little because of my tiredness. Anyway, I called and messaged all the friends on the team (band and singers). To my surprise most of the team members cannot come. Some are going to bandung, another is returning to his homeland in Makassar and another to Kupang and will not return. While other members also can't make it with some excuses that they make. And I was furious.

I nearly got angry, but luckily Vanny, who was also in the band team arranged to have practice with some other friends who have never played before.And I arranged somehow and managed to get some more friends to act as singers.I feel really bad and like I wanted to just shout out loud.I felt neglected coz all these people doesn't make this as a priority. And to make it worse, it all happen on that few days, meaning that the week before that all of them were still seen at church. I was thinking, why does this have to happen to me? Why does it have to happen when it was my turn to lead and not happen when others lead? I was kinda angry at God. The practice doesn't go too well because all the new band team have to make adjustments in playing styles.

But after prayer and quiet time with God,things begin to change.I was not angry anymore. The next practice we had went quite well.I was surprised at how God made it happen so good. And on Sunday at the service, even though there were some small mistakes made, but all went quite well and I felt the Holy Spirit working among us.Thank You God.I was a happy fellow.

The next day was supposed to be a Fun Walk day for our church. So I woke up at around 4am, got ready, went to Vanny's house to pick her up, and went to the Fun Walk venue. But while riding my motorcycle I accidentally put my hand in my pocket and found out that my wallet was no longer there. I search around but couldn't find it. called vanny's house just in case I dropped it there, nothing. Went back to mine maybe I dropped it from the beggining, nothing.I went through all the street that I had passed before, slowly, but couldn't find anything on the street. You know how it is when there's something dropped on the street, it doesn't take long before somebody will take it, even if it was only 5 am.

So I went to the police and reported it.I lost my ID card (KTP), driver's licence (SIM A & C), ATM (2 banks), STNK and more stuffs also a sum money that I have taken just the day before.(Aku nggak tahu kenapa kemarennya aku ngambil uang banyak dari bank dan itu hilang semua)

Aku belajar sesuatu dari pelajaran ini. Aku sering kali hanya mengandalkan apa yang sudah ada dan kurang mengandalkan Tuhan. Aku sering berpikir rasional dan segalanya yang nggak masuk akal sering kali membuatku akan menolaknya. Artinya aku kurang memberi ruang untuk Roh Kudus bekerja secara nyata dalam hidupku. Aku hidup dengan percaya tentang apa yang aku udah bisa lihat di depan mataku. kalau belom rasanya kadang sulit untuk bisa aku terima.

ketika kejadian ini aku jadi belajar mengandalkan Tuhan. Karena memang aku nggak berdaya apa apa. hampir semua yang penting, identifikasi diri dan sebagainya hilang. Aku nggak bisa ambil uang karena hari itu libur sehingga bank nggak buka dan atm hilang semua.Aku nggak punya uang hanya Rp 4000 dan itu masih pagi sehingga aku hanya membayangkan aku nggak makan hari itu.Tapi ketika aku menyadari apa yang Tuhan sedang ajarkan ama aku, aku bisa melalui hari itu dengan penuh tawa. Aku berniat untuk tidak meminta minta bahkan kalau perlu orang nggak usah tau kalo aku kehilangan. Bener bener mau biarkan Tuhan bekerja. Amazing, aku makan siang ditraktir teman, dan makan malam juga ada yang ngajak. padahal aku biasa aja dan tiba tiba mereka ngajak aja. tadi malam aku boleh dapat sedikit lagi uang dari temanku karena aku pernah ngerjakan sesuatu dan dia belom bayarkan feenya dan baru kemaren aku diberi,tepat saat aku emang lagi butuh. Tadi pagi ada teman dekat juga sms mau bantu karena tau aku lagi kekurangan tapi aku tolak, aku bilang masih ada dan emang aku berniat mencukupkan diriku dengan apa yang ada padaku.

Mungkin bagi beberapa orang pengalaman ini biasa aja sih. Pelayanan nggak ada orang yang main ama nyanyi, trus jadi ada orang dan bisa tampil dengan baik mungkin adalah hal biasa saja. Ato kehilangan duit dan banyak surat penting lainnya juga biasa.Tapi aku belajar untuk mengandalkan Tuhan dalam situasi seperti ini dan aku sangat senang dapat marasakannya. Trima kasih Tuhan, aku tahu Engkau selalu menjagaku dan melindungiku dan memberikan yang terbaik bagiku. - What do you think -

Indonesia Menangis

2004-09-10T11:35:00.000+07:00

Bom di Kedubes Australia, Delapan Tewas, 200 Luka JAKARTA - Bom berdaya ledak tinggi (high explosive) kembali menggelegar dan mengguncang ibu kota. Kuat dugaan bahwa bom yang meledak sekitar pukul 10.15 tersebut adalah bom bunuh diri. Bom itu diangkut sebuah mobil dan diledakkan persis di jalur lambat depan Kedubes Australia, Jalan H.R. Rasuna Said, Kuningan, Jakarta Selatan. Sebuah lubang yang kini telah terisi air terbentuk di sana. Sedangkan mobil pengangkut bom tersebut tidak bisa dikenali lagi karena hancur berkeping-keping. Paling tidak, delapan orang tewas dan yang luka serius mendekati angka 200 jiwa. Mereka yang terluka itu, di antaranya, dirawat di MMC (Metropolitan Medical Center) 105 orang, di RS Aini 27 orang, dan RSAL 5 orang. Belum lagi yang dirawat di RSCM, Madistra.

Jawapos,10 September 2004

Tindakan keji dan tidak berprikemanusiaan kembali terjadi di Indonesia ini. Kita seakan terus menerus dihantui oleh tindakan brutal dan biadab seperti ini. Siapa yang menyangka warga yang hanya melintas di depan kantor Kedubes Australia itu bakalan menderita seperti ini, padahal mereka mungkin sama sekali tidak mengetahui masalah yang mengakibatkan si pembuat bom itu meledakkan bomnya. Tapi apa dapat dikata...nasi sudah menjadi bubur. 8 orang yang meninggal sudah meninggal, yang mungkin tangannya harus diamputasi ya mau nggak mau harus menjalaninya tanpa sedikitpun si pembuat bom mau tau ato bertanggungjawab atas perbuatannya.

Mengapa sih manusia semakin tidak memiliki rasa tidak peduli pada sesamanya. Tidak adakah lagi manusia Indonesia ini yang memiliki hati nurani. Semuanya hanya mengedepankan kepentingannya sendiri dan kelompoknya. Apa yang menguntungkan bagi dirinya walaupun itu tidak menguntungkan bagi orang lain. Semua sudah dilihat dari kaca mata bisnis dan kepentingan dan jarang sekali memakai hati.

Tuhan ampunilah kami karena kami semakin jauh darimu. Hiburkanlah para korban yang harus menderita karena keteledoran kami ini. Indonesia, bangkitlah dari kuburmu. Tunjukkan kepribadianmu yang sejati. Mari semua rakyat Indonesia bersatu untuk membangun negari ini, bukan malah merusaknya dengan rencana busuk yang kau pikirkan untuk kepentinganmu semata. Semoga Tuhan memberkati kita semua. Pulihkan negeri ini Tuhan. - What do you think -

Karena Cinta

2004-09-08T13:11:00.000+07:00

Hari ini adalah lembaran baru bagiku Kuberdiri karena kau yang memilihku Tak pernah kuragu akan cintamu Inilah diriku dengan melodi untukmu Dan bila aku berdiri tegak sampai hari ini Bukan karena kuat dan hebatku Semua karena cinta semua karena cinta Tak mampu diriku Dapat berdiri tegak, terima kasih cinta

Lagu ini adalah lagu yang diciptakan Glen Fredly untuk dua finalis Indonesian Idol, yakni Joy Tobing and Delon. Coba deh nikmati dan renungkan kata katanya. Lagu ini benar benar bagus sekali, penuh kerendahan hati dan hormat. Jikalau aku membaca dan menyanyikan lagu ini, dan ketika aku pertama kali mendengarkan lagu ini dinyanyikan oleh Joy, aku begitu tersentuh dan yang pertama kali aku bayangkan adalah cinta kasih Tuhan untuk aku. Aku nggak tahu sebenarnya lagu ini apakah memang terinspirasi oleh kasih Allah atau bukan, tapi aku bisa merefleksikannya kesana. Kalau aku merenungkannya, aku bisa menangis. Ketika Joy dan Delon menyanyikannya bisa ada suatu perasaan sesak dalam hatiku seakan ingin menangis rasanya. Aku tahu banget kalau Tuhan itu begitu baik dan semua yang boleh aku alami dan nikmati sekarang ini memang bukan karena kuat dan gagahku tetapi karena Tuhan sendiri yang mengizinkannya. Segala usaha yang aku lakukan tidak akan berarti apa apa jikalau Tuhan nggak mau memberkatinya. Kalau Tuhan nggak memilihku maka aku pun nggak bisa berbuat banyak. Aku nggak bisa merenungi nasib dan menyalahkan Tuhan. Akan tetapi Dia memilihku bahkan sejak dari dalam kandungan ibuku. Tidak pernah ada usahaku sendiri yang memungkinkan aku untuk bisa mengalami suatu kehidupan yang cukup baik. Memang benar kalau semua itu karena cinta, semua karena cinta kasih Tuhan dan anugerah yang tak ternilai harganya yang dipercayakan bagi aku. Terima kasih Tuhan - What do you think -

What I believe

2004-09-06T14:02:00.000+07:00

God is bigger and better and much closer than I can imagine
The bible is God's perfect guidebook for living
Jesus is God showing himself to me
Through His Holy Spirit, God lives in and through me now
Nothing in creation "just happened". God made it all, and for a reason.
Grace is the only way to have a relationship with God
Faith is the only way to grow in our relationship with God
God has allowed evil to provide us with a choice, God can bring good even out of evil events and God promises victory over evil to those who choose Him.
Heaven and hell are real places. death is the beginning and not the end
The church is to serve people like Jesus served people..

That's what I belive in....what do you believe in? - What do you think -

Injustice

2004-09-03T08:53:00.000+07:00

One thing just happened yesterday and today that made me even more wanting to get out of this company. If you are living in Indonesia, then you would know the Telkom Flexi. Well if you dont then Ill just describe it as the CDMA based telephone chip. Well there are basically two types; the pre-paid and the post-paid. For the post-paid ones you need to register at Telkom to get a number. In order to apply then you would have to give them the copy of your ID card. Well, that doesnt bother me, in fact thats just wonderful cause we get to pay the normal price (same as the PSTN) but we have a mobile phone. What bothers me is that many companies nowadays uses this facility to rip off people, such as Telkom and many innocent people. Why do I say this? Well yesterday, I went to my friends and ask many questions about flexi and stuff. I also told him that Telkom has a very good offer that is you must pay a sum of money in advance (about Rp 700.000) and you can call anywhere, anytime for two months, not worrying about the extra money you gotta pay. At first, because I dont like to think negatively, that this was really, truthfully, honestly a Telkom special offer. My friend just laughed at me for being so stupid. He said just you think, can you really limit the telephone credit to Rp 700.000 while you can call anywhere even abroad for two months? Its illegal stuff. He said that people look around for stolen IDs, copied IDs in the photocopier store, or even their maids ID or some other poor peoples ID and use them to apply for a number at Telkom. Then sell them to companies or anyone for that price. Maybe to some people they would think that this is such a bargain. Where else can you get an offer like that. Amazing. But when I heard that I nearly cried. I didnt believe that my company has used maybe 2 or 3 numbers these past two months and knew that it was illegal. I thought that my boss was an honest person that doesnt wanna do things like this. Imagine if for any reason, you may lost your ID somehow and some guy found it and used it as the ID to apply for such a number. Then at the end of the month a bill will come to your house and says that you must pay Rp 35 million for a Flexy number that you never even used or worse, maybe you didnt even know how to use. Telkom will come to your house and maybe even called the police and throw you in the slammer. How would you feel? I’m lucky at the moment that I havent experienced such a terrible situation, but maybe some people has, maybe its you or even your mother or your cousin or maybe grandma, somewhere and theres nothing you can do to show that you didnt use that Flexy number or theres no way you can know who used it. Maybe it was the company that you work for that made your cousin have to go to jail. I just feel so angry at this. This morning I asked around to my colleagues at work if they knew about this. They also laughed at me. I thought why is everyone working together above somebody elses pain. And everyone just think of it as a normal thing of how to cut costs. Oh why have I been so dumb and stupid. Why did I join these people. Why havent I heard sooner, cause Ive used it twice to call a friend.If I would have known sooner, I would never have anything to do with it. Never... Im sooooooo angry at myself and at the people doing this and at my boss and at everyone that thinks this is just an ordinary thing. Where is the justice in this world? God why do you permit such a thing? I’m speechless….don’t know what else to say… Another thing that really makes me angry is that all these times I have really respected my boss as a long time friend and boss. I have always trusted her and would never believe that she would do anything as low as that. And suddenly all my trust and respect has just changed into ...distrust, confusion, and more...I don't know if Ill ever stand up for her again. - What do you think -

...Close...

2004-09-01T08:55:00.000+07:00

Many people thought that I'm gonna get married in the near future, so I'm gonna just say...."Hold your horses baby". Don't rush into conclusions just yet. hahaha. Yup, I'm planning to get married, but not now, at least not this year. Too soon for me, as I believe that I haven't made enough preparations. Besides, my girl also believes that she's not ready for that at the moment. Not meaning that she doesn't agree to marry me (cause I've asked her....hahahahaha) but it's just that her age and (according to her) maturity hasn't reach that level yet. She still wants to enjoy hanging with friends and stuff and not be burdened with household responsibility. Hey...she's only gonna be 21 this month. hehehe. What do you expect from a 21 year old girl. Anyway, please pray for us so that this plan can be a reality. In the near future, maybe even next year, who knows. I wanna consult my Father first, cause He knows what's best for me. Thanks all. - What do you think -

God created marriage

2004-08-30T15:12:00.000+07:00

God created marriage,

for he knew we'd need a friend.

To share our hopes and dreams with,

and love us 'till the end.

God created marriage,

to teach us how to share.

All our earthly assets,

and make us more aware;

That someone else's feelings,

are more important than our own.

And not one of us is perfect,

so we can't cast a stone.

God created marriage,

to teach us to forgive.

His life was our example,

He showed us how to give.

God created marriage,

to teach us how to say.

"I love you" to another person,

each and every day.

Written By Valerie Rousseau.

Yeah, I guess it's true that we need a friend to share our lives with. Someone who tries to understand us and are willing to understand us, no matter what. Someone that we can be ourselves to without having to hesitate one moment.

God truly understands His creation cause He made us. I believe that it is important to share love with another person. Happy loving.....

- What do you think -

Questions on marriage and love?

2004-08-26T08:47:00.001+07:00

Anyone dare answer these questions? I know that there are differences in opinion in many people, so what do you think? What do you think about marriage? Should we get married? If yes, what's the purpose of marriage to you? Could that be achieved without marriage? If no, why not? Is there any special purpose that you have that makes marriage not so important? What age would be best for marriage? Should the boy be older than the girl? Why? Or what if it's the other way around? Would there be any problems? What should you prepare for yourself in case you are planning to get married? How much preparation is enough? What is the most important (minimum) preparation in case you cannot fulfill all the preparations needed? What about the future spouse? Is there any characteristics of do's and don'ts according to you? Does these characteristics or criteria matter? What do you think is the perfect mate for you? Is there any perfect mate, or would you say that it'll all work out once you're inside the marriage? What about love? Should it be involved in this situation? If yes, how deep? and if not, are you sure that it doesn't need love to make it work? Would it be possible for anyone not in love to be married and stay in their marriage until they die? Do you believe in true love? Have you found you true love? What if the person with you now is not your true love? How do you find out? Or can you make someone to be your true love even if they're not really your true love? Hehehe, for some that are planning to get married, or maybe for those that are already maried, even for those who aren't married yet and also for those that are not intending to get married, have you thought of these questions before? updated I'm changing to this skin for a while, coz I'm making a lighter layout. I don't know when I'll finish it but. Anyway, just enjoy this one this time OK. bye - What do you think -

Tired and bored

2004-08-21T08:40:00.000+07:00

Hey y'all, wut up witcha? Been extreeeeeemely busy this week. Man, I surely need a rest. All throughout this week I've been working my ass off. Since the management planned to make another brand new shoe brand as the 'sister product' of Precise, I have to make at least 2 designs per day, and that's not just any designs but the 'accepted' designs', meaning that if it's not good enough then I may have to revise or make a new one. If you are from the designing business or the art industry, then you may know that inspirations are hard to find and doesn't always come at the right time when you need it. Sometimes you gotta put your head really deep into something to get an inspiration, but that is not a guarantee that you will get something 'good' out of your head. So it's been a very difficult week for me. At this time I must make at least 75 production designs for the Precise brand for next year not to mention another 50 for the new brand. Production designs are designs that will be produced. Maybe in 10 designs I make they will only choose 4 design max. Imagine how many I have to make in a year, not to mention colour combinations that I must make, the specifications of the 'inside' of the shoe that has to be as the standard of Precise. Sometimes I can really enjoy myself at doing this, but at other times, man, how boring can a job gets. This week all the distribution managers from all over Indonesia and their staff came to Surabaya to have the annual meeting in Tretes. Yesterday morning I had to present to them all the shoes that are going to be produced for the second semester of 2004. Man, they're so full of protests. But most of the shoes that I design can be accepted by them so at least until December my designs for production is finished and I can concentrate for next year. This is also the reason for the lack of time I now can spend on the net, cause there's so much to do. The workload is huge, but the pay is not so big. Hehehe Anyone have any designing that needs a designer? Hmm, maybe interior designs, or architectural, or perhaps even shoes hehehe you may want to give it to me. No, I'm kidding. But that sometimes go through my mind, about the money and stuff. Maybe I need to get some extra from somewhere. Steal a bank? heheh Noway hosai. You know that money is important in life. In order to live in a city you must have money. In order to get married you have to have money. In order to do anything you gotta have money, in fact if you're living in Indonesia you also know that even to take a pee you must pay. Maybe the only thing that you don't have to pay for is to let out gas but you may suffer some bruises if you let it out in front of a big guy with tattoes all over his body, and medications need money. hehehe. I don't know. I was thinking of finding another job, or at least a side job. But I'm not sure. I also thought about returning to my main course ARCHITECTURE but after a few years in this shoe business I might have forgotten a few things there, but that can be learned again. Anyway, there are times when I really feel helpless cause many things that I have planned for the future is not going anywhere because the lack of money. But I know that God will give the best for me. I know so. Why am I so gloomy? I don't know. O yeah for those of you bloggers that hate the navbar at the top of your page maybe you ought to see this, cause there's a newer and easier way to take it out updated yesterday, but if you like it still then it's your choice isn't it? Many also said that this layout of mine is downloading very slow, and I also found that out just now. I don't know why, maybe the graphics are too big, too many etc. Many I'm gonna have to make a newer version, maybe not, I don't know. I'm confused at the moment. Well happy weekend everyone, whoever, wherever. Good luck with your lifes. - What do you think -

Remove the navbar?

2004-08-20T16:07:00.000+07:00

Hi, I'm guessing that some of you that are using the free service from Blogger.com has seen the navbar at the top of the page. Some think it's alright, but some doesn't. I've been doing some blogwalking and searching a few places. And to those that want to remove the navbar maybe there's a way. How? Well follow carefully. First step: </head> place this tag at the very top of the template. For some that might find it difficult, you may change the template at the template page by clicking the template tab at the top of the page. remember to keep the correct head tag in its place. Do not remove it. Second step: <style type="text/css")>@import url(http://www.bertelsen.ca/css/navbar.css);</style> place this code just above the correct </head> tag. Save it, publish it and hopefully you're done. Wallah....and the Navbar is gone. I found this at Brandon Erik Bertelsen's blog, in case you wanna read the original version. Well happy trying. It bothers me so I'm glad it's gone now. hehehe - What do you think -

MERDEKA ?

2004-08-16T12:41:00.000+07:00

MERDEKA! MERDEKA! MERDEKA! Tapi apakah kita sudah bener bener merdeka? Mungkin secara nyata emang kita nggak tunduk dan takluk terhadap satu negara, akan tetapi apakah seluruh pribadi orang Indonesia sudah beneran merdeka? Rasanya kok masih banyak masyarakat Indonesia yang diperbudak ketamakan, sex, material dan lainnya bahkan juga drugs, alcohol, cigarrettes dan apa lagi aja deh begitu banyaknya. Sering kali kita sebenarnya nngak nyadar kalo kita itu sedang diperbudak. kalo kita tidak dapat melawan dan mengontrol sesuatu dan mau nggak mau tunduk pada apa yang diinginkannya maka kita sedang berada dalam perbudakan. Iya nggak sih. So apakah semua orang Indonesia sudah merdeka di tahun ke 59 ini baik secara jasmani maupun rohani? Hanya anda yang tau jawabannya, karena andalah pelakunya. Selamat Ulang Tahun deh Indonesia, semoga engkau akan Merdeka dalam tempo yang sesingkat singkatnya. - What do you think -

Love?

2004-08-12T13:04:00.000+07:00

Ever thought about love? Some get them without even having to try hard to achieve it. It is everywhere surrounding them, while others try their best to get some, but they don’t. Sometimes it seems so unfair, doesn’t it? All people needs love…Let’s share ours right now. updated

Oceans apart day after day And i slowly go insane I hear your voice on the line But it doesn't stop the pain If I see you next to never How can we say forever Wherever you go, whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you Whatever it takes oh how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you I took for granted all the times That I thought would last somehow I hear your laughter, I taste the tears But I can't get near you now Ooh can't you see it baby You've got me going crazy

This was a song that V sang everyday this week coz I couldn't come and see her. She misses me so much that she cried. She said that it was her soundtrack for this week. ahahaha. Honey, I missed you too. I went to see her yesterday and we talked so much. I missed her so much, but because there were problems with her parents, we decided that I shouldn't come to her house. That's why we haven't seen each other for nearly a week. I love you V, and I'll always be right here waiting for you. - What do you think -

My weekend

2004-08-09T09:42:00.000+07:00

Tetapi hendaklah kamu menjadi pelaku firman dan bukan hanya pendengar saja; sebab jika tidak demikian kamu menipu diri sendiri. Sebab jika seseorang hanya mendengarkan firman saja dan tidak melakukannya, ia adalah seumpama seorang yang sedang mengamat amati mukanya yang sebenarnya di depan cermin. Baru saja ia memandang dirinya, ia sudah pergi atau ia segera lupa bagaimana rupanya. Yakobus 1 : 22-24

It’s been quite a rough weekend for me. I have been in a depressed position for quite a while. Not only from my daily duties at work but also from the everyday life that I’m facing. It seems that all problems have come together hand in hand at the same time to crush me. I can’t take it, I tried to run away from my problems. I don’t know where to turn to. I don’t know who to consult with, nor whom I can trust with my problems.

When I was trying to run away God had ways for me to show that He cared for me and won’t let me be a strayed. At that point I was just trying to refresh myself from all my troubles. I thought that if I just have a time for myself I could think about it all and do my best to come out of my deep hole myself. But you know I was wrong. I could never get out of that hole in fact I was only just getting deeper because of my problems just seemed to never end. New problems always added even though the first one hasn’t even been touched by me. I was frustrated. I cried to God, “Why have you given me such a life that I have to suffer so much”. Nothing seems to go right.

Yesterday I decided to go window shopping and maybe just buy myself a book to read or something like that. I remembered about Smurf, a fellow Karonese staying in Surabaya that I’ve never met before. We chatted a few times and decided to meet sometime. So I messaged him asking if he would like to meet. We met at Gramedia TP1. At first I was kinda nervous cause I’ve never met him before so I don’t really know what he’s like and also what if we can’t talk. If there are at least three people then if you can’t talk to one there’s still the other, but I have to meet a guy I’ve never met before and there’s only gonna be the two of us. Hmmmm.

Well you know what. I don’t know what to say, but I believe that he was the answer to my problems at that time. Not meaning that he solved my problems but I believe that he was sent for me that day to remind me of my problems and what I must do to solve it.

We talked for hours. Starting from the book store, then going to take a lunch in the food court, having coffee at Starbucks, dinner at Jl. Ahmad Yani until I took him home. Really? I mean I can’t believe it, that we just met but we can talk about things even share our life’s troubles and maybe you may say “minister” one another, and to do that at the first encounter.

It’s really amazing what God has shown me through just a few hours with this guy. I have the courage to once again come to Him in my prayer and be honest about my feelings and that I’m ashamed about myself that I don’t feel like I should be called a human anymore. God gave me such a new strength that I feel much easier to live this day. The verse above is what He told me today, that reminded me that maybe I don’t know who I really am inside. I really haven’t become what God wanted me to be and that’s because I really haven’t put into practice what I already know. Thanks God.

Heal me o God, so that I may become a sweet fragrance in your presence that is pleasing You. - What do you think -

Under development hehehe

2004-08-05T20:06:00.000+07:00

Eh asyik nih gue sambil nulis ini lagi listening to Freak to the Beat nya Too Phat ama Linkin Park yang gue sebenarnya gak terlalu suka sih, Hip hop rules and . Asyik deh, di warnet lagi...wah gaul bener nih warnet ya. Wah akhirnya nih layout baru jadi juga , banyak sih yang belom sesuai dengan keinginanku . Habis, gak bisa banyak yang aku perbuat jadinya ya begini ini deh. Jangan pada ketawa dulu dong hehehe. habis aku nggak pede sebenarnya dengan layout ini. Jadi aku nyatakan sebenarnya walopun udah dilaunching ya anggap aja soft launching deh hehehe habisnya masih tetap akan dalam kondisi under-construction nih. Eh nggak under construction deng melainkan under development heheheh that's much better isn't it? Ehhhmmm lumayan juga sih niat aku buat layout ini. dari yang pulangnya paling telat dari kantor sampe yang ngendon berjam jam di warnet. heheheh Kok paling lama pulangnya? ya iyalah khan mau pake internet yang ada di kantor hehehe mumpung gratis. Walo sebenarnya manajemen udah pada sering bilang "penghematan...ayo kita semua melakukan penghematan...biaya tambahan yang ga perlu sebaiknya dikurangio gitu..." Hahahha tapi kalo udah kecanduan ya begini ini deh jadinya. Begitu masuk kantor langsung deh gue ngidupin tuh modem di kompi sebelah gue. Karena di kantor gue masih pake modem jelek gitu dan disharing lewat LAN. Ya akhirnya rada rada lelet juga sih walopun jaaaaauuuuuuhhhh lebih kenceng daripada make di warnet hehehe. Pokoknya gue niat banget deh mbuatnya, terutama karena tahunya cuma sepotong sepotong tuh tentang HTML dan gue tuh pelupa banget lagi. Wah kalo udah ingatnya satu eh yang cara lainnya ato untuk penerapan yang lainnya jadi lupa deh. Kesel gue ama cara kerja otak gue yang kadang gak mau membuka file file yang udah tersimpan disana. Anyway gue jadinya yang harusnya pulang jam 4 sore tuh biasanya jadinya pulang jam 6 bahkan pernah jam 7 hehehehe sampe malu, yang lain kirain gue lagi ngerjain kerjaan. Semua pikir gue rajin bener tapi kok kerjaannya ga ada yang keluar semua. Masalahnya gue nulis script sambil juga belajar dari banyak media man, yang wesitenya orang, , yang tutorial website en many more deh. Jadinya ya agak lambret begitu heheh. Terus karena malu lama lama ya akhirnya terkadang gue nyambung deh di warnet hehehe. Gue melakukan semuanya di blogger secara online, jadinya kalo udah buat perubahan kecil atau gede trus gue preview gitu. Gue tahu sih kalo sebenarnya bisa aja ngerjainnya offline, tapi khan resources lainnya ga ada. tiba tiba butuh ngelihat warna tertentu gitu khan gue nggak ingat semua kode kodenya ato untuk melakukan ini atau itu, khan gue kadang harus lihat lagi entah kemana. hehehe pokoknya serba autodeduct deh. Ya nggak tau deh kayaknya sih lumayan juga, (untuk ukuran pemula) right? tapi karena ngerjainnya online dan kadang modemnya lelet bahkan sering terinterupsi alias mati alias pedot sambungannya jadilah pernah hilang sama sekali codenya sehingga menghasilkan tampilan yang jauh dari sempurna alias amburadul. Waahhhhhh sampe mau nangis deh, bayangkan semua yang udah gue tulis itu hilang tinggal beberapa baris doang. Kebayang nggak sih Ya tapi akhirnya dengan penuh perjuangan jadilah layout yang seperti ini, dengan banner yang udah berubah ampe berapa kali ya? Dari yang gede terus gambarnya berubah dikit tapi masih gede, trus bannernya dikecilin, trus udah kecil ada lagi yang berubanh gambarnya...wah pokoknya kagak pernah puas deh,

"rasanya kok nggak sekeren punyanya teman teman lainnya ya, emang mereka sekolah apaan sih kok bisa mbuat yang bagus kayak gitu" (sirik MODE ON)

Anyway this has become what it has become and I can't do too much to change it. tapi promise deh akan ada beberapa perubahan kecil kecilan disana sini, hehehe bener² ga puas deh gue. Please kalo kemari boleh nggak di comment tentang perubahan yang terjadi. Biar kalo ada saran dan usul bisa gue tampung en kalo ngeh caranya ya gue terapin hehehehe, ato ya sekalian ngajarin gue yang lemot ini

Ya udah deh enjoy it while it lasts OK guys and just

- What do you think -

Gathering nih Rek

2004-08-01T12:05:00.000+07:00

Wah para Blogger Surabaya....kemana aje nih kemaren? Ditungguin lho...Hmmm kalo nggak pada tau, ya udah tak ceritain. Yesterday was gathering day for bloggers from this wonderful city we call Surabaya. Well? What happened you say? To tell you the truth nothing much happened. But it's always interesting to meet the real life person that their blog you usually visit. What they really look like in person, how they react towards certain things. how they think, apart from what we know from their blogs. Well yesterday the gathering was supposed to be held at 15.30 WIB sharp. well according to me, anyway. i always liked to come at the right time and kinda feel annoyed when I have to wait for other people to show up. Well I arrived a little bit ahead of time and found out that none of the bloggers are there. Well actually I didn't know who was gonna come and what they looked like, only some people that I've already met from the previous gathering , which in this case wasn't there yet. So I thougth that I needed some money, so I just walked to Surabaya Plaza which was a throw of a stone away from Monkasel (monumen Kapal Selam) hehehe. Inside I was called by Uyet and asked if anyone was there yet and asked me to pick her up. So I had to walk back all the way to Monkasel and take my bike and went to pick up Uyet. GGGGrrrrrrrrrmmmmmhhhhh. In monkasel I met alaryx and jony eating bakso. wakakaka they looked funny. At last alaryx came up to me and I asked them to wait up coz I was gonna get Uyet. Back from uyet, we finally met a few more people there. There were balung and wife (?) Aini or Aipopo, also Udin. So we talked for a while until I saw something (or someone) familiar that I've seen before somewhere. He was hiding behind the bushes under a tree near the telephone booth, just like someone from the village that has just come to the big city (scared?) wakakakaka. Well I know immediately that he was a kriwul person eventhough he has no hair left. So I asked him to join us. he only smiled with such a big grin on his face. At the gate I had to pay up for the 8 person. well actually i paid Rp. 20.000 but wasn't returned back to me..Lost...lost...lost...cry...cry...cry...heheheheh We went in coz after a while waiting no one showed up. We sat near the river...ooohhh so romantic. hahahaa. But that's after arguing where to sit. Actually at the start everyone was kinda quiet. i don't know why? have they eaten or not ? A little later Dibbie came with the "ooh so facial" Agnis (who happen to be a non blogger but enjoys blogwalking). Why I said she was so facial, coz every once in a while she would make faces and would make duck lookalike with her hands, and that "chemprenx" voice made it so obvious that ducks are her favourite animal. Gee. She always said to me,"Why are you so mean to me?" Hahaha it was just funny picking on her and when I asked what her name was, she would shake my hand and said,"Agnis ...(something)...S.Fam" hahaha. She did that a few times. Guess she just wanted to shake my beautiful hand, wakakakaka. So balung started to talk about the reason of the gath, but before long Ameck and Aley the two gondronx came. Which was soon followed by Mirzha and friend, which was also from the gondronx gang. Also a new girl that wanted to start blogging came. Her name was Mini. Also mas Isa came.After that we tried to talk a little bit about what we would like the new Surabaya's Blogging Community called Cangkrukan Community to be like. Well we would like to be the homebase of the East Java Blogging Community in the long run and provide the information about blogging to our community such as schools and unis, but just be able to have a closer relationship within the community in the short run. We decided to make a monthly gathering, hopefully every beginning of the month. So anyone from Surabaya reading this, come and join this new community OK. Also we are gonna put up again the www.cangkrukan.or.id website that is still having a little bit of trouble as a place for us to gather in the cyber world.

The next gathering will be held at:

Place : McDonalds Basuki Rahmat

Date: 4th September 2004

Time: 4 o'clock WIB

"be there or be square"

While we were talking, Mas Kriwul was sneaking out of the gath. We didn't know until he came back with some chips and peanuts. When we asked about the drinks...came a guy that brang us Cokes in paper cups. Wow thatnks a lot Mas. You may repeat it again soon hehehe. Why? cause he was chosen to be the head of the Consumption section alias "food provider" hahahahaha.After drinks and chips and talk and a lot of making fun of Agnis, I finally have to go. But before I go we had some photo shooting event. hahaha. Maybe I can get some photos from Ameck and post it here soon OK.

So all you people from Surabaya. Don't forget the next gathering Ok.And for bloggers from other cities, come and join us too, or better still make your own community. So happy blogging.

"may the BLOG be with you"

- What do you think -

The new layout

2004-07-29T16:29:00.000+07:00

Hi all, well are we waiting for the new layout to come out. Well hehehe so am I. I spent quite a lot of time here. Maybe next week, I will launch it, coz this week I'm planning to finish it up. The title will be Graffity - Funkier v02 . hehehe why funkier, coz I am funky hahaha. This layout shows a little bit of my character. I am a guy who pretty much like art, but not an artist of some sort. I like to draw, design, sing, etcetera. I used to like to graffity trains when I was still "young" back in Sydney. Well that was my past. But sometimes I still like to recall those memories coz they were good memories. I also like basketball, which in this new layout will feature some of my favourite NBA players such as T-Mac, Allen Iverson, Jason Kidd, Shaquille O'Neal (fav), Kobe Bryant (fav), and Vince Carter but of course not in the real version but carricature version. hehehe The colour combinations will be using much of the green hue. Why green? maybe coz it's just much more cooler on the eyes, but not as dull and boring as the grey colour. Apart from that big banner and colour, not many change will be made. I don't know, I might change my mind though this week. So if the you would like to "protest" on anything on this page that you might like to make a suggestion, you may email me anytime or just plainly leave a message on the comment box. - What do you think -

Learning

2004-07-26T11:38:00.000+07:00

Yo what's up guys... I am kinda busy building up a new layout for this blog and making the validations. Cause all these times I have never made a validated html or css template. You know how it is. I have never learned how to play around with HTML codes and I don't know which is right and what is incorrect. So I have looked up to some web pages that might help me with the validations and telling me what is wrong with my coding and how I should fix it. So for a time being, I might be kinda busy doing these things besides working of course. Wakakaka. I have always wanted a validated css and HTML page. Why you asked? When it is validated, I know that those people out there can see my work and say,"yeah, that's a correct way of doing it". Hahahaha maybe I just needed that approval. Maybe I just wanna know what is correct and what isn't. I know for a fact that people can still see my blog the "right" way as I wanted them to see it. But of course, maybe if you are using Mozilla or Opera or Netscape I don't know if it turned out allright, but at least when you are using IE5 and IE6 I know that it's good enough. But then again not everyone uses them. But then that's another story. I am really dumb at these HTML, XHTML, CSS and all those other mambojumbo. I really would like to learn the correct way of using these languages. I have only known them for about 3-4 months, and I would really like to know them a little bit more. When I see people making all these cool pages and everything, there's a "thing" inside me that says,"why can't you do something like that, maybe better". I read all their writings and infos about them and found out that some of these people are really much younger than me. You see, people who are younger than me are able to make up such a nice layout, but as for me I can't do stuff like that, and I would really like to. I guess that's why I wanna learn more about these things. It has been my dream for quite some time to be able to be a web designer. Well actually I like to design things, from architecture, furnitures, interior designs, and of course shoes evenweb pages. It so challenging to be able to do these things, but I don't know how to. If anyone out there are nice enough to help me please do. The page I'm working on is not something that maybe all of you think is great. Maybe if you see it later when I launched it, you would just smile to yourself and say "Hahaha he's wasted all those time and the result is this. What a waste of time". Well I know that I am just a beginner and don't know all the tips and tricks to make this and that. i don't know what to write in the HTML to make something like what I really wanted to, but his is the start, I guess. hehehe So it doesn't matter what others would think, I'm gonna learn it no matter how long it'll take me. There is a blog template competition if you are really interested in making nice templates. You can check the information here. The theme that you should use is FAMILY, that is anything that you think that represents "family" in your mind. From a mother and child hugging to a couple of doves caressing or maybe even a flower that reminds you of your family. Anything goes. So be sure to read this info OK. - What do you think -

Internet Connection Off

2004-07-24T10:44:00.000+07:00

Wah susah nih... LAN connection ke computerku lagi down neh, jadinya gak bisa internetan dari kompiku. Wahhhhh jadi gak bebas untuk blogwalking anywhere, coz if I wanted to use the internet I have to go to someone else's computer. Kesel ga sih.... Katanya sih ethernet card or something like that yang lagi rusak. Hmmmm... rasanya harus curi curi nih hehehe klo orang lagi "not on his desk" maka diriku akan menyerbu kompinya. wah desperate benar ya gue. Mana di kompi lainnya ga ada yang namanya YahooMessenger. Wah jadi sepi nih hidup ini "winkwink". Beginilah susahnya when someone is getting addicted to the internet. Oh yeah. Woi BTW buat orang orang Surabaya yang baca ini. Eh jadinya kita beneran kopdaran nih rek.Horray... Bagi yang mau ikut dan harus ikut maka ikutlah. hehehehe dasar stress. Info Kopdarannya: Hari: Sabtu, 31st July 2004 Waktu : sekitar pukul 15.30 an (boleh lebih pagi, tapi jangan telat hehehe) Tempat : Monkasel (Monumen Kapal Selam) Acara : menyelam bersama di kalimas eh nggak ding hehehe (cangkruk dll choy) TOP deh. - What do you think -

Bapak

2004-07-20T09:51:00.000+07:00

Kring...Kring... "Hello" "Bapak ya, eh selamat ulang tahun ya Pak. Yang ke-55 ya pak. hehehe. Tadi pagi aku nelpon ke Medan tapi kalian ga ada di rumah." "Iya nih, habis jalan jalan ke Berastagi, nginep disana, ini malam baru pulang jam delapan tadi" "Wah liburan dalam rangka ultah ya pak." "Hhehehe, iyalah kapan lagi dinikmati ulang tahun kalau enggak sekarang ini." "Siapa aja yang pergi pak?" "Ya hanya kami berempat yang tinggal disini, aku, ibumu, John sama Sydney." "Wah enak ya bisa jalan jalan sama sama. Kami yang di Surabaya ini udah lama nggak jalan jalan nih" "Aku mau pergi juga ini ke USA sabtu depan." "HAH sabtu depan? Ngapain Pak? Kekota mana?" "Iya aku mau ke Auburn. Ya nggak ngapa ngapain sih. Ini khan ada event untuk peningkatan SDM di USU jadi ada program studi bandinglah ke beberapa negara. nah, bapak mengajukan untuk ke Auburn ini." "Oh...jadi bukan biaya sendiri nih pak? Ditanggung USU ya?" "Ndra..ndra, kalo biaya sendiri kau khan tau aku nggak akan mampu untuk sekedar jalan jalan kesana, berapalah gajiku dibayar USU, walaupun aku udah proffessor tapi gak seberapalah yang dibayarkan USU, Inilah kalau jadi dosen negeri ga ada duitnya." "Asyik dong dibayarin lagi...hehehe. Trus disana ngapain aja pak?" "Ya adalah study dikit dikit, tapi kalo udah tua kayak aku ini paling ya hanya bisa transfer ke yang lebih muda nantinya." "ya tapi khan enak sekalian jalan jalan disana" "ya itulah selalu kuasa Tuhan itu untuk kita, ada aja selalu jalan yang dikasihNya, walo sebenarnya kita sendiri nggak mampu."

Emang bapak selalu mengandalkan Tuhan dalam hidupnya. Aku senang punya bapak seperti ini. Walaupun aku nggak terlalu dekat ama bapakku secara emosional,tapi banyak hal positif yang aku bisa petik dari kehidupannya. Sebenarnya menurutnya, dia dulu adalah salah satu murid yang paliing nggak bisa pelajaran Kimia, tapi justru karena nggak bisa itu dia jadi giat belajar dan akhirnya malah jadi dosen Kimia, Anorganik lagi (inorganic chemistry). Berawal dari sekedar asisten dosen sewaktu dia masih kuliah dan akhirnya berlanjut menjadi dosen yang dibayar sangat kecil. Akhirnya dia mulai mencoba bersaing dengan rekan lainnya untuk sekolah ke LN. Orang lain semua pake backing dan per"konco"an, tapi bapak mengandalkan Tuhan saja tanpa sedikitpun mau menyogok. Semua orang menertawakan dia dan bilang gak zamannya untuk sok melawan arus. tapi karena kami semua mendukung dia untuk tidak menyogok akhirnya...miracle happens. dari beberapa orang yang lolos seleksi terakhir emang hanya dia yang nggak nyogok, tapi ternyata HANYA dia yang tembus hahahah yang lainnya itu udah duitnya hilang trus gak tembus lagi. God is good. Akhirnya dia bisa pergi dan ambil master degreenya di Ohio University, USA. Setelah itu Tuhan masih kasih kesempatan lagi dia untuk sekolah doctoral degree di University of New South Wales, Sydney, juga dengan perjuangan yang nggak gampang dan akhirnya dengan bantuan Tuhan yang nyata semuanya berjalan lancar. Malahan kami sekeluarga akhirnya walaupun harus meminjam duit pada awalnya dapat juga menyusul dia disana dan hidup dibiayai pemerintah Australia. Apa lagi namanya kalau bukan hidup di dalam karunia Tuhan. Tuhan emang selalu menyediakan pertolongan sesuai dengan kebutuhan anak anakNya tepat pada waktuNya. God has been good in my father's life and I'm thankful that I also can see God through his life and I can see clearly how He works in my father's life. Amazing grace. - What do you think -

Blogger New Post Editor

2004-07-17T09:25:00.000+07:00

Has anyone checked out the latest Blogger New Post Editor Does:

fonts (fonts)
text sizes
bold
italic
text colors
easy hyperlink
align left, center, right
justify text
ordered lists (1,2,3...)
unordered lists (as seen here)
blockquote
undo (ctrl + z)
upload image (only if you are publishing via FTP (Blog*Spot Plus or external hosting)
spell check
keyboard shortcuts
and more

Doesn't it just make you wanna keep posting with these cool features added. Hmmm......What You See Is What You Get (WYSIWYG). But why isn't it also available from the BlogThis feature? maybe soon. - What do you think -

Di Balik Foto: Analisa Profil Friendster

2004-07-16T10:30:00.000+07:00

Kegiatan paling menarik bagi para jomblo iseng adalah browsing profile di friendster; kali2 aja nemu yang oke. Tapi hati-hati! Jangan sampe salah kenalan, bisa2 cewe funky yang tampil menggemaskan di friendster ternyata seorang EMAK-EMAK di kehidupan nyata, atau lebih parahnya lagi: LAKI! Untuk membantu para jomblo yang lagi desperate agar tidak terjerumus ke lembah hina, mungkin panduan berikut bisa sedikit membantu. **MAKNA DI BALIK FOTO DI FRIENDSTER** FOTO BARENG PASANGAN = "Dilarang ngajak kenalan, kecuali kalo merasa diri lebih keren dari yang ini." FOTO BARENG PASANGAN DI LUAR NEGRI = "Dilarang ngajak kenalan, kecuali kalo merasa diri lebih keren DAN lebih mapan dari yang ini." FOTO BARENG PASANGAN DAN ANAK DI LUAR NEGRI = "Dilarang ngajak kenalan, kecuali kalo merasa diri lebih keren DAN lebih mapan dari yang ini, PLUS mampu ngempanin anak gue." FOTO SENDIRIAN, DI LUAR NEGRI = "Dilarang ngajak kenalan, kecuali kalo merasa mampu ngongkosin gue main ke sini." FOTO SENDIRIAN, DI TEMPAT WISATA DALAM NEGRI = "Gue mah anaknya irit! Diajak ke Bali juga nyengir!" FOTO BARENG TEMEN = "Paling enggak TEMEN-TEMEN gue ada yang keren" FOTO BARENG BINATANG PELIHARAAN = "Paling enggak gue LEBIH KEREN dari peliharaan gue kan..." FOTO BINATANG PELIHARAANNYA DOANG = "Paling nggak PELIHARAAN gue KEREN kan..." FOTO BARENG MOBIL = "Paling enggak lo nggak akan jalan kaki dah..!" FOTO JADUL/JAMAN MUDA = "Paling enggak DULU gue sempet rada keren n funky." FOTO BARENG PASANGAN, POSE MESRA/BERPELUKAN = "Gila, ni orang nempel mulu! Ngga nyadar gue udah bosen!" FOTO DI DEPAN RUMAH, BUSANA CASUAL/CASUAL BANGET = "Majikan gue sering pergi kok... Aman!" FOTO KARTUN/ARTIS/LOGO = "Jangan nilai gue dari segi tampang, lah... jangan, ya... JANGAN aja pokoknya!" FOTO SENDIRIAN, CLOSE-UP = "gila, gue keren ya?" FOTO SENDIRIAN, CLOSE-UP, POSE COVER MAJALAH = "gila, gue keren BANGET ya? ckckck!" FOTO SENDIRIAN, CLOSE-UP, POSE COVER MAJALAH, PAKE EFEK BLUR/SEPHIA/DLL = "SEANDAINYA ngga jerawatan/beruntusan/panuan/bopengan, gila, gue keren BANGET ya? ckckck!" GA ADA FOTO/FOTO CUMA SATU ITUPUN PAS FOTO, TRUS 'LAST LOGIN'-NYA LEBIH DARI 3 MINGGU YL=Join friendster gara2 ada temennya yang ngojok2in "Yuk ikutan friendster yuk, asik lho!" trus udah dijawabin "Males ah" tapi temennya tetep ngotot "Alaa... ikut deh, biar rame tauk..!" terus biar udah dibilangin "Enggak mau/engga sudi/engga sempet" tuh temen terus aja ngejar2 tiap hari akhirnya join biar terbebas dari teror tapi abis itu ngga pernah dibuka2 lagi. FOTO YANG SAMA, BEBERAPA BIJI=Baru join friendster, belom tau bhw friendster suka lelet, jadi waktu upload foto sempet bingung "loh, kok foto gue ngga nongol? Wah, uploadnya gagal nih. Coba lagi ah.." trus setelah nyoba agi; "eh! kok belom juga? gimana sih ni, gagal mulu. coba lagi ah..." Demikian seterusnya Hahahaha That was hilarious and kinda funny. Got it from my Friendster Bulletin board. Jadi yang jelas semua yang nampang di Friendster itu ga ada yang bener semua jadinya ya seperti di atas. Anyway even though friendster is good but it's getting kinda too crowded don't you think? Now many people have turned to orkut.com as an alternative. So if anyone wants to be added to my friendster list or even my orkut friends, give me a buzz or leave a message. Or you may add me with klomprangkentang@yahoo.com for friendster and hendra@gmail for orkut.Hehehe. It's great making new friends even though we don't really know each other. At least we can be a family even though only in cyber space. "We are a virtual family" slogan BF tuh.

Berita Hari ini

2004-07-15T13:20:00.000+07:00

Tambah aneh aja rakyat Indonesia ini. kalau emang mau perubahan ya nggak gini caranya. Oknum Konsulat RI Coblos 8000 Surat Suara untuk SBY . Ini khan tambah membuat kerusuhan dan sangat berlebihan. Apakah ini emang atas instruksi Tim Sukses SBY-Kalla atau hanya kebodohan diri sendiri akibat pengkultusan terhadap seorang tokoh yang berlebihan? Ini jelas suatu kemunduran bagi proses demokrasi di Indonesia ------------------------------------ Tau nggak kalo Kasogi mulai 19 Juli mendatang akan menutup usahanya secara sepihak. Yup, salah satu merk sepatu yang aku kenal dari aku SD akan tutup for good. Karena keputusan ini tanpa didukung oleh pemegang saham minoritas maka mereka akan mengajukan tuntutan terhadap manajemen. Selain itu juga sekitar 2500 karyawannya juga mengurung alias menyandera direksi di dalam pabrik dalam rangka demo yang digelar sejak Selasa malam (13/7). ternyata alasan penutupan usaha sepatu ini adalah karena selama 5 tahun ini mereka mengalami defisiensi modal dan sejak 2003 memiliki hutang sebesar Rp 824,359 milliar dan rugi bersih Rp 96,156 miliar (itu uang semua). Wah salah satu saingan perusahaan tempatku bekerja akhirnya gulung tikar. For your info, aku bekerja di perusahaan yang membuat sepatu olahraga bermerk PRECISE as a designer. Emang sejak beberapa tahun terakhir, bisnis sepatu di Indonesia mengalami penurunan drastis. tahun lalu saja lebih dari 75% pabrik sepatu di Indonesia akhirnya harus tutup dan paling banyak di Jawa Timur yang notabene adalah tempatku bekerja. Bukan di Indonesia saja sih sebenarnya tapi juga di dunia. China, Korea dan banyak negara penghasil sepatu olahraga juga mengalami masa masa yang sulit. Semoga perusahaanku masih tetap bertahan dalam gempuran kondisi ekonomi yang nggak menentu ini. kalo nggak khan aku harus cari kerjaan lain....hiks...sedih banget deh.

Hamzah Haz Dukung Megawati

2004-07-14T13:55:00.000+07:00

Hamzah Haz Dukung Megawati Wah ternyata sekarang setelah para capres melihat bahwa perolehan suara mereka kurang signifikan untuk memenangkan pemilu kemarin, satu per satu mulai dukung mendukung. Setelah PKS mendukung SBY , sekarang giliran kubu Hamzah Haz mendukung Megawati. Apakah ini hanya politik busuk agar nantinya apabila kandidat tersebut yang maju, mereka boleh dapat "jatah" kekuasaan atau paling tidak mereka masih "diingat" oleh si penguasa? Menurut saya seharusnya biarkan aja para pengikutnya memilih salah satu dari kandidat yang akan menang pemilu putaran pertama ini nantinya. Tidak usahlah harus memberi dukungan secara "nyata". Rakyat Indonesia juga perlu pendidikan politik dimana mereka boleh melihat secara langsung kiprah pemimpin tersebut dan akhirnya bisa dengan hati nurani mereka memilih secara langsung siapa yang paling berkenan dihati mereka. Menurut saya para capres yang akan tersingkir pada pemilu putaran kedua seharusnya tidak usah saling dukung dalam arti secara langsung mendukung, akan tetapi biarlah menjadi oposan yang siap mengkritik pemimpin yang terpilih nantinya. Mereka seharusnya membiarkan para "pengikutnya" memilih untuk diri sendiri, bukan karena diajak untuk memilih seseorang. Terkadang penyakit rakyat Indonesia ialah bahwa mereka terlalu menjadi "pengikut" dan tidak berani bertanggung jawab sendiri akan pilihan mereka. Terus nantinya ketika pemimpin yang telah dipilihnya tersebut memiliki masalah maka mereka juga nggak akan merasa terbeban karena pada dasarnya itu bukanlah pilihan nurani mereka melainkan karena disuruh atau mengikuti kata orang lain. Tetapi dengan menimbang sendiri dan akhirnya memutuskan sendiri pemimpin yang menurut mereka layak untuk memimpin setelah dikaji dengan matang maka mereka memiliki suatu beban untuk mengawasi pemimpin tersebut agar benar sesuai harapan mereka ketika memilihnya. Tapi pendidikan politik di Indonesia memang belum pada taraf tersebut. Rakyat Indonesia masih lebih banyak pengikut daripada pemikir. kapan ya kira kira Indonesia bisa mandiri? Rakyatnya bisa dan berani menentukan nasibnya sendiri? Bukan harus selalu mengikuti orang lain yang belum tentu punya "niatan bersih" ? Hanya Tuhan yang tahu

Sickness

2004-07-12T14:56:00.000+07:00

Well Hello everyone, guess what yes I'm still haven't recovered fully yet. I don't know what it is with me. Was it the weather or what cause a lot of people around me also have similar sickness. But why mine hasn't stopped, I don't know. It's not like I didn't take any medications or anything. I took what the doctor had given me and until the last one my disease hasn't recovered yet. I'm feeling kinda lazy because of the sickness. Can you imagine a head that feels like it's full of those gooey slime that comes out of the nose everytime you try to take a little bit of air into your lungs. Or can you imagine that i have to make known to everyone that I am still breathing because everytime I breath I have to do so very loudly. hehe not to mention the *cough* that I had to let out from this clogged up throat that I have. AAARRRGGGGHHH. I can't stay home for too long cause I can't stand to stay home, cause I got nothing to do. I feel very useless there and that's not helping me with my sickness. But if I had to come to the office, well I will become the most contagious guy to hit town. hehehe. Now can you feel my pain. hehe Well I can't complain too much. My gf is having the same thing as me at the moment and she has it worst than me. Not to mention she has to put up with the PMS pain that she has at exactly the same time as the sickness. Hehehe. I can't imagine the pain. Sometimes she can't even get up from the bed. Poor Vanny. Well guys, don't just sit there staring...hehhee pray for me OK so that I will get well soon. Thanks for everyone that has been very kind to me. I hope I will get well soon. I really do hope so g R a f F i T y

I'm dead sick

2004-07-09T10:02:00.000+07:00

Well everyone, sorry to say that I can't post much today because I have been sick for the past four days. You know the usual cough and cold, but I don't think this is "usual" anymore, more of an unusual sickness cause it's been too long. I tried to come to the office today but I feel very sick. I don't know maybe I'll go home later. I want my mommy.....huhuuu - What do you think -

Nearly Broke Up

2004-07-06T08:18:00.000+07:00

Well, this weekend had been a very confusing weekend for me. Why confusing, because this weekend I had to think hard, been lied to, cried a little, upset a lot. Confusing really. Why you ask, well I can't tell you all the full story. But I nearly broke up with my girlfriend because she lied to me and several times this week. I don't know why she did this. She said that I haven't been 'open' to her and that I never tell her the stories of what I did everyday and she thinks that maybe I'm hiding something from her. According to her she has tried many things to make me open up and she failed. Well the last one she tried was that she bought a new SIM card and message me pretending to be someone that used to have a crush on me many years ago and I haven't seen since. She was testing me, if I was gonna tell her or not. Well I didn't believe it from the beginning that it was 'the other girl' lets just say H. How do I know? Well for one, the number that I'm using now is new and that I haven't given it to anyone that maybe H knew so she wouldn't be able to find me from her friends, secondly H never called me as whta she wrote on that message so it was obvious that it was a fraud. I had a feeling that this was V, my girlfriend, cause she sometimes have stupid ideas like this. She messaged me several times asking me to meet her someplace. I said that she should just contacted me in my office and never at home or my cellphone. I wanted that if it was really H that we would meet profesionally. But she was childish and force to meet. I was angry at the message and I told her off. I wrote back with a rather "harsh" reply. But she still keep coming back. So I rang V and told her about it and she pretended to be shocked as if she doesn't know anything. But from what she says it made it clear that it was her, but I just couldn't prove it. I already accused her of doing it and she even got angry at me for doing it. But she wasn't a good liar and she hasn't planned the whole thing too well. That Friday we had our arguments and I came home angry. But on Saturday I decided that maybe it's not her cause I was thinking for the best. So we made up, and she was happy. But that night I got a message from a girl that I once help over the internet and the message was quite "romantic" according to her and she asked and I told her and she said why she never knew about it and I said I was afraid that she was gonna think that I was cheating cause she sometimes thinks that way. I never cheat on her. NEVER. We had our arguments again and it was bad. At the end of the night we decided to tell each other things that we have been keeping to ourselves recently. I told her everything and she also told me a few stuff, but not that story above. So I never thought of it again, even though I was hurt. On Sunday after church at around 9pm we went home, and she got a message from her relatives from out of town, and her mom told her to message them back. She said that it needs time to do that and she can't do it now cause there are several process that have to be done. I was confused but just kept it to myself. She went to her room and close her doors and she messaged from inside. I walked to the door and heard clicking sounds as if someone open their cellphone and changed SIM cards. When she returned I asked her about it she denied it and made it as if it was true. I don't know but maybe God just kept putting these questions on my head and at last she couldn't answer me and just looked at me with disbelief. She can't say a word and at last she admitted that she was behind it all and that the number that she was using is a friends number (name is N). She said if you don't believe that I should ask her. I said we should go there right now so I can ask so she doesn't have any chance to make her friend tell another 'story'. She said that it was late and not wise to do it now. I was angry and was about to go home. She begged me for another chance and that she would never do that again, cause she did that out of her desperation. I didn't budge, never said a word while she begged me and cried out loudly and her parents came out to ask what had happened and I was just as silent as a rock. She kept begging and kissing my feet. I said don't I don't like what she's doing. She begged like that (like crazy really) for about 20 minutes for me to give her another chance. God lightened my heart and at the end before I finally went home I said OK that I will give her another chance. On Monday she messaged me using the number that was supposed to be N's the one she used to test me. I was traumatic with that number and asked why she still using that number and she said that her credits on the other number is empty and that she has some left on this other one. So I was confused again and asked if that was her number, she said yes it was. So I got angry again cause yesterday she swore that she has told about everything and nothing was left to be said of the case. She ended it as if the number still belongs to N who helped her. I was furious and said that the chance that I gave last night has just ended and told her not to bother me again. She kept on begging me. I turned off my phone. I also don't have a phone at home so she couldn't reach me. She tried everything but I said I wont be home and I don't know when I'll return. I was confused, angry being lied to, don't know what to do. So I just ride off with my motorcycle and just surf the Surabaya's streets. Don't have any destinations, just wanna cool my head off so I am not angry continously. Sometimes I turn my phone on and found out that she's been trying to reach me and that she wanted to come to my house at night and will wait until I return home. I kept it off after I messaged her not to come. At last i return home at 10pm and went to bed cause my head was swirling and just kept spinning. What a day. At about 11pm she came with her friend N and knocked on the gate. I woke up and saw that it was her, she was crying and gave me a letter and asked to give her another chance. I said to her to just go home and I didn't even open the gates. She went home crying badly and I return back to my room crying also, and began to pray again. God once again gave me a strong heart and made me want to forgive her. I thank God for this and went to bed. This morning I called her to tell her about my decision. She was sick, her voice was low and I can barely hear her. She was happy. I know that she can change and that I'm no angle and that sometimes people made mistakes. But God is forgiving to me. All my tresspasses He has forgiven, so why can't I forgive her also. I was kinda ashamed to God. I don't know maybe some of you will think of me as stupid, but this is what God has put in my heart and that this decision that I made gave me a thankful heart and a joyful heart, so I'm not complaining. I wanna open up new chapters in my life with V. Thank You God for a confusing weekend, but it made me feel alive again, even though I'm hurting. - What do you think -

Choose with your heart

2004-07-02T08:59:00.000+07:00

To all fellow indonesians, whether you are right here in this country or maybe somewhere abroad: Well as you may all know that next monday will be the presidential election for the new Indonesian government. As you probabaly also know that there are 5 pairs of candidates that are running for president and vice-president of Indonesia, which are Wiranto and Salahudin Wahid, Megawati and Hasyim Muzadi, Amien Rais and Siswono Yudhohusodo, Susilo Bambang Y and Yusuf Kalla and last but not least Hamzah Haz and Agum Gumelar. The five pairs of candidates are "good" in thir own way and also "bad" in a similar way. Probably you've also followed the debates on television or maybe even attended one someplace. You've heard their promises and have put into your mind what was right and what was "not right". You can judge for yourself who will be true to their words and who will be liars. But it's quite difficult because they all show nice faces now, but we can't really predict the future. So I urge everyone to pray for them all, every single one of them, and ask God who will be the best person to govern Indonesia. We haven't the time for another trial and error situation, it's time to rise up and get out of this "deep black hole". We need the leaders that are sincere, strong, knows what the people needs and are powerful enough to say no to corruption and other Indonesian "bad tradition" that have been shown to us by former Presidents. Ask your heart who it thinks can lead us all out of this situation, and be honest to yourself. Maybe some of us are a fanatic to one of the candidates. I ask you again to reconsider also the other candidates and if the ones that you like really win in all aspects from the other candidates then choose them. There are no needs for "stupid fanatism" anymore, what we need is an honest leader. So next Monday when you are in that booth and even before that, think and rethink cause once you puncture that ballot paper then there's no turning back. Please everyone, choose wisely and use your heart and not only your knowledge and likes or dislikes. Let's think about everyone in this country. From big to small, from rich to poor, aristocrats to a mere janitor, everyone needs a better Indonesia. Also don't forget to pray for the candidates that you choose cause without the help of God, they are nothing and can't do nothing. Choose with your heart - What do you think -

Pindahan Rek...

2004-07-01T09:23:00.000+07:00

Wuihhhh kueeesseeeell e rek. Kemaren aku habis pindah kontrakan. Maklumlah...masih ngontrak nggak punya duit untuk beli rumah sendiri. Aku ngontrak sama adikku yang ada di Surabaya, Ohio namanya (diambil dari Ohio state, a place where my dad went to get his masters). Kamarnya sih nggak besar besar amat. Di depan itu ruangannya kira kira 3mx3m trus ke tengah itu sekitar 2,5mx3m trus bagian belakang lagi yaitu tempat dapur dan kamar mandi dan tempat nyuci itu sekitar 2,5mx5m gitu. Jadi panjang ke belakang. Well Aku khan nyari tempat ini juga nggak kampang, tapi dengan bantuan Tuhan, kok ya aku ke tempat itu nanya2 trus dibilang sebenarnya ada kamar tapi dikontrakkan. Padahal aku nggak pernah ke tempat (daerah) itu sebelumnya. Amazing. Well maybe for some of you out there, this place is just another dump, but it's home to me. Tempatnya lumayan bersih, hanya airnya agak kuning, I just found out this morning. Tapi nggak apa apa kok. I kinda like it. Oleh karenanya maka kemarin itu akupun "terpaksa" untuk meliburkan dirikupun untuk urusan inipun. Karenapun akupun harusnya sudahpun keluarnya dari rumah lamakupun tanggal 1 Julinya. Oleh karena itupun akunya menyakakan pada Phunnehpun akan kesiapannya untuk membantu diriku yang hina ini berbenah benah dan membersih bersih akan rumah itunya. Wuih kerja keraspun dimulailah. Diriku dan dirinya membersihkan dan memindahkan pun akan barang barang "berharga" yang kumilikinya. Kami pun seharian "hunting" beberapa barang berharga lainnya kemana mana. Seperti dispenser, kompor gas, rice cooker, ember dan gayung, piring piring, gelas, sendok dan garpu, lap pel, setrika dan banyak hal lainnya. Weleh akupun serasa ibu ibu yang berbelanja hehehe. Tapi yang paling menynangkan akupun ialah bahwa dirinya menemani akan dirikupun sepanjang hari bahkan dimalam yang hening sunyipun akhirnya kami saling memijat untuk melepaskan kepenatan yang ada. hahaha. Wuih asyik deh. Wuih, akupun akhirnya bisa tertidur puas di malam yang dingin kemarin sambil memimpikan akan dirinya..."ohh what a night" Dasar lu. So enjoy this day pun *lalalalalalalala* - What do you think -

Life is like baking a cake

2004-06-29T11:44:00.000+07:00

Here's an email I received....(with a little translation and addition)

Dear All friends........... Most of the time we ask ourselves and blame God,"What have I done to deserve all this?" or "Why does God allow this to happen to me?" Here is a wonderful explanation... A boy once told his mom that nothing is going well for him, not as he expected. His grades on the report are bad, his girlfriend left him and his best friend just moved out of town. At that moment his mom was baking a cake, and offered her son if he would like a taste. Gladly the son said,"Of course I would, mom, I love the cakes you make" "Here taste this margarine," mom said. "Yuks," said the boy. "How about this raw eggs ?" "You're kidding me, Mom." "Want some flour or baking soda ?" "Mom, they're all disgusting." Then momma answered, "Yup, they all don't look too tasty if you look at them one by one But if you stir it well and mix it together the right way, it will become the best cake you will ever taste." God works the same way. We often blame Him for the hardship that we have to suffer. But God knows that if He let it all happen one by one according to His plans then everything will be perfect and in time. we only need to believe in the process to improve our lives and that God really loves us.
He gives wonderful flowers at spring time, sunrays in the morning. Everytime we want to talk to Him, He will willingly listen to all our problems. All we need to do is belive and trust Him with all our lives then all the ingredients of life will be mixed together and we will see how wonderful His love has been all these time. Best Regards, Joy

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PRAY FOR INDONESIA WEEK

2004-06-29T09:01:00.000+07:00

"He who is often rebuked, and hardens his neck, will suddenly be destroyed." Proverbs 29 : 1

I always stffen my neck and a very stubborn person... I guess I have to soften my heart some more so I am not destroyed by the amazing power of God.

"Lord, help me see my hidden sin, Those secret wrongs that lurk within; I would confess them all to Thee _ Transparent I would always be."

For all of you in Indonesia, and those who are concern for this country's future, please join me this week to PRAY FOR INDONESIA WEEK. I would like for all of us to begin praying for our beloved country so that God be willing to restore it and give us the best leader to lead this country to achieve a better security and prosperity. May God help us all. Anyone can just have your own time to pray, no matter what religion you are. Take some time to pray for this country. God bless us all. - What do you think -

Psalms 23

2004-06-28T10:00:00.000+07:00

You know how sometimes we worry about all things in life. Well actually we know that God has it all thought of and he never forsaken us. Read the verses from Psalms 23 and you'll find out that it's all there for us, as told to us by David The LORD is my shepherd, (That’s relationship) I shall not want. (That’s supply) He makes me lie down in green pastures, (That’s rest) he leads me beside quiet waters, (That’s refreshment) he restores my soul. (That’s healing) He guides me in paths of righteousness (That’s guidance) for his name's sake. (That’s purpose) Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, (That’s testing) I will fear no evil, (That’s confidence) for you are with me; (That’s protection) your rod and your staff, they comfort me. (That’s discipline) You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. (That’s hope) You anoint my head with oil; (That’s consecration) my cup overflows. (That’s abundance) Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, (That’s blessing) and I will dwell in the house of the LORD (That’s home) forever. (That’s eternity!) So what more do we need? - What do you think -

Cara Tuhan menjawab doa kita

2004-06-27T09:05:00.000+07:00

Untuk di renungkan, Ada seorang tentara Amerika yang melayani Tuhan berdiri dipinggir jalan untuk mencari tumpangan ke kota Chicago di Illinois. Sebenarnya perbuatan "hitchhiking" ini melanggar hukum dan sangat berbahaya, tetapi tidak ada alternatif lain bagi tentara ini kecuali melakukan hal itu. Tiba-tiba sebuah limousine (mobil Cadillac panjang yang pintunya di tiap sisi ada empat buah itu) warna hitam menghampiri tentara itu dan memberikan tumpangan. Tentara dan pemilik limousine tersebut saling berkenalan (siapa namanya, asalnya dari mana, kerja di mana, dsb) dan tiba-tiba Roh Kudus membisikkan dalam hati tentara ini untuk membagikan berita mengenai keselamatan di alam Kristus kepada pemilik limousine ini. Tentara itu menolak bisikan Roh tersebut, karena pikirnya, masakan saya habis melanggar hukum tiba2 memberitakan Kristus, dan terlebih lagi karena tentara ini TAKUT dipukuli pemilik limousine ini dan diturunkan di tengah jalan. Tapi bisikan Roh Kudus tersebut sedemikian kuat sehingga tentara ini tidak tahan lagi dan berkata kepada pemilik limousine ini, "Pak... boleh nggak saya menanyakan masalah pribadi?" "Oh, boleh saja," jawab Bapak ini, "Pertanyaan apa?" "Kalau misalnya Bapak meninggal dunia besok pagi, Bapak kira-kira akan masuk surga atau masuk neraka?" "Kamu tahu nggak?" jawab Bapak ini, "Sesaat sebelum saya Memberimu tumpangan, saya juga tiba-tiba memikirkan hal itu, dan saya pikirkalau saya mati besok, saya akan masuk neraka." "Bapak mau nggak saya beritahu caranya masuk surga?" tanya tentara ini. "Oh, tentu saja mau," jawab Bapak itu. Tentara itu lalu mulai membagikan berita keselamatan mengenai Yesus Kristus dan menantang Bapak ini untuk menerima Yesus Kristus sebagai Tuhan dan Juruselamat pribadinya. Bapak itu bersedia menerima Yesus, dan ia menghentikan mobilnya di pinggir jalan dan mengajak tentara itu membimbing dia berdoa untuk menerima Yesus sebagai Tuhan dan Juruselamatnya. Air mata meleleh di pipi Bapak ini. Ia mengatakan, "Kamu tahu nggak? Malam ini kamu sudah melakukan hal yang sangat besar bagi hidup saya, saya nggak akan pernah melupakan apa yang kamu sudah lakukan bagi hidup saya Chicago." K Ketika tentara ini mohon diri (turun dari mobil), Bapak itu memberikan satu kartu nama sambil berkata, "Ketahuilah... hari ini anda sudah melakukan hal yang sangat penting dalam hidup saya. Kapan-kapan kalau main ke Chicago hubungilah saya di alamat ini." dan tak lama kemudian mereka berpisah. Waktu lima tahun sudah berlalu dan tentara ini kemudian kembali berkunjung ke kota Chicago, dan ia ingat akan kartu nama yang diberikan oleh Bapak pemilik limousine ini kepadanya. Tentara ini ingin tahu kabar mengenai Bapak tersebut, dan ia datang ke alamat yang tertera di kartu nama tersebut, dan ia sampai ke sebuah gedung pencakar langit kantor pusat sebuah perusahaan raksasa di Amerika Serikat. Ia memberikan kartu tersebut kepada satpam, dan satpam itu sangat terkejut dan bertanya, "Dari mana kamu dapatkan kartu ini?" Tentara itu menjawab, "Yang empunya kartu itu sendiri yang memberikannya kepada saya." sehingga satpam itu menjawab, Kamu naik ke lantai paling atas, sampai sana belok kiri dan kamu tanya pada sekretaris yang ada di sana." Tentara itu naik ke lantai paling atas dan memberikan kartu nama itu kepada sekretaris yang ada di sana yang juga sangat terkejut, "Dari mana anda dapatkan kartu ini?" Jawab tentara itu, "Wah... panjang ceritanya... tapi beliau sendiri yang memberikannya kepada saya." "Bapak ini sekarang tidak ada di sini...apakah anda ingin bertemu dengan istrinya?" "Boleh",jawab tentara itu, dan ia dipertemukan dengan istri Bapak itu yang adalah Presiden Direktur dari perusahaan raksasa tersebut. "Dari mana kamu peroleh kartu ini?" tanya ibu (istri) tersebut. Tentara itu menceriterakan ihwal pertemuannya dengan Bapak itu dan bagaimana Bapak itu menerima Yesus sebagai penyelamatnya. Mendengar itu semua meledaklah tangis Ibu tersebut. Ia menceriterakan bahwa tak lama sesudah menurunkan tentara itu, limousine tersebut memperoleh kecelakaan yang sangat fatal yang menewaskan Bapak tersebut. Ibu itu mengatakan bahwa bertahun-tahun ia berdoa supaya suaminya diselamatkan, dan ia mengira bahwa suaminya meninggal tanpa diselamatkan, sehingga ia begitu marah kepada Tuhan dan meninggalkan gereja dan pelayanannya. Apa yang dilakukan oleh tentara itu adalah hal yang paling penting yang pernah terjadi dalam hidup Bapak itu, tetapi hal yang tidak kalah penting lagi ialah CARA Allah mengabulkan doa ibu itu. Ibu itu sadar bahwa Allah BEKERJA di dalam doa2 yang disampaikannya TANPA memberitahu Ibu tersebut bahwa doanya TELAH DIKABULKAN TUHAN. Dari kisah ini kita bisa belajar: HARUSKAH Tuhan itu memberitahu kita apabila Ia bekerja dalam rangka mengabulkan doa-doa kita? TIDAKKAH mata iman kita itu bisa melihat bahwa di balik doa yang SEPERTINYA tidak dikabulkan oleh Tuhan itu TERNYATA Tuhan bekerja untuk mengabulkan doa2 kita? Sedemikian cepatnyakah kita MENUDUH bahwa Tuhan itu tidak setia, Tuhan itu berbohong, Tuhan itu tidak menjawab doa-doa kita, dan Tuhan itu tidak berkenan atas doa-doa kita? HARUSKAH Allah itu mengabulkan doa kita dengan cara yang SESUAI dengan cara yang kita sodorkan kepada Tuhan? Apakah kita sudah sedemikian "dijangkiti" oleh "doa instan" yang "harus dikabulkan hari ini juga","harus dikabulkan tahun ini juga" dan lain sebagainya? With Love in JESUS, taken from an email from a friend that was sent to me. - What do you think -

Cool Icons

2004-06-26T02:50:00.000+07:00

Well I've been here before but at that time I was from a warnet (rental Internet) so when I made my icons I didn't get to copy them. After that I forgot about this site and it's address. I was trying to get back there but had no memory of the site name cause I found it on someone's blog, you know how sometimes blogwalking makes you confused which was from where? Well this was that kinda situation. It makes cool icons and it kinda look like me too. Check it out. This is me when I was in Sydney Me in Japan Me at the office, kinda look like a boss doesn't it? And here's me just being cool, hehee :P I quite like this site, and maybe I'm addicted to it. hehehe You don't know how many graphics I've made do you? :P Well that's just for me to know and for you to find out.OK - What do you think -

Balik Kucing

2004-06-25T09:44:00.000+07:00

After I tried it, I kinda liked it but then again it takes a lot of space. It has nice smilies but then again takes up so much space. So today I decided to return to this. Thanks to all that have posted on this but let's enjoy this again. It's so much simpler and doesn't take up much space. Hopefully this won't be down again in the near future. Thanks a lot - What do you think -

New inspiration

2004-06-24T11:14:00.000+07:00

Phew!! Some of my new shoe designs are to be produced in China. This morning we had the meeting about the product so tommorow one of the quality control is going to Jinjiang. Hope everything's gonna be fine. New designs and hopefully good responds from the Indonesian market. Last night I went to a friend called Elisabeth with Phunneh. Phunneh wanted to have some work experince as an interior designer cause she feels that what she learns at uni is so little as somewhat useless once it has to be applied to the real world. Too much theory and not so much practice, so she's afraid that once she graduated, she's still blank about the whole situation. Well she's right and I know for a fact that what I learned at uni can only be used about 5 % of it and not too much more. So once you get to the field, it's so different than what I once found in uni. More working experience is a must if you want to have "added value" to yourself. Well Elisabeth or we usually call her Bebet is like that. She started from so low and worked her way up and now she "owns" her own company called Leeds. That's interior designs and also exterior and furniture as well. Well we chatted a lot last night and it was so interesting. All the experiences she had with her former bosses and how she started to make her own company with a friend, it's all so inspiring. I was just full of awe yesterday hehehe. She said that the important thing is always to have a clear head when designing, always start with some brainstorming of ideas. Freshen your ideas with always looking at new stuff from magazines and internet and stores (this is just so much like what I'm doing in this company...hehe). But she's just so cool doing in, so much better than me I guess. I really admire her, especially when I saw all the photos of the interior that she designed and it's all by her. From colour and funiture and everything is her designs (at least 75%). Cool girl. Guess now I also have to sketch more everytime I get an idea and just draw draw draw even though sometimes it's kinda extreme. hehehe just to practice my drawing skills and my designing skills hehe. Hopefully Phuneeh can also learn a lot from her so she also can start her own company maybe in five years hahahaha. Yeah just hopefully. - What do you think -

Explanation of an 8 year old

2004-06-23T09:23:00.000+07:00

THIS ONE IS FABULOUS!!! It was written by an 8 year old, Danny Dutton of Chula Vista, CA, for his third grade homework assignment. The assignment was to explain God. EXPLANATION OF GOD

"One of God's main jobs is making people. He makes them to replace the ones that die, so there will be enough people to take care of things on earth. He doesn't make grownups, just babies. I think because they are smaller and easier to make. That way he doesn't have to take up his valuable time teaching them to talk and walk. He can just leave that to mothers and fathers." "God's second most important job is listening to prayers. An awful lot of this goes on, since some people, like preachers and things, pray at times beside bedtime. God doesn't have time to listen to the radio or TV because of this. Because he hears everything, there must be a terrible lot of noise in his ears, unless he has thought of a way to turn it off." "God sees everything and hears everything and is everywhere which keeps Him pretty busy. So you shouldn't go wasting His time by going over your Mom and dad's head asking for something they said you couldn't have." "Atheists are people who don't believe in God. I don't think there are any in Chula Vista. At least there aren't any who come to our church." "Jesus is God's Son. He used to do all the hard work like walking on water and performing miracles and trying to teach the people who didn't want to learn about God. They finally got tired of Him preaching to them and they crucified Him But He was good and kind, like His Father, and He told His Father that they didn't know what they were doing and to forgive them and God said O.K." "His dad (God) appreciated everything that He had done and all His hard work on earth so He told Him He didn't have to go out on the road anymore. He could stay in heaven. So He did. And now He helps His dad out by listening to prayers and seeing things which are important for God to take care of and which ones He can take care of Himself without having to bother God. Like a secretary, only more important." "You can pray anytime you want and they are sure to help you because they got it worked out so one of them is on duty all the time." "You should always go to church on Sunday because it makes God happy, and if there's anybody you want to make happy, it's God. Don't skip church or do something you think will be more fun like going to the beach. This is wrong. And besides the sun doesn't come out at the beach until noon anyway." "If you don't believe in God, besides being an atheist, you will be very lonely, because your parents can't go everywhere with you, like to camp, but God can. It is good to know He's around you when you're scared, in the dark or when you can't swim and you get thrown into real deep water by big kids." "But...you shouldn't just always think of what God can do for you. I figure God put me here and He can take me back anytime he pleases. And...that's why I believe in God."

---------------------------------------------- Cool huh, maybe you've read this before, and maybe you haven't but I thought that it would be nice just to post it here. What an 8 year old honestly think of God. I wonder if I know that much to really speak from my heart. Well I took this from here. Have fun. - What do you think -

I'm sad

2004-06-22T22:51:00.000+07:00

I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I don't know what is wrong but I feel really sad. - What do you think -

New Shoutbox

2004-06-22T12:34:00.000+07:00

Just changed the shoutbox with the ones from wdcreezz. One thing is because the old one from doneeh this few days have been having some troubles so it's kinda annoying, well I can't say much and I can't complain cause it's a free shoutbox. I'm quite glad that they have this service in the first place. But now there's another Indonesian owned shoutbox service from wdcreez and it has a smilies list also so maybe it's somewhat a little "cool"er. hehe That's the only reason actually. hey...maybe this new shoutbox will also be a boom, who knows. Well, I'm kinda busy these few days so nothing much to be updated. Thanks to all. So whaddya think of it? - What do you think -

Apatheist

2004-06-21T08:27:00.000+07:00

“Aku tahu segala pekerjaanmu: engkau tidak dingin dan tidak panas! Jadi karena engkau suam suam kuku, dan tidak dingin atau panas, Aku akan memuntahkan engkau dari mulutKu.” Wahyu 3:15-16

Jarang ada orang yang benar benar atheis. Tapi yang banyak adalah orang yang theis tapi nggak terlalu peduli kepada Allah dalam kehidupannya sehari hari. Bukan atheis, jadi mungkin dapat diistilahkan sebagai “apatheist”. Mungkin aku berdoa kepada Tuhan, tapi apakah doaku itu nggak sekedar permintaan dan sebagai alat “menyuruh” Tuhan melakukan sesuatu untukku? Atau aku juga melayani dalam persekutuan orang percaya, tapi apakah ini hanya sekedar rutinitas yang nggak ada artinya? Apakah aku sudah kehilangan kasih mula mula itu? Yang meluap luap dari Allah ketika aku pertama kali mengenalNya?

“Barangsiapa Kukasihi, ia Kutegor dan Kuhajar: sebab itu relakanlah hatimu dan bertobatlah” Wahyu 3: 19

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What should I say?

2004-06-20T20:40:00.000+07:00

idih menjijikkan deh ya. Kemaren itu si Wiranto ama Susilo BY pake ke AFI lagi numpang naikkin pamor mereka. Lha kok ajang nyanyi dipake sebagai tempat nambah popularitas diri sendiri. Mana Wiranto nyanyinya pake lagu politis banget lagi. yang bilang Indonesia aku cinta padamu. adduuuuuuhhhh sampe mau muntah deh ya rasanya. Kok cintanya cuma waktu kampanye doangwangwangwangnnnnggggg. jadi males deh ndengarnya. Yeeekkk. Yang agak mending adalah SBY, walo aku nggak senang banget dia pake panggung AFI untuk sekedar nampilin diri. Aduh kok ini dua capres ini keliatan banget sih lagi njilat njilat rakyat. Tapi yang penting seharusnya nantinya kalo emang benar lolos jadi presiden deh. benar nggak apa yang dikata. Paling juga ntar banyak melesetnya. Tapi SBY pinter karena milih lagunya Jamrud, Pelangi di Matamu jadi bener bener serasa lebih dekat dengan anak anak muda yang lagi nonton di JICC kemaren. Walo ntar pasti banyak dikomentarin tentang calon Presiden kok nyanyinya lagu itu apalagi Jamrud yang identik dengan anak muda yang "rada beda". Pokoknya paling males kalo politik dicampuradukkan ama entertainment masyarakat yang kadang sudah terlalu sumpek ngeliatin tuh 10 orang capres-cawapres. Bukan aku anti ama mereka. mereka toh pasti akan menjadi pemimpin negeri ini dalam waktu dekat ini tapi aku nggak suka cara mereka menjilat rakyat sekarang trus nggak ada bukti akan janjinya pasti terlaksana. Sekarang semua bisa dengan penuh senyum dan perkataan yang sangat baik antara satu dan lainnya tapi di belakang mereka saling memaki... Wah ini sih hypocrite namanya. Aku sangat ingin melihat seorang pemimpin yang nggak terlalu macam macam dan bisa dipegang omongannya. Yang benar benar ngeliat ke bawah dan mendukung rakyat dan mengerti kepentingan rakyat, bukan yang awalnya doang begitu trus selanjutnya tetap aja memarakkan agenda korupsi untuk orang orang yang telah membantu mereka naik ke atas. Kadang nyata sekali kalo omongan2 mereka itu Bull**** tapi what can I do? I can't choose any other than the 10 candidates can I? That makes me wanna scream cause I haven't really found the figure that I'm looking for in these people. But I could be wrong. maybe they are capable of doing what they say that they will do. Hopefully and this is the only hope that I have left for them. i can't hope for too much. Hope they at least try to make the effort of making all their promises into a reality. God help them. If they are for the people then I will stand by them no matter what, but now they haven't shown such things so why should I stand for people that doesn't wanna know if the prople are not eating or in such deep poverty, but just think about ways that they may get more wealth and stuff. I hate people like this. - What do you think -

Heboh Konser Final AFI

2004-06-18T22:41:00.000+07:00

Hey para AFI (Akademi Fantasi Indosiar) mania, besok tuh acara grand final untuk AFI ke-2. Lu semua pasti tau dong. Aku sih nggak ngikuti sedetail dan seheboh beberapa orang teman yang aku tahu, tapi ya aku tahulah siapa yang namanya siapa apalagi 2 kali ini udah orang "Medan" masuk final. hehee Bangga? enggak juga karena emang mereka bukan asli orang Medan, tapi kebetulan menang penyisihannya di Medan. Tapi ya ga papa deh, yang penting nama Medan semakin sering disebut di blantika nusantara hahahaha (udah kayak apa aja..ya) Tapi apa yang aku lihat dari pelaksanaan AFi kedua ini. Well, for starters, it's much "better" karena yang ditampilkan adalah orang orang yang lebih "bisa nyanyi" dari anak2 AFI pertama. Ini juga mungkin faktor semakin banyaknya peserta yang ikut dengan iming iming "kesuksesan" dari AFI I. Mungkin yang pertama kurang greng karena publikasinya kurang santer sehingga yang ikut masih sedikit dan yang lolos adalah terbaik dari yang sedikit tersebut. hehe. Tapi mungkin karena sekarang lebih banyak lagi ditambah kota kota baru lagi jadi semakin seru dan semakin baik kualitasnya. What else...Well it's getting better karena sekarang selain mereka menyanyikan lagu yang sudah populer mereka juga diberi kesempatan nyanyiin lagu yang diciptakan khusus untuk mereka, yang ternyata ada juga kontesnya. Wah tambah pinter aja ya buat acara. Sehingga mereka juga belajar tentang lagu jenis apa yang cocok untuk mereka. Tapi yang paling mencolok adalah animo masyarakat Indonesia terhadap acara ini. Memang harus diakui bahwa masyarakat Indonesia itu orangnya adalah "follower" alias copycat. Kita itu jarang deh bener2 original nampilin apa yang benar benar hasil karya kita sendiri. Jadi pinternya niru apa yang udah populer di luar dibawa masuk Indonesia. Tapi ya kadang nggak papa deh, walo nggak mendorong anak Indonesia untuk maju. Untuk acara AFI kedua ini animo masyarakat kita begitu luar biasa. Mulai dari abang tukang becak yang mangkal di pinggir jalan, ke pedagang sayur di pasar, ke anak sekolah dimana aja, ke ibu ibu rumah tangga yang nggak punya kerjaan di rumah, bahkan sampai ke kantor kantor, bukan hanya karyawan kantor tapi juga bos ikut nimbrung, ke pelawak, ke para artis top, ke pejabat bahkan pejabat teras sekalipun, semua demam AFI. Indosiar hebat? mungkin ya, mungkin tidak. Mungkin masyarakat Indonesia udah terlalu sumpek aja dengan kondisi bangsa yang careut marut seperti ini, atau juga bingung mau pilih presiden mana yang paling baik....yah mending cari hiburan dulu deh. Atau juga sudah bosan dengan tyayangan sinetron yang nggak jelas mulanya dan akhirnya yang diputar terus menerus dan terkesan hanya untuk mengejar jumlah dan nggak peduli kualitas isi dari sinetron tersebut... dan mungkin banyak lagi kejenuhan bangsa kita ini. Aku kaget juga sih ngelihat banyak artis artis TOP yang kelihatan di layar kaca sedang nonton AFI langsung dari dekat bahkan duduknya dekat panggung, sehingga mungkin dapat disimpulkan mereka rela mengocek duit untuk sekedar melihat "anak anak bau kencur" yang notabene mereka jauh lebih senior. Tapi mereka rela untuk mungkin ngantri tiket juga, atau mungkinbayar sedikit lebih mahal untuk bisa dapat tempat yang "baik". Tapi yang sangat mengkagetkan aku adalah reaksi para pemimpin daerah tempat asal para akademia yang lolos ini, terutama 3 besar. Dukungan dari Solo tempat asal Tia begitu besar sampai mereka akan menyediakan 2 buah bis wisata untuk mengangkut para Tia-mania dari Solo untuk melihat langsung konser ini besok, berarti mungkin sedang dalam perjalanan hehe. Di kota Solo, katanya spanduk dikibarkan dimana mana untuk mengajak seluruh warga Solo mendukung Tia. Wah hebat banget deh. mau bupati, lurah, camat, semua pegawainya dan lain lain dikerahkan untuk mengirim sms untuk akademia satu ini. Wuihhhhh Belum lagi dari Pekanbaru, tempat asal dua orang akademia yang masuk 3 besar yaitu Haikal dan Micky. Pekanbaru terpecah jadi 2, kubu Haikal dan Micky. Menurut Jawa Pos semua keluarga bahu membahu untuk mempublikasikan mereka ke teman temannya, bahkan ibunya Micky mendatangi walikota untuk minta dukungan.. Wah sudah kayak mau pemilu aja ya. Tapi bukan pemilihan presiden tapi akademia AFI2. Akhirnya ternyata memang walikota Pekanbaru dan "krew"nya mendukung mereka, bahkan sialnya mereka mendukung dua sekaligus sehingga smsnya harus double untuk 2 orang ini karena nggak pengen take side, biar adil. Mereka juga dijanjikan akan mendapat bonus kalo masuk 3 besar dan lebih lagi kalau jadi pemenang pertama. Wahhhhhh enaknya. Bukan hanya walikota tetapi juga Gubernur Riau merasa bangga dan menginstruksikan kepada kepala2 daerah lainnya di luar Pekanbaru untuk turut mendukung kedua akademia ini. Gileeee bo! Gile belom jadi selebritis aja udah jauh melebihi selebriti dukungannya. Emang di satu sisi semakin didengarnya nama daerah asal para akademia dan ditonton jutaan pemirsa maka semakin banyak pula investor yang berminat mungkin....Kali aja ya, just a wild guess. Anyway it's that big now, beda dengan AFI pertama lalu, JAUH. Kalo aku suruh milih mana yang jadi favoritku, emang aku pilih Tia sebagai yang paling bisa nyanyi dengan suara maut bo. Tapi kalau dibilang solidaritas sesama kampung halaman, maka aku juga akan memilih Haikal yang lebih memilih Medan ketimbang Jakarta. Sehingga nama Medan semakin harum, apalagi kalau dia sukses menjadi pemenang pertama,. maka Medan akan dua kali berturut turut memenangi kontes ini. hehe either way, I don't really care who wins. I'm not tied emotionally to this event anyway. I just wanna enjoy it as an alternative entertaiment. Tapi trus ini ada lagi AFI 3 mungkin latah kali ya, dengan kesuksesan AFI 2 ini sehingga mau terus mengeruk untung dari hal; itu. Tapi kalau menurut aku semakin lama akan semakin basi dan nggak banyak lagi yang berminat kecuali acara ini akan dikembangkan terus dan terus dan tiap edisi ada sesuatu yang baru dan heboh. tapi tanpa itu semua AFI 3 hanya akan jadi proyek ikut ikutan yang nggak banyak membawa hasil positif? Don't you think? So siapa yang ikut AFI 3? Ya udah deh, jangan lupa nonton besok malam ya. I might watch, but then again I might not, it's just an entertainment. Doesn't matter if I don't watch it right? - What do you think -

Nothing

2004-06-17T08:27:00.000+07:00

Have you tried this love test It says that Hendra is: 1. You are attracted to those who are elegant and well-mannered. 2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored. 3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is optimistic. 4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too moody; and you don't know how to please him/her. 5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is that both of you can talk about everything and anything, no secret is kept. 6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage. 7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much. 8. At this moment, you think of love as a committment for both parties. Well, I think that most of them are true. I wonder what those animals have in common with my feelings and thoughts. Hehehehe How about this world's easiest quiz. I must be stupid cause I couldn't get one right Here's a Physhological test for me, and the results:

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing and always interesting; someone who is constantly the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to your head. They see you also as kind, considerate and understanding; someone who will cheer them up and help them out.

How about this other Personality quiz It says that I'm an Artisan. Artisan are the temperament with a natural ability to excel in any of the arts, not only the fine arts such as painting and sculpting, or the performing arts such as music, theater, and dance, but also the athletic, military, political, mechanical, and industrial arts, as well as the "art of the deal" in business.( well to tell you the truth guys these things are so true, they are my favourite past times) Artisans are most at home in the real world of solid objects that can be made and manipulated, and of real-life events that can be experienced in the here and now(yup only the present...hehe, not too much of the future). Artisans have exceptionally keen senses, and love working with their hands (true). They seem right at home with tools, instruments, and vehicles of all kinds, and their actions are usually aimed at getting them where they want to go, and as quickly as possible (gue banget). Thus Artisan will strike off boldly down roads that others might consider risky or impossible, doing whatever it takes, rules or no rules, to accomplish their goals. This devil-may-care attitude also gives the Artisans a winning way with people, and they are often irresistibly charming with family, friends and co-workers.(hahaha true again) Artisans wants to be where the action is; they seek out the adventure and show a constant hunger for pleasure and stimulation. They believe that variety is the spice of life, and that doing things aren't fun or exciting is a waste of time (aduh kok benar semua gini sih). Artisans are impulsive, adaptable, competitive, and believe the next throw of dice will be the lucky one (optimists). They can also be generous to a fault, always ready to share with their friends from the bounty of live. Above all, Artisans need to be free to do what they wish (agak egois ya...hey that's me dude). They resist being tied or bound or confined or obligated; they would rather not wait (ohhh ever so true), or save or store, or live for tomorrow. In the Artisan view, today must be enjoyed, for tomorrow never comes.(can't say that this is not my thought hehe) Artisans make up between 15 to 20 % of the population, which is good, because they create much of the beauty, grace, fun and excitement the rest of us enjoy in life.(see guys, you all should be thankful to us Artisans cause your life can be more pleasurable because of people like us...hehhehehee) Kuis ginian fun banget ya apalagi kalo yang dia bilangin banyak benarnya. wah jadi semakin kenal ama personality gue. Asalnya tau sih, cuma kalo disuruh menuliskan in so many words, mungkin I wouldn't be able to. Karena aku bukan tipe pemikir yang bisa menuliskan isi hatiku secara detail...hehehe thanks to this quiz, I know where I stand. ------------------------------------------- Yesterday had been a sad day for me, my favourite team, the Los Angeles Lakers lost the NBA Finals to the Pistons. How can that happen. I'm so mourning over this loss. I just couldn't believe my ears. The oh so powerful Shaquille with the witty and speedy Kobe Bryant couls be outrunned by Ben Wallace and friends. That's just so intolerable. The Lakers were in so much injury trouble that they just couldn't get the game to go their way. Ah well I know that you can do it guys. I'll be waiting next year for the vengeance. I know that the Pistons would not hold the throphy for two seasons in a row, cause it'll come home to Los Angeles. Adios Amigos. - What do you think -

Copy cat

2004-06-16T08:45:00.000+07:00

Have you notice the latest update on Yahoo mail? Hahaha that's right as most of you may have already known they are giving away 100Mb free emails, from which was a mere 6 Mb. On one condition it's great. Now I can have a yahoomail with a big capacity for free ehehe :) They used to charge 49.99 a year for 100 Mb, did you know? Maybe you do, maybe you don't or maybe you don't care as long as you have a free one. Right hahaha. Anyway, doesn't it just makes you wonder why are they doing this? Is it because they have a new rival as in GMail that offers 1000Mb of free space hahaha and they're afraid that their customers are gonna "run away" from Yahoo! I wonder. They make it as if they are being a copy cat, especially when they launch this after Gmail launched their BETA version, which I also got one hehe. Well actually I have 2 Yahoo accounts or perhaps three, but one I seldom use but is still available for me and a GMail and a hotmail account and used to have a lycos account, I don't know about the last one but I have never opened it in such a long time. So that should give me at least around 1300 Mb of email storage. hehe not to mention if maybe just a MAYBE hotmail decided to join the trend and make theirs into 500Mb of free space for a free account, what'll I have...hehehehe... in your dreams hendra...In your dreamssss They also have a new face, somewhat nicer and sleeker.But still you are a copy cat...hahaha Anyway thanks Yahoo for following in the GMail's footsteps. It gives me such an advantage, even though you are still a copycat, but doesn't matter. I like this kind of copying, cause it's for my sake. hahahaha. Nice move Yahoo! So guys do you Yahoo! oh yeah just found out one thing, the delete button doesn't work. Damn, but actually maybe there's no need for one. Ah well. - What do you think -

Pak Zulkarnaen

2004-06-15T11:33:00.000+07:00

Tadi malam aku dan Vanny melayat ke rumah Pak Zulkarnaen, seorang tua yang sangat setia kepada Tuhan. Aku tidak mengenalnya pada awalnya. Kalau anda mengenal Rudy Hartono, seorang pebulutangkis yang sangat hebat yang sering kali membawa piala Thomas ke Indonesia (8 kali kalau tidak salah), nah Pak Zulkarnaen adalah ayahnya. Aku sering melihatnya datang ke gereja, biasanya pasti jam lima sore. Kedatangannya pasti agak "heboh" karena dia berada diatas kursi roda dan tidak bisa berjalan sendiri, sehingga seluruh keluarganya akan mengantarnya ke gereja bersama sama dan duduk bersama di kursi depan, disamping pintu agar memudahkan akses masuk dan keluarnya. Sehingga pasti ketika mereka masuk sedikit agak gaduh dari membuka pintu sampai mendudukkan pak Zulkarnaen ke tempat duduknya. Ternyata dia ini sangat setia sekali. Dulunya ia adalah seorang yang menjadi pelatih pebulutangkis Indonesia. Rakyat Indonesia sebenarnya sangat berhutang kepadanya karena mendidik seorang Rudi Hartono bisa menjadi seorang atlet hebat. Tapi menurut penjelasan Pak Rudi, ayahnya terlalu sibuk dengan pekerjaannya melatih anaknya dan orang lain sehingga tidak pernah mempunyai waktu yang intim dengan Tuhan. Baru setelah dia menderita stroke pertama kali, sepuluh tahun yang lalu ia mulai dijamah Tuhan. Anak anaknya selalu mendoakan agar ayahnya dapat mengenal Tuhan secara pribadi. Akhirnya setelah menderita stroke tersebut dan dikenalkan kepada Tuhan, ia meminta Rudi untuk membelikannya sebuah alkitab yang dapat ia baca tanpa mengenakan kacamata. Dalam sepuluh tahun terakhir ini, menurut pengakuannya kepada Pak Rudi, ia telah menyelesaikan membaca alkitab sebanyak 3,5 kali. Sungguh hebat untuk orang yang sangat tua seperti dia. Ia juga sering datag ke persekutuan pengenalan alkitab yang biasanya memang dihadiri oleh para lansia, dan ternyata beberapa hari yang lalu dia sempat memenangkan kuis alkitab yang membuatnya sangat bangga sekali. Hadiahnya dipamerkannya kepada anak anaknya dan cucunya yang ada di rumah itu. Begitu menyentuh sekali. Pak Rudi Hartono begitu merasa kehilangan sekaligus bangga bisa mempunyai orangtua yang seperti ini, terutama pada akhir hayatnya tetap setia pada Allah. Biasanya bagi orang yang sukses dan orang yand punya kepribadian hebat, sering sekali merasa tidak memerlukan Allah karena menganggap dapat melakukan banyak hal sendiri, dengan kekuatannya. Tapi tidak demikian halnya dengan pak Zulkarnaen. Setelah ia dijamah oleh Tuhan, perubahannya begitu dahsyat sekali. Tadi malam itu kami mengiringi pujian penghiburan bersama tim dari gereja. Aku dan Vanny dan Desy bernyanyi memuji Tuhan diiringi oleh musik yang dimainkan Apostolos, band mahasiswa Papua yang melayani di gereja kami. Kami semua begitu dikuatkan oleh kesaksian keluarga dan teman yang mengenalnya. Sungguh indah karya Tuha dalam hidupnya. Walaupun dia dikenal secara internasional, namun ia tidak lagi mementingkan itu semua melainkan hanya Tuhan saja yang ada di hatinya. Pagi tadi jenazah dibawa ke pemakaman Sentong, di Lawang untuk dikebumikan disana. Selamat jalan Pak Zulkarnaen. Semoga teladanmu dapat kuingat dan menjadi inspirasi dalam hidupku juga. - What do you think -

Time

2004-06-15T09:21:00.000+07:00

Time is not measured by the years that you live But by the deeds that you do and the joy that you give. And each day as it comes brings a change to each one To love to the fullest, leaving nothing undone. That would brighten the life or lighten the load Of some weary traveller lost on life's road. So what does it matter how long we may live, If as long as we live we unselfishly give. -Helen Steiner Rice- - What do you think -

Enjoying the Day

2004-06-13T14:10:00.000+07:00

Sebab karena kasih karunia kamu diselamatkan oleh iman; itu bukan hasil usahamu, tetapi pemberian Allah. Itu bukan hasil pekerjaanmu; jangan ada orangyang memegahkan diri. Karena kita ini buatan Allah diciprakan dalam Kristus Yesus untuk melakukan pekerjaan baik yang dipersiapkan Allah sebelumnya. Ia mau supaya kita hidup di dalamnya.

Ini adalah ayat yang nanti rencananya aku berikan sebagai Petunjuk Hidup Baru di gereja. Ntar malam pelayanan sebagai WL alias worship leader, jadi tadi banyak persiapan untuk ntar malam. ------------------- I'm having such a fine day today because we are back in business. Yup a few days ago might be a very dark era (hehehe if you can call it that) in our lives, we were fighting badly and oh...it was like hell and we were like fighting physically at times. So it was just one of the worst days of my life. But I know that I cannot leave her. I love her too much and cherish her love towards me too. It's as if I don't know where this world is taking me without her by myside. Melancholy huh, but it's true. I guess, I just know that she's my soul mate that if we are to be parted then there's gonna be such a big THING missing in my life, and I just couldn't bear it. Love you, sweety. ------------------ Well since it's such a nice day, I'm gonna have myself a nice time too. It seems like nothing can bother me at this time, everything seems to be going well. PERFECT. Thanks Lord. - What do you think -

Iseng banget

2004-06-11T10:02:00.000+07:00

I'm not feeling at all good today. Too many things on my mind. Frustating things. About love, hate, semua deh pokok e lagi buinguuuung poll. penolakan, kesedihan, keputusasaan. Jadi males banget nih ari, beneran deh. Why does the sun keep on shining? I wonder. ------------------------------- Pernah berpikir nggak tentang orang orang yang paling berpengaruh di dunia ini. Banyak orang yang membenci, mencintai dan punya perasaan lain terhadap mereka. Fitnah dan tuduhan lainnya kerap dilancakan untuk mengguncang mereka. banyak juga yang dilakukan dengan melalui internet. Bill Gates orang ini paling sering dikaitkan dengan setan dan penguasaan dunia, melalui Microsoft tentunya. Coba lihat ini Hehehe, dia dikatakan sebagai the Anti-Christ, has the number of the beast dan sebagainya, tentunya dengan riset penentuan penomoran nama tertentu sebagai buktinya. Hehehe amusing. Is he the anti-christ? I wonder. Alamat ini aku dapat ketika iseng nulis di google trus nulis Bill Gates satan dan menekan button I'm Feeling Lucky. Try some other names, maybe yours too. How about this conversation with satan Funny Bill Clinton orang ini juga pernah menjadi orang yang ditakuti dunia ketika menjadi presiden Amerika, juga menerima hujatan dan pujian dari orang yang berbeda beda. Seperti entry diatas aku masukin Bill clinton satan and this is the outcome So Bill Clinton is also the anti-christ, so which one is right? hehehe confusing huh cause it also have proof here So it's getting interesting and thought why not try the reigning power sekarang. George Bush I repeated the same step above, dasar iseng ya. And look what I found, another anti-christ hehehe so many of them huh, padahal mestinya khan cuma satu orang iya nggak. Eh coba ini deh George bush, jesus walah ternyata dia membuat suatu hari untuk mengenang Yesus. Should he do this? Tony Blair Well they also consider this guy as the Satan. Soeharto Soeharto setan juga nggak ya. Menurutmu? ---------------------- Hehehe semua tulisan yang ada dilink tadi itu nggak atas tanggung jawabku lho, jangan ada yang menuntut diriku hehe. Tapi udah pernah coba ini nggak Hendra setan trus klik I'm Feeling Lucky. What do you get? hehehe Have fun ya - What do you think -

Hendra in Googlism

2004-06-10T14:54:00.000+07:00

Here's what I find today in googlism.com. It's what google finds out about my name. Googlism.com will find out what Google.com thinks of you, your friends or anything! Search for your name here or for a good laugh. It's funny. Try it

hendra is now a country guest house offering bed and breakfast accommodation in cornwall close to the eden project hendra is conveniently situated close to golf parkland and link courses hendra is not highly contagious hendra is a national of canada hendra is also the undp resident representative in tanzania hendra is ideally situated close to the town and its picturesque harbour hendra is short for hindrance and bliss for ignorance is hendra is the school for you hendra is located on the north side of brisbane hendra is located 6 kilometres northeast of the brisbane cbd and borders the gateway motorway hendra is known as a person who does not care much about much hendra is a well proportioned single storey dwelling with open plan living area and a french door leading to the gardens and patio hendra is one of the paramyxoviruses that are rna viruses hendra is a virus carried by fruit bats; it killed a horse trainer and 14 horses in australia in 1994 and 1995 hendra is thought to have been passed from horses to humans through close physical contact but its passage from bats to horses is less well understood hendra is less than 1km from where the nests were found hendra is more pathogenic hendra is itself employing a school hendra is president of the flagship office of ogilvyone worldwide with accounts including american express hendra is well situated to explore west cornwall and ideal for walkers hendra is 58 and evans is 62 hendra is captured and hendra is the un development programme hendra is one supercalm guy (really???) hendra is the united nations resident co hendra is an enveloped virus which makes it relatively easy to inactivate hendra is currently a senior software developer for websphere commerce suite in the ibm toronto lab hendra is believed to enter a dormant phase a year before erupting in its virulent form hendra is editor of national lampoon and author of the ny times best seller brotherhood hendra is an actor hendra is the assistant administrator of human resources at marquette general health system hendra is within the hamilton ward hendra is obviously hoping to outscore their opponents with the likes of indoor sensation nick zamora hendra is baffled by the persecution of falun gong in china hendra is considered to be one of the best and most versatile painters of indonesia hendra is a board member of commercenet hendra is a foreign legal consultant in the singapore office of latham & watkins hendra is totally different to hendra is >totally different hendra is best remembered for his work with "the national lampoon" in its salad days back in the 1970s hendra is may class hendra is familiar to be called ciwei hendra is married to jenise and there was another woman (am I???another woman wow.hehe) hendra is the assistant administrator of human resources at mgh hendra is part of our scouting community here in milpitas hendra is suffering from kidney cancer which was declared hendra is the inner square closer or are you looking down on this box or farther away? hendra is now trying to get something hendra is a writer and actor who is best known for hendra is ideally situated only 2 miles from newquay hendra is spread by fruit bats hendra is a traditional farmhouse originally owned by the duchy of cornwall hendra is a writer hendra is a holiday park that caters for families and couples with everything needed for a fabulous holiday hendra is ruled out with a hamstring strain hendra is not for techies who love jargon hendra is not part of that team hendra is one called nipah hendra is brilliant as the band's put upon manager and a young fran drescher shows up as a record label executive while dana carvey and billy crystal have hendra is currently being tried in absentia by the central jakarta district court for allegedly misusing over rp 305 billion and us$2 hendra is zwaar verkouden en ik denk dat ze me aangestoken heeft hendra is a village in cornwall hendra is second only to moridia itself hendra is our new addition to the keynote speakers hendra is doing; some other links on hendra is 1¼ miles before newquay town centre hendra is the hub around which the brisbane thoroughbred racing industry revolves with most of the leading trainers stabling their horses in the suburb which hendra is looking confused and upset; he’sa nice lad and his crime was one of ignorance rather than indifference hendra is considered a bsl hendra is one fine piece of ass hendra is a suburb that has a lot of horse stables and training yards as it's close by eagle farm where the horse racing is held hendra is very well represented on the internet? hendra is responsible for leading clio’s software development teams hendra is at the moment a fugitive from justice hendra is ook bestuurslid van overkoepelende e hendra is that you ?? (yes, it's me) hendra is so high hendra is a business hendra is carried by fruit bats

Here's an entry for Sembiring, my family name:

sembiring is also from the island of sumatra and made the journey to irian jaya in search of new and interesting adventures sembiring is a friend of syafei within the pdip as well as a former commander of the irian jaya sembiring is currently head of the army education and training command sembiring is right sembiring is believed to have been released on 15 august and dr tjiptaning at 3pm on 17 august sembiring is the jakarta

And here's for Karo, my ethnicity(tribe):

karo is more confident now karo is a female from israel born on 20/10/1981 karo is more confident now karo thakur of laxminiya vdc karo is a corn syrup available in a water karo is a romantic concoction directed by the son of veteran lyricist majrooh sultanpuri and written by the talented rajkumar santoshi karo is an excellent buy karo is working on karo is a brazilian language spoken in the amazon region karo is an experimental distributed catalogue of polish libraries based on the z39 karo is no longer fighting in las vegas grappling tournament because the matchmaker said karo was 5lb overweight karo is in los angeles pitching his screenplay of ruminations to television executives karo is present in many european countries karo is a closed circulating system; something like the cooling system in an automobile motor karo is a great great great grandson of aust ch karo is about 10 months here and kimba is about 6 months karo is raat kee baate chhalakane do ye paimaane karo is kadar jald karo is a restriction of the full karo framework that is outlined below karo is sound wrt all karo karo is used mostly for prayer and learning today karo is a circulating system karo is transporting the heat with water karo is judged in the trench karo is witty karo is a romantic film which is being directed by andalib karo is necessary to keep them from becoming constipated karo is a tedious replay of hum aapke dil main rahte hain karo is the chief personal retainer to the clan master karo is pure corn syrup made with real vanilla to ensure the best quality karo is not specifically intended for infant feeding karo is unique karo is not very large karo is studying to be a professional musician; she just changed from classical music to pop karo is the energetic karo is delighted with the sales success and says that the kodin kuvalehti magazine has always been a pleasure to sell karo is a large beautiful deep black and red male with excellent temperment karo is a brand name karo is currently developing a screenplay based on his popular college e karo is frost karo is paagal ko tum se na sharaarat kar baithe naadaan kii niiyat thiik nahii karo is corn syrup karo is on interactive show about karo is a mind reader karo is on his way karo is in moscow karo is preferred karo is a black man and kari is a black woman; black in the sense that they are considered morally corrupt karo is shahar me karo is karo is the 46 karo is one of a lot of ethnics in north sumatra karo is a professional you can trust by viewing the member profile below karo is eh schon ganz gschodat weil is die ganze zeit fotografier und der blitz karo is voi im schokodelirium karo is known to be a production center for horticultural crops karo is an outstanding business partner karo is a well karo is mijn tweede diensthond karo is characterised as innovative and a leading company in office technology in russia karo is an associate in the tallahassee office of tew cardenas rebak kellogg lehman demaria tague raymond & levine karo is available in four colors karo is the only person allowed to be in the war room with the map as well as in the battle room to see the battles in progress karo is a multi karo is one of bataknese karo is in het noordhollandse een bedrijf met een gevestigde naam op het gebied van tuinbouwtoelevering karo is an acronym for 'known and recorded origin' karo is an indusrial center just inland along the southern coast of the northern continent of mares ii karo is the primary basis for the advocates of the heter mechira karo is not doing that great a business in all circuits karo is so sickening sweet that that was the only way i could get it into him karo is a putz arjako son karo is best known as the author of the shulchan aruch karo is a brand name for light and dark corn syrup karo is the brand name karo is ch karo is commercial software from a swedish company pronyx ab and from summer 1999 it is used for supervising the operational hirlam operations karo is of basque origin" karo is out b/c the rest star both srk and salman and jsk only has salman go to top of page karo is a senior at the university of pennsylvania and has been recording the hilarious details of his college life since the first day of

Well did you try it out? What did your name turn out to mean? - What do you think -

One Day At a Time

2004-06-09T09:10:00.000+07:00

Not yesterday's load we are called on to bear, Nor the morrow's uncertain and shadowy care; Why should we look forward or backwith dismay? Our needs, as our mercies, are but for the day. One day at a time, and the day is His day; He hath numbered its hours, though they haste or delay. His grace is sufficient; we walk not alone; As the day, so the strength that He giveth His own. Well thanks for everyone...I am feeling much better now, and my relationship is getting better each day. Thank God for the gift of communication that He allows between the two of us to solve all the problems. Thanks Father. Teach us to take each step one day at a time.

Updated Yesss, at last the lakers is at it again. They beat the Pistons with 99 to 91. This has once again shows the world the dominating power of the Lakers. Thanks to Shaquille o'Neal and of course the one and only Kobe Bryant (my fave). Did you also know that now the game can be followed live by blog. hehehe yup, some NBA fans and commentators are putting up some new blogs so the people that can't see it live can still know what's happening with a little delay.. hehehe that's technology for you. Cause they updated it like once every few minutes even seconds sometimes. Coolness. here it is Here are some of the other NBA blogs in case you are an NBA fan that likes to read about these basketball stuffs. The first is the names of blogger, media affiliates, time of posts, and their blog title and address. Have fun. Bernie Bickerstaff General Manager & Head Coach, Charlotte Bobcats 1:59 pm on 6/8 My Kind of Town Victor Williams Actor, King of Queens 7:47 pm on 6/6 Lessons Learned. George Eddy Commentator, Canal + France 5:40 pm on 6/4 The Mailman is the Glue Simone Sandri Co-Host of Basketball International 5:07 pm on 6/4 Dumars does it right John Nash and Maurice Cheeks Portland Trail Blazers General Manager and Head Coach 2:54 pm on 6/4 Planning for the Draft Ruth Riley Center, Detroit Shock 12:31 pm on 6/3 Basketball and Patriotism Yaron Talpaz Commentator & Reporter, Sport 5 Channel, Israel 8:04 am on 6/3 The Pistons are worthy Jaleel White Writer, Actor, Producer 4:27 am on 6/3 Both Teams Played Hard Destination Finals 2004 NBA Legends Tour 9:26 am on 5/29 Pacers-Pistons: The Ultimate Playoff Chess Match Joaquin Henson Journalist/Broadcaster, Philippines 11:54 pm on 5/27 Jordan in Tokyo Doc Rivers Analyst, ABC Sports 2:17 pm on 5/20 In the Blink of an Eye Rebecca Lobo NBA TV Commentator 2:11 pm on 5/20 Talking Season Preview Tim Kiely Senior Producer, Inside the NBA 4:18 pm on 5/13 Inside Inside the NBA Rafael Alique Director, Marca.com 8:50 pm on 4/19 And the winner is... Benito Martinez Actor, The Shield 6:54 pm on 3/22 Surprise, surprise! Jay Williams NBA Guard 9:17 am on 3/20 Chipping Away at the Stone - What do you think -

-Yang sedang bingung-

2004-06-07T10:03:00.000+07:00

Tadi malam dia cerita tentang suatu dark secretnya yang selama ini disimpannya dari aku dari sekian banyak dark secret lainnya. Sepanjang hari kemarin sebenarnya dia udah merasa gak enak perasaannya karena masih ada dark secret yang belum dia bereskan dengan Tuhan. Ada suatu ds yang dia bilang udah sering banget dia lakukan dari tahun ke tahun. Tapi katanya dibilang sering ya ga’ tapi juga dibilang ga ya pernah juga sih. Jadi bingung sudah seberapa jauh sih? Apa sih secara jelas ds nya itu? Dia ga cerita karena katanya itu gak layak untuk diceritakan pada orang lain karena sangat personal dan cukup dia dan Tuhan yang tahu persisnya. Menurut dia, dia itu udah kotor banget tubuhnya, udah nyia nyiain kelebihan yang diberikan Tuhan padanya dengan hal yang ga’ bermutu. Katanya dia punya suatu “kelainan” yang aneh yang sudah dirasakannya sejak kelas 2 SD dan memicunya untuk melakukan hal hal yang “mengerikan dan kotor”. Tapia pa persisnya dan seberapa jauh, dia ga mau cerita. Aku menghargai keputusan itu. Kemarin sih aku minjamin dia digicam karena dia perlu untuk foto tugasnya tapi trus tadi itu dia jadi aneh dan mungkin ada hubungannya ama digicam itu, mungkin aku ga akan cerita disini. Aku jadi bingung karena dia nangis nangis sejadi jadinya dan dia bilang kalo dia itu udah kotoe banget dan sangat banyak yang belom dia selesaiin ama Tuhan. Dia juga nganggap kalo habis dia cerita kayak gitu aku juga akan berpikiran merendahkan bahkan melecehkan dia. Sekarang dia bilang "terserah kamu mo pikir apa tentang aku, aku udah siap koq". Katanya dia udah siap untuk dicemooh, dimaki dan diperlakukan kurang baik. Aku bingung karena aku ga tau harus bagaimana. Dalam hatiku, aku ga' terlalu mikirin itu sebagai hal yang terlalu luar biasa, alias reaksiku biasa biasa saja. Nggak ada yang sedang muter muter di kepalaku setelah dia bilang itu, cuma kaget aja sih. Hanya yang menjadi pertanyaan sudah separah apa, gitu kali ya dan seberapa seringnya? Tapi itu juga karena curiosity aja dan bukan karena aku marah dan mau merendahkan dia. Ya sekedar mau tahu aja deh, tapi rasanya itu gak akan terlalu ngaruh ke sikap aku ama dia. Tapi setelah dia bilang berulang ulang aku jadi tambah bingung. Aku jadi mikir apa emang aku harus tanggapi berbeda dari apa yang sedang aku lakukan. Apakah mungkin aku harus marah terus sebel ama dia, trus ninggalin dia. Inikah kira kira apa yang akan dirasakan cowok lain terhadap cewe seperti dia? Tapi kok Tuhan ga naruh rasa yang seperti itu di hatiku ya? Justru rasa iba yang aku rasakan. Perasaan senasib sebenarnya karena deep in my heart aku juga berfikir apakah aku juga nggak mirip itu? Aku juga gak bersih dari dark secret yang udah pernah aku lakukan? Rasanya kok nggak ya. Sehingga aku jadi merasa senasib waktu dia cerita gini, tapi dikiranya aku marah besar. Memang aku ga banyak bicara setelah itu hanya menenangkan dia yan terus nangis, sambil bingung dalam hati....apa yang harus aku lakukan....Rasanya aku nggak bisa benci dia, padahal hal ini semestinya bukan hal yang biasa saja. Apakah aku sebenarnya ilfeel alias nggak mo ngurus ato sebenarnya aku sedang menjadi seorang yang pengertian dan bersikap dewasa karena semua orang juga bisa salah dan mungkin telah melakukan suatu hal dalam hidupnya yang mengecewakan dirinya sendiri dan juga mungkin Tuhan. Apakah aku sebenarnya sangat mencintainya atau itu semua hanyalah omong kosong belaka. Aku kok sangat percaya kalo aku itu sangat mencintainya, tapi kok rasanya ku kok cuek ama hal kayak gini. Aku jadi bingung bukankah aku harusnya marah besar? Kalian ngerti nggak sih apa yang sedang aku hadapi dan apa yang seharusnya aku lakukan? Ada ga yang pernah ngalamin kayak aku ini. Dia juga bilang kalo ini adalah salah satu dari sekian banyak dsnya yang masih tersimpan rapi itu, yang dia nggak bisa ceritakan ama aku ato siapapun, but maybe one day... katanya. Tapi aku jadi bingung menerka nerka apa saja dsnya itu? Membahayakankah itu untuknya...ato juga untukku? Perlukah aku mengetahuinya dengan jelas? Bagaimana juga seharusnya aku harus menyikapinya? Bingung nih..... Ada yang mau mbantu diriku ini? -Yang sedang bingung- - What do you think -

Water

2004-06-04T13:19:00.000+07:00

Air adalah sesuatu yang nggak asing lagi buat manusia. Bayangkan sekitar lebih dari 63% dari tubuh kita ini ternyata terdiri atas air. Air itu begitu pentingnya buat manusia setiap hari. Manusia harus minum air, mandi dengan air, mencuci dengan air bahkan buang air(?) hehehe. Begitu pentingnya sampai mungkin kalau kita tidak menyentuh air mungkin dalam sehari aja kita bisa dehidrasi bahkan harus say ciaow ama dunia ini. Tapi ternyata air itu punya karakteristik yang unik. Air itu sifatnya merendah. Sejak SD mungkin kita udah tahu kalau air itu mengalir dari tempat yang tinggi ke tempat yang lebih rendah. Sifat yang sangat humble banget. Dia nggak akan mau bertahan lama lama pada kedudukan di atas sono. Dia lebih senang mengalir ke bawah dan menjadi a nobody but useful to everybody. Air itu gak pernah melihat perbedaan. Apakah kamu air merah, air agak coklat atau air yang bau, item, menjijikkan, tapi dia akan dengan senang hati berbaur menjadi satu bahkan menjadikan dirinya sendiri bau bahkan menjijikkan apabila itu diperlukan. Air itu selalu bermasyarakat. Begitu satu drop air masuk ke air yang besar dia nggak mau menjadi yang menonjol sendiri. Dia mengalir dimulai dari atas yang beberapa gelintir air kemudian menuju ke bawah dan menemui air lainnya dan membentuk suatu badan air yang lebih besar bahkan bisa menjadi suatu lautan yang begitu dahsyat dan dalam. Lautan yang mencekam dan dapat mengkaramkan kapal Titanic sekalipun. Akan tetapi bila dia diangkat keatas kembali dan dijatuhkan kembali ke bumi, maka ia tidak akan sombong dan mengatakan bahwa ia telah mengaramkan kapal pesiar terbesar di dunia itu, bahkan dia akan merendah kembali dan tetap menjadi dirinya yang tidak menonjol itu. Pernah nggak mandi di bawah shower, uh rasanya begitu enak seakan kepala dipijat dengan air yang meluncur dari atas ke bawah. Enak tenan. Tapi karena itu hanya berlangsung beberapa menit saja. Aku pernah mendengar suatu siksaan yang dilakukan dengan air. Ada seorang tahanan (nggak tahu persisnya sih ceritanya) tapi akhirnya dia dihukum dengan cara kepalanya dijatuhin air setetes demi setetes tapi nggak berhenti. Bisa bayangin nggak, awalnya sih ga terasa tapi lama lama bisa pecah tuh kepala, dan orangnya emang jadi gila. Memang air tuh dahsyat benar. Pernah tahu Grand Canyon di Amerika, itu juga dibentuk sedikit demi sedikit oleh kedahsyatan air yang ribuan tahun telah menyapunya hingga menyisakan keindahan yang tak ada taranya, tapi air gak pernah menyombongkan dirinya akan seluruh hasil karyanya. Air itu ketika diteguk dapat menghilangkan kepenatan dan memberikan kesegaran baru terhadap si penikmat. Ketika panas matahari menyengat, obat yang paling menyegarkan adalah air, entah diminum ato untuk berendam.hehehe. Bisa nggak ya gue jadi seperti air yang begitu banyak memberi kegunaan bagi manusia lain, nggak menjadi sombong akan achievement yang gue udah dapatkan, masih mau berbaur bahkan memikirkan kepentingan orang lain, gak mau menonjolkan diri dan menjadi yang terhebat diantara banyak orang. I'd like to be. Do you? - What do you think -

My Little Prayer Corner

2004-06-02T10:09:00.000+07:00

I once had a serious and urgent urge to pray. At that time there were just so much burden on my shoulder that I just couldn't handle anymore. I began to pray but had many problems of the place to pray in. There was just no place for me to pray in quiet at my place now, because it is as the Indonesian know it as a kost place that is I rented a room with my brother. Yup just a room, very small and also have many more people living there who sometimes just don't understand these needs. So I made myself a little getaway place at my office cause I thought this will be the place where I will spend my time longest throughout the day. So I made myself a table in the corner and decorated the wall as shown in the picture. There I put all the stuff that I wanted to pray for like the election in Indonesia, also the Sunday School where I ministered in, my life, my family and close ones, the world all have their own corner where I can stick some post-it stamps that I've already written my prayer in. It was kinda nice to have a little getaway for myself. Hahahaha Sometimes I would come to the office so early when nobody has come and pray and have my quiet time here. So quiet and comforting, with some gospel music coming out of my computer, feels like heaven. Talking to my Father about something and nothing feels so good. But there are times when I'm not so in the mood for praying. There are times when my mind is so full and I just don't have what it takes to pray. When all the worries have overcome me, when I was at my weakest point sometimes I forgot to pray. But I don't know how, but somehow my Father just keeps on calling for me. Sometimes I am stubborn and don't want to come, but He didn't force me to, but He's still there and I can feel that He was never away, not for one second. I was ashamed, for many times. But at other times all the troubles that is happening to me made me come to my Prayer Corner and just prayed my hearts out, sometimes even drop a tear. But my comforting father knows exactly what I need and He does all His stuff in His time. I know that sometimes I just couldn't wait for Him to act on my case. I want it all to be fast and instant, just like I am. I like everything to e fast and instant, don't like to wait too long for something. I'm not a very patient person I think. Tommorow is Waisak for Buddhist and it's supposed to be a national holiday, but at my office they moved the holiday to saturday, so tommorow we still have to work and Saturday will be off. Ohhh bummer. I already had plans for tommorrow but I guess it has to wait. I was thinking of moving to another place because the place I'm living at the moment is getting unfriendlier by the day. many things that is supposed to be my priviledge that they cut. So I was thinking of moving out, but I guess that it needs some time to find the best place and still affordable. Coz I don't make too much and I'm planning on saving for "my future" if you know what I mean. Ah well I guess I have to make another arrangement of my time so that I have time to find the best place to live in. - What do you think -

Me, Myself and I

2004-06-01T09:29:00.000+07:00

Well, don't you feel that sometimes you don't know yourself until you actually answered some stupid questionaires and thought," Really? Am I like that?" and refreshes your memory about who you are. Well here's to me and my life BASICS 001.Name: Hendra Syahputra Sembiring DePariez (Babang) 002.D.O.B.: twentyseventhofapril in Medan 003.Location: Surabaya, Indonesia 004.Religion: Christian 005.Occupation: drawing, and designing shoes 006.Ethnicity: Karonese as in Batak Karo APPEARANCE 001.Hair: always short and curly cause I cut it once every two or three weeks, but I had a long hair once (whu@3$%*9) 002.Eyes: dark brown 003.Height: I think I'm somewhere around 173 - 175 cm. Is that short or tall 004.Skin: Zebra (Dark in some places esp. hand and light in most places esp. *censored*) STYLE 001.Clothing: would rather use baggy clothes and pants, but tight jeans is OK with tees is the most comfy clothes (except officedays) 002.Music: R&B, rap, gospel, soul, jazz, pop 003.Make-up: I don't think so 004.Body art: Tatoos of a naked girl in my back and ten piercings in my ears with two more in my tounge and lips and gotcha for believing that. Nah..no body arts RIGHT NOW 001.Wearing: shirt and jeans to work 002.Listening to: radio from the other room, my friend in front of me screaming 003.Thinking of: what it would be like if I could just sleep the whole day off. :) LAST THING YOU... 001.Bought: a nice simple breakfast 002.Ate and drank: tea and water on my desk 003.Read: writings on my computer 004.Watched on TV: The Three Musketeer >>old movie but nice EITHER / OR 001.Club or houseparty: club 002.Tea or coffee: coffee err.. tea er.. both really 003.Achiever or slacker: I achieve the title of a slacker hahaha 004.Beer or cider: neither but maybe a little bit beer 005.Drinks or shots: drinks 006.Cats or dogs: both 007.Single or taken: single but in a relationship 008.Pen or pencil: pencils definitely to draw with :<) 009.Gloves or mittens: c'mon I'm living in a tropical country don't need neither 010.Food or candy: food of course 011.Cassette or cd: CDs! 012.Coke or Pepsi: coke 013.Hard or mild alcohol: uhmmmm....don't drink 014.Matches or a lighter: lighters are much cooler 015.Sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: soaps yux 016.Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey: Definately Oprah, she's the best WHO DO YOU WANT TO... 001.Kill: you hehehe yeah really I'm a cold blooded killer :P 002.Hear from: old friends that have been scatered all over the world...miss you guys 003.Get really wasted with: don't wanna get wasted, I had and the feeling wasn't anywhere near good 004.Look like: Me hehehehe 005.Be like: Mike 006.Avoid: my boss hahahaha no noone don't like to avoid anyone. Coz I'm friendly :P LAST PERSON YOU... AND WHEN? 001.Touched: her last night 002.Talked to: a colleague about work just now 003.Hugged: her last night 004.Instant messaged: My brother last night 005.Kissed: hahaha.hahahahaha. who else 006.Who broke your heart: also her WHERE DO YOU... 001.Eat: anywhere don't care 002.Dance: above the floor 003.Cry: Cry??? Uhm they're for babies right 004.Wish you were: right now, i want to go to Europe and US HAVE YOU EVER... 001.Dated one of your best friends? yup 002.Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? yup.but not out loud just pain in the heart 003.Drank alcohol? yes but not much 004.Done drugs: Never I'm clean check me out 005.Broken the law: yea, i think so, lots of times 006.Ran away from home: no 007.Broken a bone: too many times 008.Cheated on a test: yes but I'm still ashamed that I did 009.Skinny dipped: Yes but when I was just a kid in a river lots of times 010.Played truth or dare: of course, it's challenging 011.Flashed someone: hahah. no. 012.Mooned someone: n0. ehhh. do you really wanna know 013.Kissed someone you didn't know: No 014.Been on a talk/game show: nah 015.Been in a fight: Too many times 016.Ridden in a fire truck: That'll be cool but haven't ridden in one but I got in one before 017.Been on a plane: yeah 018.Come close to dying: Yup, once my bus jumped off a cliff 019.Cheated on your boy/girlfriend: nope 020.Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: yeah, it's my fave 021.Eaten a worm/mud pie? er...should I 022.Swam in the ocean: beach actually 023.Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up: Don't have them WHAT IS... 001.The most embarrassing CD in your collection? um, britney spears haha that's a laugh 002.Your bedroom like? never far from the captain's mess hheeee very messy, typical boys room 003.Your favorite thing for breakfast? tuna sandwich and a hot chocolate milk 004.Your favorite thing for lunch? rice with anything 005.Your favorite thing for dinner? anything 006.Your favorite Restaurant? Lots ARE YOU... 001.A Vegetarian?: ha... don't make me laugh... 002.A Good Student?: who wants to know 003.Good At Sports?: Yup, my favourite subject at school 004.wakeboarding/snowboarding: i'd love to try snowboarding. 005.A Good Singer?: so people say 006.A good Actor/Actress?: I could be one day :P 007.A deep sleeper?: never 008.A Good Dancer?: I can dance but good? 009.Shy?: shameful to be exact 010.Outgoing?: yes 011.A good storyteller?: when I'm in the mood 012.Last words?: Wanna know more? hehe that's for me to know and for you to find out Anyway, just enjoy yourself and just be yourself and have a nice day. Ciaow here's an acronym of my name:

H	Hilarious
E	Elitist
N	Natural
D	Dreamy
R	Radical
A	Adventurous

Name Acronym Generator
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Weekend

2004-05-31T11:35:00.000+07:00

Well, yesterday was the Pentecost day (is this how to spell it sis. There was a group from Malang called One Praise that came to our church yesterday and took over all the Pentecost celebration. This group is quite good. They were singing very well. The members of this group consist of people coming from various churches from as many as 40 churches. Wow, 40 different churches from all different denominations can come together as a group and sing for the Lord, that's excellent. They put aside all their differences (as many of you know that not all these denominations get along too good) as just have one goal that is to give praises t the Lord. They were singing and also have many attractive choreography with clapping and feet stomping and everything, but they also have dancers in the foreground (modern dancers). It was nice to see such a ceremony at a church like mine (GKI). Just about everyday is raining this week, starting from last Tuesday. In one hand it is quite nice cause the air becomes fresher after the rain and cooler too, but also the streets are begining to flood again. All the puddles are starting to get bigger and the road may start to break again making holes on the street. Well, this is Surabaya, too many people have complained but nothing has been done about it. These few days my body is not really feeling too well, I think it may also be because of the changing weather. I get tired so easily, Last Saturday until last night I just couldn't get my eyes to close, I dont know why but they just refused to close, making me even more tired than usual. I can't refresh myself by playing basketball because I play basketball outdoors and the court is wet and slippery after the rain so all my muscles seem to freeze. Ohh the feeling.... I also helped my GF finishing her interior modeling. She was making a two story house and she had to make the model. Well she doesn't have the time cause her drawings are not done also, so I had to help her finish it. Now that's very tiring cause I also have to think and find alternative materials to use for the model and make it as realistic as possible. Well I had lots of experience making it because when I was back in uni I also have to make them every semester cause I studied to become an architech. But I guess it's just because I have to work in the morning and then go home to change and then go to her place to help her out with little rest that makes it even more tiring. Ah well, it doen't matter. That's what friends are for right. - What do you think -

A whinner or a winner

2004-05-26T09:06:00.000+07:00

Through the frayed curtain at my window a wan glow announces the break of day. My heels hurt, my head weighs a ton, and something like a giant invisible diving-bell holds my whole body prisoner. My room emerges slowly from the gloom. I linger over every item: photos of loved ones, my children's drawings, posters, the little tin cyclist sent by a friend the day before the Paris-Roubaix bike race, and the IV pole over-hanging the bed where I have been confined these past six months like a hermit crab dug into his rock.

Rasanya kita semua tidak kenal dengan orang yang bernama Jean-Dominique Bauby, kecuali Anda perempuan dan berbahasa Perancis atau suka membaca majalah bernama Elle. Ia pemimpin redaksi Elle. Tahun 1996 ia meninggal dalam usia 45 tahun setelah menyelesaikan memoarnya yang "ditulisnya" secara sangat istimewa dan diberinya judul Le Scaphandre et le Papillon Tahun 1995 ia terkena stroke yang menyebabkan seluruh tubuhnya lumpuh. Ia mengalami apa yang disebut 'locked-in syndrome', kelumpuhan total yang disebutnya 'seperti pikiran di dalam botol'. Memang ia masih dapat berpikir jernih tetapi sama sekali tidak bisa berbicara maupun bergerak. Satu-satunya otot yang masih dapat diperintahnya adalah kelopak mata kirinya. Jadi itulah caranya berkomunikasi dengan para perawatnya, dokter rumah sakit, keluarga dan temannya. Mereka menunjukkan huruf demi huruf dan si Jean akan berkedip bila huruf yang ditunjukkan adalah yang dipilihnya. "Bukan main", kata Anda. Ya, itu juga reaksi semua yang membaca kisahnya. Buat kita, kegiatan menulis mungkin sepele dan menjadi hal yang biasa. Namun, kalau kita disuruh "menulis" dengan cara si Jean, barangkali kita harus menangis dulu berhari-hari. Betapa mengagumkan tekad dan semangat hidup maupun kemauannya untuk tetap menulis dan membagikan kisah hidupnya yang begitu luar biasa. Ia meninggal 3 hari setelah bukunya diterbitkan. Jadi, "Berapapun problem dan stress dan beban hidup kita semua, hampir tidak ada artinya dibandingkan dengan si Jean!" Apa yang a.l. ditulisnya di memoarnya itu? "I would be the happiest man in the world if I could just properly swallow the saliva that permanently invades my mouth". Bayangkan, menelan ludah pun ia tak mampu :-(. Jadi kita yang masih bisa makan bakmi, ngga usahlah Bakmi Gajah Mada, indomie yang Rp 1000 saja, seharusnya sudah berbahagia 100 kali lipat dibanding si Jean. Kita bahkan senantiasa mengeluh, setiap hari, sepanjang tahun. We are the constant whinners. Apa lagi yang dikerjakan Jean di dalam kelumpuhan totalnya selain menulis buku? Ia mendirikan suatu asosiasi penderita 'locked-in syndrome' untuk membantu keluarga penderita. Ia juga menjadi "bintang film" alias memegang peran di dalam suatu film yang dibuat TV Perancis yang menceritakan kisahnya. Ia merencanakan buku lainnya setelah ia selesai menulis yang pertama. Pokoknya ia hidup seperti yang dikehendaki Penciptanya, 'to celebrate life', to do something good for others. Jadi, betapapun kemelutnya keadaan kita saat ini, mereka yang sedang stress berat, mereka yang sedang berkelahi baik dengan diri sendiri maupun melawan orang lain atau anggota keluarga, mereka yang sedang tidak bahagia karena kebutuhan hidupnya tidak terpenuhi, mereka yang jalannya masih terpincang-pincang karena baru saja terinjak paku, mereka yang sedang di-PHK, saya yakin kita masih bisa menelan ludah. Semoga kita semua tidak terus menjadi whiner, pengeluh abadi, manusia yang sukar puas melainkan kita dapat menjadi winner, individu yang berjiwa dan berpikir sebagi pemenang, yang dapat mengatasi kesulitan apapun yang ia rasakan/gumuli . Kata orang bijak, "Think and Thank", berfikirlah dan kemudian bersyukurlah. Yup! just one simple word : "Be Thankful to GOD for what you are" You just beautiful. Taken from my email message - What do you think -

Yawnnn.....

2004-05-25T15:57:00.000+07:00

Yawn... why do I feel really tired today? God knows. Ever since last night it seems like I just couldn't get enough sleep, all the bones in my body seems to be breaking apart. But I didn't do anything before that. I wonder what's going on. Ohhhhh yawn....Think I better go back to sleep. So happy dayzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........zzzzzzzzzzzz - What do you think -

The Blogger Family Gathering

2004-05-24T12:15:00.000+07:00

Yesterday we had a gathering for BloggerFamily. Well it began when Vie wanted to take a break from her daily routines and just take a stroll to Surabaya and also because she needed to buy some stuff for her work. She contacted Uyet and asked me also if I could come and we should gather somewhere, you know just to get to know each other. So she contacted other people she "knew" from the forum and asked them also to come. Well she was really getting into it cause she then took a train from Banyuwangi and slept on the train as it took her to Surabaya. She messaged me after she got here at Gubeng at around six in the morning. Then I think Uyet came and picked her up and they went to Uyet's place for maybe a shower and such. That's because the gathering was to be held at 2 pm in Delta Plaza foodcourt (my suggestion) cause she wanted to be close to Gubeng so she could return easier. And after the gathering she did return to Banyuwangi at around 10 pm cause she also messaged me again. This girl is so cool. Nice one sis. Anyway, at first I was afraid that we might not connect to each other, cause no one has ever really met. Everyone that she invited also never met each other. Because even though we were all in Surabaya, there isn't such a community that allows us to gather and be friends here. Maybe after the gathering we could make something happen huh guys. But after we met things were kinda different, cause some of us especially me, vi3 and uyet were kinda "crazy" so we kinda connect to each other. That was nice. The people that came, well I don't really remember everyone's name, are Me, Vi3, uyet, Katryn and her friend Melly (I think), Balung, and Rezi with her friend ?forgot his name?. Anyway we just taled and took pictures and made fun of ourself. I think in that food court yesterday, we were the loudest crowd cause there were just laughter everywhere and we were just going crazy and I think just about everyone was just looking at us....with envy.....(hahahahaha) Yes they should envy us because we can laugh our heads off in that place without the worry of ashaming ourself. hahahahaha There were just no shame. I think I better not go to Delta for a little while, so the waiters there can slowly forget me.....hahahahaha. But I gotta go early cause I had to go to church after that, but Katryn and Melly and also Rezi and friend also left the building cause they also have something else to do. When we left though there were two other guys that came, I think one was Mirza and the other...forgot. Ah well, so we left the five of them there. Well guys, even though we didn't getr to know each other too well cause some were kinda shy to even talk, I think I had fun meeting with everyone. maybe we ought to get together again, huh. Whaddya reckon, mate. - What do you think -

Walking through the Rough Road

2004-05-22T10:50:00.000+07:00

As I walk through this long rough road... Many times I stumble on pebbles and stones, Bruises and cuts I have to suffer... Blood is running out from here and other.

I cried till my tears have dried, But no one seems to hear my heart, Pain.... disappointment I face all day, Just makes me weaker and weaker every day.

"Lord, where art Thou in times of need... Where will I find Thy hand so sweet.. Why do I have to walk this road, And carry all this burden and heavy load".

God said to me,"My child, you cried?... Why haven't you seen Me through your heart? I am here all along the road... And cared for your bruises, never on hold".

Then I look back behind my shoulders I saw that it was beautiful all along, I never knew this road was good, Because I always look at my bruises and wounds. by: Me, myself and I - What do you think -

Alive today

2004-05-21T12:09:00.000+07:00

Well today I feel kinda in control over things. At the office is good. My tasks are done and some things that I am responsible for is coming to a finish. Back at home is also good. Nothing bad is going on so today I kinda feel alive and well. Oh what a day. I think I'm gonna play basketball this afternoon after work to release all the tensions in my muscles after a few days without it, I konda miss it. So to everyone good luck also on your lifes ok. Thanks Father - What do you think -

Happy Ascension Day

2004-05-20T13:16:00.000+07:00

Well, I just wanna say Happy Ascension Day.

Today we celebrate the time Jesus departed from this earth and He's going to heaven to prepare many things for us there. He also has give us a last task that is to go and tell the whole world about the gospel, and baptize and make disciples of men and to teach them the things that have been taught to us from now and forever. But He didn't just leave us to do this task alone cause He also promised that He will be with us until the end of time. What a very responsible God. Thanks Father. updated: Thanks to sista for correcting the spelling. :p - What do you think -

Sex Test

2004-05-19T14:16:00.000+07:00

Get out a piece of paper to keep score. Answer each question with a number between 1 and 10. 10 being that the urge strongly exists, 1 being that the urge doesn't exist at all, and 5 being that it is so-so. After answering the questions, total up all the points. The scoring key is at the bottom.

How strong do you feel about being sexually attractive to potential mates? How good does it make you feel? How willing might you be to have sex with an attractive partner even though a love relationship doesn't exist? How driven are you to find ways to have sex with someone you find very appealing? How strong is your inner desire to vacation at a resort whose advertising implies a potential sexual adventure? How strong is your urge to have sex in general? How jealous would you feel (or have actually felt) if you suspected your spouse (significant other) was secretly having sex with someone else? If you could get away with it, would you forcibly have sex (doing something coercive) with someone you found appealing? How strong is the sexual orientation of your dress? If you could do it secretly or not, how strong is the appeal of becoming a member of a sex club? How willing would you be to hurt a friend by having an affair with that friend's spouse? If it was legal, how strong would your urge be to avoid current or imagined monogamy? How willing are you to drug or get your partner drunk to have sex ? How strong is your desire to enhance sex with sexually appealing undergarments and/or sex videos? If you could do it secretly or not, how strong would be your urge to have sex with more than one partner simultaneously?

Scoring: 0 -14 You are somewhere near totally asexual. You might never have had sex and don't care if you do. You might even be repelled by the thought of having sex. But this doesn’t really matter. There are billions of other people having sex, so the earth will be well populated, anyway 15 - 28 You do have a sex drive, but it doesn't take any priority at all in your life. You may even dress yourself to be sexually unappealing so that you don't have to contend with sex or any of its aspects. If you have a primary sex partner and you discover he or she is having an affair, you might feel more relieved than jealous. 29 - 42 You have a sex drive and you might enjoy sex when you have it, but you are not going to do very much to attract it. If you're married or in a relationship, you would probably never think of cheating. 43 - 56 You may have an active sex life, but sex is not frequently on your mind. If you need to go without it for a relatively long period of time, it probably won't be depressive. You may dress fashionably, but not intentionally to appear sensual. You are probably not a candidate for an affair, but will feel jealousy if you have a significant partner and he or she wanders. 57 - 70 You're where most of us are at, according to the monitoring software.. You have an active sex life, or wish you did. You dress to be attractive to the opposite sex, but you don't overdo it. Sex is just a normal part of your life and you're happy with where you stand with it. 71 - 84 Sex is an important part of your life. You'll dress so that you perceive yourself as being attractive to members of the opposite sex or potential sexual partners. You like the idea of sex, but the urge is not strong enough for you to have an affair (if you are attached), unless the attraction of the potential partner was overpowering. If you have a significant partner and he or she wanders, you will feel jealousy. 85 - 98 Sex is on your mind a good part of your waking hours. If you are married or into a serious relationship, you are ripe for an affair, if a discreet opportunity presents itself. On occasion, you will find yourself openly flirting with a member of the opposite sex or potential sexual partner, who is very attractive to you. You like the whole idea of the mating dance. If you have a significant partner and he or she wanders, however, you will feel very depressed and jealous 99 - 112 Sex is uppermost in your mind. If you are female, you might be into such things as short skirts, tight clothing, extra bright makeup, spiked heels. If you are male, you might be into such things as tight pants, gold jewelry, open shirts or even power suits, intended to attract women. You love the whole idea of the mating dance. With both sexes, however, your clothing may also reflect your power program. Whether single or married, you are looking for sexually-oriented affairs. You are out for it, one way or another. But if you have a significant partner and he or she wanders, you will feel intense jealousy. 113 - 126 You may be among the nymphomaniacs of the world, whether female or male. You may sacrifice family or friends, if you find this necessary, to live in a world of sex. You will join sex clubs if they exist where you live. You will spend vacations at resorts that imply sexual adventures. You may put your life and your well-being at risk for sex, if you find this necessary. If you have a significant partner who wanders, you are capable of becoming furious with jealousy and taking revenge without qualms 127 - 140 Time to check in somewhere.. You may murder for sex. You may try rape, particularly if you also have an intense power program and can’t meet your expectations any other way. You may do whatever it takes to fulfill your sexual urges and fantasies. You are dangerous. You are also capable of killing if you catch your significant partner, who you think you own, having sex with someone else Well how did you score hahahahahaha. How about that, don't tell anyone but I think I just scored an 84. This test was taken from here just for fun anyway. Don't believe it with your life or you're gonna be ruined hahahaha. Peace yo - What do you think -

Test

2004-05-18T15:20:00.000+07:00

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It's Mom's Birthday

2004-05-18T14:04:00.000+07:00

Oh yeah, I almost forgot to say that it's my mom's birthday today. She's already 53. Wow that's old or still young? I don't know. Anyway, Mom even though you are far away in Medan, but my heart is always with you. Happy birthday and I hope that it's a happy one for you, even though nearly all your children have moved out of Medan but I know that our God stiil took care of you as he took care of me too. On this day I would like to say again that I love you. I can never repay all the things that you've done for me. You are so good. Hey, even though sometimes we don't have the same say on things but that doesn't mean that I don't love you. Hahaha that's called democracy hahaa Anyway Mom, once again Happy 53rd Birthday and I know too well that God is always with you so I'm not afraid. Love You mom - What do you think -

....God is good all the time....

2004-05-18T13:17:00.000+07:00

Well at last it's finally over. We kinda made up. But really I respect her and all that she has to suffer at the moment. Mungkin kamu gak tahu tapi dia punya kehidupan yang "berat". At the age of 20 (now) she has faced such a "bad" life. Well bad as maybe ost people would refer to it, because if we compare it to the "normal" life that all of you think of and have gone through, this is sooo different. Sejak dia lahir keadaan sudah sangat nggak baik.Selama dia bertumbuh, kasih sayang orangtua sangat minim diterimanya dan dia menjadi sangat "haus akan kasih sayang". Karena kehausannya itu, akhirnya terkadang dia harus melakukan hal hal yang kurang baik, demi mendapatkan kasih itu. Banyak hal yang akhirnya menjadi tidak "normal" dengan keadaannya dan keputusan keputusannya. Aku sering kali tidak mengerti bagaimana cara dia berpikir karena sangat tidak masuk akalku sama sekali. Tapi kalau aku juga mengalami hal yang dialaminya pada usia yang sangat muda, aku nggak tahu apakah aku juga masih bisa bertahan seperti dia. Memang seluruh hidupnya penuh dengan kasih karunia Tuhan, whether she knows it or not. Terkadang aku sering juga bertanya pada Tuhan, mengapa aku harus diberi dia yang notabene dalam pikiranku tidak "normal" itu. Mengapa tidak diberikan saja orang yang lebih "sama" dengan aku sehingga hidupku ini gak terlalu susah gitu lho. Aku sering menjadi iri pada orang lain yang mengalami hal hal yang "normal" dalam hidupnya sedangkan aku harus menerima ke'abnormalan' ini. Tapi Tuhan itu bukan Tuhan yang hanya mampu menjadikan bahkan bekerja dalam keadaan normal, justru lebih sering Dia bekerja dan menyatakan kemuliaanNya dalam keadaan yang tidak wajar. Aku bersyukur kalau aku boleh juga mengalami sedikit ke'abnormalan' yang selama ini gak pernah aku terima. Walo terkadang sakit juga rasanya. Tapi aku yakin Tuhan sudah memberikan yang terbaik untuk aku dan to God nothing is impossible, so why be afraid? benar nggak. Hari ini dia membuat keputusan yang agak sulit juga kuterima, dan aku udah bilang untuk tidak terbawa dalam situasi dan menyerah kepada situasi. Tapi aku juga percaya bahwa jalan setiap orang itu berbeda dan tidak harus seperti mayoritas orang lainnya. Tuhan juga mencintai yang minoritas kok. So anything that you have to do, anything that you have thought of for you. and prayed for it, I know it will be the best kalau Tuhan turut bekerja. Cause my God works in ways that I cannot understand, and then again if I can understand what my God thinks, then I'm also a God or He's not a God. - What do you think -

I'm so Fed Up

2004-05-17T16:12:00.000+07:00

Last night I had a fight with her. I mean after all that I've done to help her with all her works and assignments and after all the time and energy that I've spent in order to make everything the best for her, she just treated me like **** and nothing less. I was really angry that I left her house at midnight last night leaving her in tears and not wanting me to leave. But I guess I was a little fed up with it all. I know that I'm supposed to be more patient and that I should have learn to show this patience, but I guess last night I was really upset. I have thought of just about everything to make her not get D.O. provided her with all the encouragements so that she doesn't feel down, help with the finances cause I know she can't afford to do all her assignments, I mean I'm not trying to be a jerk here that wants to be treated like a god for doing all these, but at least I really like to hear nice words to come out of her mouth cause last night it was all **** and she was angry for no reason and well I don't know what she's thinking. just a few hours before that we were just sooooo fine and everything was going sooo smooth. Until then.... Even until now she hasn't called me to appologize or something. I'm trying not to be a snob by not calling her, but even though I can't stand not to call her, I reckon that sometimes she just needs to learn something the hard way. Sometimes it has to hurt. You can't just take for granted everything that is given to you. You also need to "give back" something in return, maybe just a mere gratitude or a thankyou wouldn't hurt, would it. But no, she just thinks of it as something normal that should be done. Nothing out of the ordinary. Well if you keep it up, noone will ever want to help you ever again. - What do you think -

What have I done?

2004-05-13T22:13:00.000+07:00

I was thinking, Lord. I've lived my life for quite a long time now. Nobody can say that 27 years is a short one. It has passed a quarter of a century. It can't really be said as a young boy anymore, but more like a young man. Yet, through all of these times that You've been here with me, I can't help but wonder. Have You ever felt proud of me? Have You ever think to yourself, it was so useful that I have created Hendra, all the plans that I have for him has been nicely accomplished by Hendra. He has been very helpful and there's no shame that I created such a human? Why do I ask oh Lord? It's because I felt that I've never made You proud of me. I have never made You laugh and enjoy my life. All the blessings that You have given me seems to be thrown all to the garbage by me. It's like all my life I have disappointed You in just about everyway possible in my life Lord. I felt like there's nothing that I've done in this world that would make You say," I'm glad that I made Hendra". All these 27 years oh Lord, I have only sinned to You over and over again, have never really obeyed You 100 %. Never have I really yield in Your presence. I feel like I have always used my own strength in doing everything that I was about to do. There were very little time that I have spent with You, if You can even call it quality time. Not to mention all those times I have made You cry for my hypocrisy. I'm really ashamed to even have to say this Lord. I know You are a great Lord, even a friend in need. But most of the time I only think of You as a friend that I can talk to whenever I needed You. Well, a friend? Maybe more like a servant, Lord. I know that I mostly asked You to do things for me, and sometimes (most of the times) I get angry and disappointed when whatever that I have asked of You that You don't fulfill and I would already call You an unfair God. I know deep in my heart that all You've done for me could never be explained. All those grace that You've shown me, Lord. Oh....it's just too good to be true. You're too amazing my Master. If I rethink of all the things that You've done that I sometimes think as an everyday thing, sometimes I wonder what if I wasn't given all those for free, then what would I do? Like the air that I breath everyday and every single nanosecond of my life, what would I do without it? Like the sun that I enjoy every morning everyday of my life, what would I do without it? Like the health so that I can do my activities everyday of my life, what would I do without it? Like the food and drink that I enjoy everyday of my life, what would I do without it? Like all the little things that I sometimes don't even think about that You've provided everyday of my life, what would I do without it? I guess without it all, I wouldn't be like what i am today. Everyday is a miracle, Lord. I know that You've also provided me with so much more than those miracles above that sometimes I don't understand because Your love is so much greater than my understanding oh Lord. Have I ever been thankful and grateful for all of it. Most of the time I complain that I don't receive "sufficient" to "my needs" Lord, when really You know better what I need everyday. All these times I can only complain about how other people is making so much better in their lives than me. That's me Oh Lord. You know me better than I know myself, even before I was born You have molded me in my mother's womb and have great expectations for me. But also all those time I never fully satisfied You, have I Lord? Now I come before You Oh Great One, please forgive me of my mistakes and Lord make me aware everyday of Your loving power and all the tasks that You want me to do in my life, as the reason I live in this world Lord. So that i don't disappoint You again and again in this short life of mine. Thank You Lord for all Your blessings and help all throughout my life. Use me and make me to the best that You want. - What do you think -

Arrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhh

2004-05-12T11:56:00.000+07:00

Help all the viruses in this cyber world has invaded my computer. It keeps on rebooting everytime I open a certain file. Help what should I do. It's just been formatted not so long ago, so why does it have to be like this now. hiks hiks.......... What a bad day I'm having.....Feeling really tired and now I can't work cause the computer is just not compromising with me. Damn viruses aaaaaaarrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhh - What do you think -

Dead tired

2004-05-12T09:34:00.002+07:00

What is this that I’m feeling? I feel really tired today, no question about it. I don’t know why but I just couldn’t get up this morning. It wasn’t as if I did something so heavy last night that I feel dead tired today. I usually play basketball every afternoon after work and not feel too tired instead I feel really good. I play to get all the stress of work out of my head and by playing sports I can really feel refreshed. But of course it’s tiring. But last night I didn’t play basketball. It was because I had to go to my GF’s house to help her in some technical drawing stuff. I mean she doesn’t know a thing about these stuff. How can you study and after all these time still don’t understand. OK I mean I know that interior designers don’t have to know much about but as the basics you still need to know anyway. Maybe I was kinda angry at her cause I ask about the specifications and she doesn’t know, so how was I supposed to help when I don’t have enough information. Humph….. That’s all that I had to do last night, just helping her. After that I got home about 11 pm and went straight to bed. That wasn’t too late was it, because I usually sleep at around 12 pm or even 1 am and still be fresh in the morning. I sleep like a baby and still could not wake up early. I got up this morning at 7 27 am, that’s just half an hour before office hour, yup I just got up really dead tired and just prepared myself and went to work. Don’t you just want it to be a Saturday cause maybe on Saturday after work I can still sleep. Oh the feeling of sleeping some more…..heaven. I can feel all the muscles in my body trembling. My calf muscle and the ones next to my knees are throbbing badly, and so is my head for that sake. Oh but I have to work. Poor me. Hehehehe Well I gotta work ok, but I can feel my back is just about to break. So I gotta be careful and just lay it on the back of my chair and of so comfortable and uum….slepp. z z zzzz zzzz zzzzz z zzz z - What do you think -

Help Doneeh help others

2004-05-10T15:09:00.000+07:00

We've been helped quite a lot by doneeh. Right fellow bloggers, especially the ones in Indonesia. So here's what doneeh had to say. It was taken from his blog at www.vibrasi.com Help Us, Help Other Whehhe kenapa namanya gitu ? yah sebab sekarang gwe butuh kira2 7 juta untuk bulan pertama (sekitar 25 juta / tahun) untuk beli server dedicated baru buat doneeh.com. Gwe jelas gak bisa bebanin semua biaya ini ke member secara paksa, makanya disini gw mo galang donasi buat kelangsungan dari doneeh.com. Ini server yang gwe mo beli : Dual Intel Xeon 2.4 Ghz processors RedHat Linux 9.0 cPanel/WHM 8.x 1 GB Registered ECC PC2100 266 Mhz DDR RAM 120 GB 7200rpm Drive with 8MB cache SuperMicro motherboard, expandable to 8 GB RAM 600 GB Data Transfer per Month 4 IPs Included, $1/month each additional Only $1/GB Additional Bandwidth Managed Server, 24/7 Support Kalo misalnya gwe bikin semua harus bayar supaya bisa pakai layanan doneeh.com, itu sama ajah gwe menyimpang dari tujuan utama doneeh.com yang berpedoman pada layanan free-service. Nah kenapa butuh server baru ? yah jelas butuh soalnya doneeh.com kan membernya tiap hari nambah, kebutuhan bandwith semakin gede dan kinerja server semakin tinggi, dengan server yang sekarang (yang di support oleh ARDHOSTING) sudah terlalu berat. Kemungkinan besar kalo misalnya gwe gak bisa dapetin dana ini, yah dengan berat hati terpaksa doneeh.com gwe tutup target gwe sih mungkin sekitar 2 sampai 3 bulan ini. Ini asli gwe butuh banget bantuan dari kalian kalian semua. Caranya ? Financial Donation Ini yang paling dibutuhin banget, dukungan dana dari kalian semua. Jumlahnya gak banyak kok, cuma sebesar Rp. 10.000 - Rp.20.000 (itung2 biaya member setahun kali ye huehue). Tapi yang namanya sumbangan kan bisa berapa ajah, terserah kalian yang mau nyumbang. Bagi yang berminat bisa transfer ke rekening ini : BCA KCP Hasanudin a/n : MOHAMMAD SYAFIUDDIN acc : 523 006 9397 Kalo udah, bisa di konfirmasikan ke support@doneeh.com Bagimana yang diluar negri ? Paypalnya udah jalan kok, click ajah di doneeh.com. Knowledge Donation Buat kalian yang punya ide apa pun soal scripting, nyariin klien buat pasang banner di doneeh.com atau apapun yang kira-kira bisa bantu doneeh.com gwe ngarepin banget bantuannya. Hmm apa lagi yah... kayaknya itu ajah dulu, tolong yah info ini di informasikan dan di sebar luaskan, dan tolong yang jago bahasa inggrisnya, halaman ini di translate ^^ gwe gak gape :D. Ayo semua,.. masa tega doneeh.com mati! Doneeh Saya hanya membantu So what do you say? Could we at least help him a little, after all that he has done for us. I think it's not hard, is it. Let's help. God bless you all. - What do you think -

Astrological Mambo Jumbo

2004-05-09T21:07:00.000+07:00

Do you believe in Astrology. Well I don't. But I once just curious filled out a form in the internet about this "Astrological thing" and this Angela the lady that host the web keeps on sending me emails that I have never even read. I have tried to send her a unsubscription message and she promised never to bug me again. That was about a year ago. But today i got another email from her.

Hello there Hendra, It's Angela here, your professional astrologer and I am contacting you today with some very important news indeed. I have often contacted you in the past however this time is very different as in just a few month's time an extraordinary event is set to take place, an astronomical occurance which is extremely influencial and which has not occured since the year 1882. On the 8th of June 2004 we will live through the most important astrological event in living memory, this event has never before been witnessed by anyone alive today and is an event which only happens once every single century and this event will have a considerable effect upon us all and most particularly upon you Hendra. I will explain in detail to you what this means and this is why it is important that you read this letter until the end, amongst all of my previous letters to you this one is most certainly the most important for you. For the very first time in over a hundred years Venus will glide across the face of the Sun in what is called an astral Transit. On the 8th of June 2004 we will be able to see the Planet of Love's silhouette cross in front of our Sun in the same manner as an eclipse and this planet's powerful influence will be entirely focused upon all of us here on Earth. For the first time in a very long time the Earth's and Venus' astral paths will cross and the planets will share the same space in our solar system. This phenomena is extremely rare and only four such events have occured since the invention of the telescope - these eclipses took place in 1518, 1631, 1761 and 1882................. more things about the effects of the cycles of the stars and planets and so on, I don't even understand........
The Venus Transit of June 8, 2004 is clearly the astronomical event of the year. But it may be much, much more than that. The Venus Transit has always preceded great breakthroughs in human consciousness and played a very significant role in very many cultures throughout the world. Since there is no person alive today who has witnessed a previous Transit the Venus Transit in 2004 will be everyone’s first such experience and this Transit will signal the beginning of a Golden Age. As I said, Venus, the jewel of the sky, will touch you very personally Hendra and you will very quickly feel it's influence in your lovelife. Venus prepares it's Transit over the next few months and you will find your lovelife changing in ways that you could not have foreseen. Above all I would really hope that you take into account the importance and the rare nature of this Transit and most particularly of the fact that this event is sure to have a very great impact on the state of your lovelife. Venus will act upon you in a very beneficial manner and if you know exactly how you should act at the time of this Transit you will be able to get the very best out of this period and I will explain to you just how you will be able to do that. For the moment I must explain to you in more detail exactly why this event will be so important for you. What does this mean concretely? It is not just because Venus will find itself in a particularly favorable position that on the 8th of June all single people will suddenly find their soulmate or that we will all experience extraordinary change in our lovelives on this exact day! Things are obviously not quite as simple as that! However what is certain is that although our lives may not be revolutionized on this precise day during this eclipse of the Earth, Sun and Venus, the period surrounding this date will be extremely important for very many of us and I will even go as far as to say that it will be capitally important for certain. I will explain myself, we have each a sentimental life which is very different - some of us are in relationships, some of us are asking ourselves questions about our relationships and some others are searching for their kindred spirit. At any rate our romantic lives are very important to us. This rare Venus Transit is certain to have a strong affect on our sentiments and will act as a magnifying glass, amplifying and catalyizing this side of our lives whatever our current situations may be and this is most particularly true for all those who are either searching for their soulmate or who are asking themselves questions about their relationship. These people must not miss this important event as Venus' influence will be of capital importance at this time and the tools must be found to benefit from this time's chances and opportunties in the very best manner possible. This is a unique event, Venus has not undergone such a powerful Transit since 1882.
Yeah right, she said that suddenly I will find the woman of my dream. As if the stars made that for me. Anyway I'm happy with the one that God has given me anyway, so why do I want to have what "the stars" will give me on the 8th of June. hahahaha, what a joke. There is no doubt at all that during this period which will surround the 8th of June 2004 (a few weeks before and a few weeks after) you will need a full analysis which will tell you EXACTLY WHEN and how to act, I must repeat that this period has the potential to radically change your life for good and most particularly as far as your lovelife is concerned. I therefore offer to produce for you a complete reading concerning your lovelife and this important Venus Transit, this reading will contain all of the essential information which you will need in order to get the very best out of this important time and to fully benefit from the opportunities which it is set to offer you as far as your lovelife is concerned.I must ask you however not to wait too long because bearing in mind the important nature of this event many of my clients have already requested this reading from me and I know that in just a few days time I will no longer be able to accept any more requests concerning this reading as I always like to work carefully, throughly, rigorously and meticulously for each one of my clients and this does take quite some time and I must limited the number of requests.

Hahaha, now she's talking and that's all it's all about. She will say many things to take my interest and then just used all this astrological mambo jumbo as a mask but what's really the point is that she wants my money. Well Angela, no way. I believe in Jesus, my saviour, and I believe that He is Lord that made all things and is powerful over everything. I just taught that today to my sunday school students, if I dn't believe it then I'm a hypocrite. I believe that God has power over all the stars and the planets and He made every single one of them. So why should I yield to the "power" of the creation when the creator is so much more POWERFUL. hahahaha. No I think I will just follow my Master. For He is good and faithful. God never changes and His mercy endureth forever and ever. If God wants to do soething "good" as in something that I will like than I'm so thankful Father, but if otherwise God thinks that I should experience something "bad" as in something that I wouldn't prefer to happen to me, than God must think that it's the best way to teach me something that will make me honor His name more and more as the outcome of it all. Glory be to the Father. - What do you think -

Guangzhou Fair and toilets

2004-05-05T21:44:00.000+07:00

Well here's me at the Guangzhou Pazhou Exhibition Center where they held the Canton fair that I attended. Well it was nice. But you know what, I found out that there were so many Indonesians at that fair. Now I can really see that just about everyone from just about every aspects of exporting goods are going to China. Well in that fair they don't only exhibit footwear but also ceramics, daily use apparatus, toys and gifts, machinery, everything, and people from all over the world just came to see the fair. I can see mostly the people are from Asia, such as Indonesia,India, Malaysia, Singapore, Thailand, Pakistan, Korea, maybe Laos and Burma, also from Europe, such as Italy, France, Russia, Spain and many more I couldn't really specified, also from Latin America, such as Brazil, Mexican, Puerto Rica, and many more, Africa , Egypt many countries but they all look the same :) And of course also from the States and Canada too. So many people from so many countries come to China to buy goods there. It was so amazing, you know. Having to see those people. What's most interesting about it is when I walked around the fair and just looking at new shoe designs, I see people (foreigner) bargaining with the manufacturer (chinese). When I hear them talking, I could just make out from what country they came from and I'm mostly not mistaken except those countries that are just about similar like the Arabs and the Latin Americans and the Africans. These people I don't really understand their accent. But mostly I can guess their nationality and when I asked some of them, I wasn't mistaken. I guess I kinda have the EARS for listening to these foreign accents, huh. It's very nice to know other people's characteristics. This was a very tiring Fair because the size of the building is huge. If we're not careful and don't keep up with our group we can surely get lost inside. There are so many stand and so many things to be seen. Even just footwear has worn my eyes out for one day. So many shoes and sandals to see, ranging from the smallest size that are worn by little newborn kids to the adult sized ones. Ladies, mens, childrens, toddlers also sandals, boots and so much more from all sorts of materials from leather to artificial leather to mesh to plain fabrics. I was really getting dizzy. Can you imagine. If I had to walk all the footwear stands, just a casual walk and just a little looking about inside the stands, that would probably take me around one and a half hour, not to mention if I had to stop at many interesting stands and asking them to make us some samples of their shoes, that would probably take another two hours. Really tiring. Phew so glad that it was over. I got some pretty nice feeling towards what the trend to be in sporting footwear for the next season, so I can prepare myself and make some new designs according to those "maybe" trends. Well I guess I'm not very good yet at knowing which is acceptable in the Indonesian market, which isn't. Cause Indonesians tend to be very hypocritical . They want all the new things that are "imported looks" or "overseas looks" but want them to be at the cheapest price as possible and if that can still be lowered more, they will do it. Indonesians just can't respect these things.They want everything to be in the best quality and design as possible but must have the price of a beancurd. I mean really annoying habits, don't you think. Well that was Guangzhou. The city is really nice. I mean, it's kinda new developed city so many people from overseas are coming also to China to build many new buildings, some even exotic even contemporary. It's nice to see a growing city like this. The system are getting better from what I can see. Only the international airport is bad. I mean it's dead bad for such a nice city. The toilet's are the worst toilet, well to tell you the truth in all of Guangzhou, we cannot find a "nice" toilet only in the hotel and at the fair. They all stink and have "leftovers" cause these people just don't flush, wonder why? Well about the airport, they will have a new baiyun International Airport in Guangzhou maybe to be opened on June. Hopefully the toilet's there will be much better. I have more to tell you about this city. But maybe tommorow ok. Gotta go. I'm not feeling too well in the stomach if you know what I mean. hehehehe. - What do you think -

I'll be back

2004-05-04T09:25:00.000+07:00

hey everybody... I'm back from my trip and back in the office now. I guess I'll be posting some new exciting experiences that I had in China and Korea. Interesting things..saddening things..even my birthday alone in a foreign land with not much friend and love for me..hiks hiks hiks can you just believe it. Yup my birthday was on the 27th of April and that day was the day that we departed from Guangzhou to go to Seoul and Pusan. Well in one case we could call it birthday in two countries and three cities but it was such a lonely one that it could just make you cry... but I didn't OK so don't worry. I'm not gonna cry just about that. hehehe Why am I sad? I don't know I guess just not being able to be with the ones that I love and being spoiled with love...(and food?) Actually my friends remembered it and congratulated me, but it was just a handshake and not with much love in it, is there? But what kinda touches me is that they managed to buy a little cake and gave it to me in Incheon airport, Seoul, on our way to Pusan. So that is a little bit cheering me up.. But at that moment I didn't get any messages or anything cause we didn't have a Korean number, we had a Guangzhou number but then in Korea we cannot use it so then I didn't know if anybody sent me any messages. It was kinda sad, but it's OK. Well anyway I'm back and will tell you all about my journey, but in another time ok. I gotta do some work today so that I don't forgot what i saw on my trip OK. So bye for now. And hasta la vista baby. Kamsha hamida - What do you think -

Wonderful God

2004-04-25T05:50:00.000+07:00

Remember what I posted before this, how I felt because I haven't got any money. Well I didn't feel that way anymore after that especially after writting it on this blog. I was alright. I wasn't blaming God or other matters like that. I wasn't even thinking about it anymore, but God heard my cries. Hahaha and He gave me something, a new experience for me to be remembered at all times, that God understand what I need and will fulfill it in His own time which is always the best time. What really happened you ask? Well, remember Mr Budi, the factory boss that came with us, well yesterday was his last day with us as he will go to Guangzhou one day ahead of us. Because his flight is not until 6 pm and he has to check out of the hotel, so he just took all his luggage and keep it in our office, after that we went to see some shoe factories and also some more outsole factories. Afer lunch we separated into two groups and one is still to see more shoe factories while Mr Budi and Ms Effi my boss went to the market searching for some shoe material that we need and maybe something new that is available on the market. After we got back together, he handed us an envelope. He gave it to Lenny who was sitting closer to him cause I was sitting in the front. He said this is for Lenny and Hendra and Totok, something to buy stuff with. We all refuse because he was just a friend and I just barely knew him. I only met him this once in Jinjiang, even though he's a good friend of the company in Surabaya. He insisted and said it's ok. Lenny took it and kept it. I thought it was only something around 100 RMB or the max 200 RMB each. But to my surprise after we opened it back in the office, of course after we dropped him at Jinjiang airport, there were $ 300 , which means $100 each for us. . That's a lot of money for me. I mean no one that I barely knew ever given me that much money before. I was so thankful and I remembered how I felt before. I was ashamed of myself in front of God. I knew God always give me the best quality that is suitable for me and what I need in this phase of my life. But sometimes I lose faith because I see this world and lured by all its riches. If I surrender to God and do as He says,I know He will never let me down. It doesn't mean that I will be a rich person, but I will have enough to live my life never less, that's good enough. Doesn't mean that I will live my life in all the riches in the world, but i will surely have a happy, wonderful feeling that God has provided for me. I always knew this for a fact, but sometimes I guess I just forget it and forget all the wonderful things that God has done for me. I'm sorry Father, please forgive me. You are a wonderful God and You work in wonders that sometimes I cannot think or thought of beforehand, cause if I really can think your thoughts then You won't be God at all. Thank You. - What do you think -

He's good to you and me

2004-04-23T21:37:00.000+07:00

Wow I can really feel what the poor people really think and feel when they are looking at the rich. Well today we (me, Totok, Novi, Lenny and Miss Effi-my boss and another friend Mr. Budi also a factory boss) after finishing some business with Juman Inc. - the company that made some samples for us in Jinjiang, as usual Ben Lin - Juman's boss, dropped us at the hotel. After that we walked along just sightseeing and window shopping through the road in front of the hotel. We went from one store to another just looking around. To my surprise the stores have changed and this time most of them are really "high class" stores. There were new stores that I haven't seen since I first came here last September. New stores that really sells expensive stuffs; clothes, jewelerry, shoes, just about everything. Well we just went in and I just take a look at some clothes and wow I was shocked at the price. Actually i was shocked because I wasn't prepared at all. For this trip I didn't bring any money at all. Zilch. So I borrowed some from Novi, our money keeper, so that I could buy some stuffs here. She gave me 300 yuan and when I looked at the prices, I cannot afford any good things. But what made me really get the "feeling" is that my boss and the other friend, Mr Budi just picked up anything and buy it just as if money is just flowing out of their pockets and never stops, as for me i could only swallow my saliva at the sight. I couldn't buy anything that I liked cause they are too expensive and on the other hand they are just buying clothes and stuffs as if they had no worry in the world. So I just went out of the store and waited until they finished shopping. What else can I do? I don't dare to touch another stuff cause I know I can't afford it. When we went outside to the street, there were many beggars and "low class" people also walking along that same street and just watching as people come out of the stores, with the "look" on their faces as if they are deep envy on the people that had just come out. I can see and feel the similarities of me and the people. I feel helpless cause I cannot buy anything and can only enjoy it from the outside. Or maybew I may see it but I cannot own it. I feel so much the same as they feel; so I thought. I thought to myself, why am I feeling the same thing as them. I am for one thing is much luckier than they are. I can go to China now; not everyone can do that. I have a job; so many people in China is unemployed. I can eat at fancy restaurants, even though not with my money; not many can do the same. So what have I got to complain about? Am I complaining to God because I haven't got much money? But God has provided all my needs so that I don't get hungry or naked and humiliate myself. God has been too good to me all throughout my life. What hasn't God provided for me. It's just that there are certain times and certain phases in life that God wants me to go through. maybe someday i will become one of them, but then again maybe not. Maybe some day I will become someone very popular in the world, but then again maybe I'll just be a person that lived in a so and so place that nobody knew about. But al through it all I know that God is always with me. God never let me go astray as if without a sheperd. He always guide me all through my life. It's just that maybe I don't listen to Him and pay attention to His works for me that made me feel "cheated" by God. God never cheats on me, He always provide everything that I truly needed as long as I listen to Him and do as I told. He's good to you too, did you know that? Don't feel crushed by this world, God is good all the time - What do you think -